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Emily Aug 2014
i wish just for a minute
that you could borrow my eyes
and see the way i see you
and how i'm mesmerized
you'd find that no one compares
when i stand them next to you
and there's no price on our love
that would ever, ever make do
you'd see that you take my breath away
that your beauty makes me stunned
and when i think about how you're mine
i know that's when i've truly won

if you could look inside my heart
you would find a shimmering glow
it exists because you created it
and since then it's started to grow
right when i saw you for the first time
something magical took place within me
i was struck with love
and hit with pure adoration
my life changed forever
you became my safe haven

if you could peak inside my soul
you will see that its sole purpose is you
your happiness and your forever
are the things it desires most
it will never be complete
without you by its side
you are its only soul mate
and it longs for you to be a bride

please say that you'll marry me
and be with me till the end of our days
even when our bodies aren't thriving
our love will live within our souls
never forgetting, always remembering
the beautiful love we will constantly share
i am so in love.
Emily Oct 2015
something about the rain
the gloom and doom sensation
yet it feels like relief
all your emotions and sorrows
pouring out and coming down
banging ******* the driveway
window cracked open
the repetitive sound in your ear
nothing to do but listen and think
the rain brings long thoughts
frustrating, sad, anxious
but at the same time, freeing
parts of me are washed away
parts i wish that weren't there
a new chapter can begin after the rain
the smell, the feel, the look
out of dark clouds comes light
you take a deep breathe
cleansed
Emily May 2017
There's something comforting
In the pitter patter of the rain
The deep rumbles of thunder
Flashes of lightning through the window
Washing away the problems of yesterday
Emily Mar 2014
To think that you would keep telling such an enormous lie just goes to show how desperate you are for attention and how much of a low life you truly are. Lying to hundreds of people about your identity, getting people to believe things that aren't true, and do things they wouldn't normally do, and to keep doing it blind to the consequences, just proves how stupid, inconsiderate, and pathetic you are. The truth is out. It will continue to penetrate the eyes and ears of everyone around you and you will be left with nothing but your bitter and empty heart and your computer screen that you love to lie behind. Have fun living with the guilt of what you've done for not months but years.
© Willa 2014
Emily Mar 2014
I'm so curious about you
I know you're someone else
I finally see the truth
And even though you hurt me
I'm dying to speak to you
I want to know your name
And what you're really like
What color is your hair
And the shade of your eyes
Where is it that you live
What is it that you do
Could you love the real me
Could I love the real you
The charade is finally over
For the both of us
Hopefully you'll admit it
And who really knows
If we'll talk again
But if you wish to speak to me
Honestly and as yourself
Reach out and try
I surely won't bite
We're only human
We're bound to make mistakes
I'll forgive you and you can forgive me
We can move on and really see
How we get along in reality
Without the facades
© Willa 2014
Emily Jul 2014
I'm numb
Been feeling this way for a while
Treated all my friends like garbage
And now I have none
I realize now I was treating everyone
The way I was allowing myself to be treated by someone else
I realize now that my mistake was ever doubting myself
And turning my back on the honest friends I did have
My mistake was believing in someone who kept hurting me
Over and over again
My mistake was the fact that I repeated myself
But expected different results
How stupid am I to have wasted all this time
When the answers to my questions were always in my heart and mind
I'll never doubt myself again
I'll never turn my back on those who try to protect me
I only hope I'll be forgiven
And I pray for the guidance I'll need
To never make this mistake again
© Emily 2014
Emily Jun 2014
it took me saying i wanted your **** for you to look at me romantically instead of as a friend
you then forced yourself on me the next day
you acted like a pig, and not a man worthy of love
you stink because you're such a child you don't even wash your clothes
or take five seconds to put on deodorant
you're going no where in life
stuck in high school days, working the same mundane job
no aspirations, no dreams
and if you do have any, you're too much of a coward to actually go pursue it
you're scared of life, locked away in your filthy apartment
and a job that sits across the street
i want a man who can take care of me
not the other way around
i'm not your ******* mother
and i'm not your lover
not to mention the fact that you're so immature
when you have a problem, you go crying to your mother
instead of having an adult conversation like normal people do
remember all those years i tried so hard for you, and you shot me down
and now that i have moved on, you don't like it
too bad, i gave you so many chances
i gave you so many openings
you told me that we would never be
it was your fault that i ultimately got over you
leave me alone
after all, it was you that said you wanted to get rid of me
don't come crawling back when you regret your decision
Emily Jan 2015
Sometimes I wish you were looking down upon me
Sometimes I hope you can hear me
And see all of your friends and family
Missing you, remembering you
But I know that you cannot
For you are in a beautiful place
That knows no sorrow or sadness
A place that is not of this world
You are where you have always belonged
In a place where you deserve to be
A place full of happiness and peace
You know not of this earthly world
Full of sin, lies, and disorder
You're where there are golden streets
And pearly gates
With the beautiful sound of trumpets
And however much I wish you were here
Or could at least see me
It makes me happy that you've found your heaven
And the next time I look into your eyes
We will both have wings
in loving memory of my dear friend of 13 years, who died three years ago of a drug overdose
Emily Aug 2014
Sometimes I feel like it's all too good to be true
Is our love real
Do you love me like I love you

