how lovely it is
to be a werewolf in disguise

full moons come
in the form of pain
transforming me
into a monster

though i have tried,
i cannot break open my soul
and share it with you
because there is nothing left
to break

they expected me
to miss them
but i kept walking
in the opposite direction

you learned what happiness is
because you learned what love isnt

its funny
how we take refuge at night
stuck between
lingering and lurking
when everything and nothing
is wrong and right
all at once

thoughts deep enough
to drown us
drip dry overhead
staining our bodies black
as the sky outside our lazily cracked windows

every sound is amplified
limited eyesight
heightening our sense of hearing
encouraging us to remain
quiet
dark
calm
but never asleep

my body has been
desecrated
by the expressions of love
of all of those
who came before you

yes
they did treat my body
like a temple
but for a temporary god
who vanishes
when day breaks

little did they know
that it broke me
too

i am thankful
that i still have
my memories
because they were all
that you couldnt take