i am not cold
just an absence
of heat
i am not sad
just an absence
of happy

z.f.

I left you.
I don’t deny it.
I also don’t deny the spark that turned into an explosion that was our love.
But like all explosions, they leave damage.
I left you because I was selfish.
Because I was so close.
A wise woman once told me, “to love is to give a part of yourself.”
And frankly, I had a habit of giving everything.
I began to visualize the future I know we’d never have. A future that’d haunt me.
I began to fall deeper and deeper in love with you and I didn’t want to.
I didn’t want to fall for you so early.
But I did.
I wanted so bad to give you my love, but I also wanted to protect myself from heartbreak.. How selfish.
I left you.
I love you.
I don’t deny it.

This morning I thought
I had found the girl of my dreams.
And then I woke up.

holidays like these make me feel empty

using big words to
make you
sound smart,

isn't smart

A quiet park, all alone,
Sitting on my swinging throne.

Back and forth, upward I fly,
Into the beautiful, cloudless sky.

Soaring, smiling, wind in my face;
Just me and swing in a peaceful place.

flapping on a line
                faded like a hazy sky
        once bright as bluebirds
How I miss your threads
        pale pink
                once scarlet as a rose

Belly to belly
        sheets are packaged
                in pairs
We could frolic
        in puffs
                of air

My clothespin
        to your rope
Come clean
        sweet cotton
                for romance
Laundry
        let’s dance