Sometimes I think that we're in love with the thought
The thought that we could be something great
It's hard to tell when you're so far away

Risking it all to be with you is scaring me
The closer the time comes
The more I'm pushed into a world of skepticism

The worries flood my mind
And it's frightening to think I could be doing this all for nothing
Only to be left alone in the end

One of us has to take the plunge
To see if this is real
How will we ever know without any risk

Hoping and praying that our relationship works
That we will have a fighting chance
And live the life we've always wanted

I love you
I want you
Love me
And want me too
This is rambles that I tried to turn into poetry and basically failed. Oh well.

© Emily 2014
Emily Aug 2014
have you ever been so in love
that every step you take
you take in the name of

your lover
your soulmate
your best friend


your heart hurts to have distance
your mind wanders into bad places
after not speaking much that day

does she make your world spin
does he make your heart pound
do you feel like at any moment
your world could end
if suddenly
her love stopped
he no longer needed you

a smile can turn to a frown
a laugh can turn into a cry
you think you know all the answers
but all of a sudden, you're asking why

what if the worst happens
what if you end up alone
what if she doesn't want you
or he stops calling you on the phone

day after day
the fear grows within me
i'm losing my vision with every hour
all my senses are away from me
i'm scared to death of what could be

i want your heart forever
i want to see your mind
i want to feel secure with our love
i want to know you're mine
Emily Jan 2015
it's a scary thing
to love someone more than you love yourself
to love someone more than you love anything

it's a scary thing
to need someone like you need oxygen
to need them so bad or else you'll suffocate

it's a scary thing
to want someone with every bone in your body
and you feel it in your muscles
you've come undone
you have to have them

it's a scary thing to devote every piece of yourself
and to commit every part of your life
to one person

you can't help it, though
that is love
love works that way
it's scary

it's scary because at any moment
things could change
and your whole world could come crashing down
your whole life will seem over
you will feel doomed
like you can never move on
you're suddenly out of breath
gasping for air
and that sickly feeling comes over you

i cannot live without you
please don't make me
it would be the end of me
more of just a stream of consciousness than anything else
Emily Apr 2014
Perform for me
But more intimately
I want to see a special show
For my eyes only
No one ever has to know
You'll be my ***** little secret
It won't be hard to keep
Because once I get a small peek
I'll only want you for me
That private show is all I'll see
Showing off your skills
And your body
It'll be a sweet kind of torture
And after you perform for me
I'll perform on you
Your pleasure is the encore
Leaving each other wanting more
Until next time
When you ****** me with your talent
Yet again
2 a.m. ramblings.

© Naomi 2014
Emily Jun 2014
I can't tell if I've fallen out of love with him
Or if I just hate myself
And it has now blinded me
Leaving me senseless
© Emily 2014
Emily Jun 2014
Why can't we just love back the ones that love us
So willingly
So unconditionally
Why is it in our human nature to want what we can't grasp
It makes life so much harder
And so much more difficult than it needs to be
Why do we settle for less than we deserve
© Emily 2014
Emily Mar 2014
I love her so much
She loves me too
Our intense love brings so much good
Laughter and joy
Company and intimacy
But at the same time
We worry so much about each other
It results in sadness filling up our hearts
Upset with the fact that the other may be having a bad day
Or a bad night
Upset with the fact that there are thousands of miles separating us
Across the ocean
In a different country
How I wish to hold her on those bad days
And kiss her to sleep on those hard nights
How I wish to be there in person to comfort her
So she not only has my words but my embrace
I need her to smile every day
To know I'm doing my job right
Because her happiness is my everything
She makes my world spin
Without her, I don't have much
These few bad days and bad nights
Are well worth it
She is my never ending bliss
© Willa 2014
Emily Jun 2014
You drive me mad with love
You drive me mad with fury
It must be real
My feelings are so strong
It's as if they're foreign
Like I've never felt this kind of love before
Perhaps I haven't
Perhaps you are my first
My first true love
My only
I love you, darling
Please come here and hold me
The waiting has made me crazy
My imagination is my sole companion
Dreaming of you through the day and night
I'm obsessed with you
Blissfully addicted
You're my drug
High on your love
© Emily 2014
Emily Apr 2014
You say you love me more
You always doubt my want and need for you
But when a day goes by
Where we can't be with each other
And we don't speak much
It breaks me down
Depresses me
Until the next moment I'm with you
Because that's when I feel security
You're the light in my life
Without you it's dark
You're the pillow I rest my head on
In the middle of the night
Your voice and your touch
Soothes me and stops time
The lonely days make me short of breath
I hate it when you're not by my side
I simply can't live without you
Yet you always question this love of mine
I wish you'd understand
I wish you would believe me
You're everything I want
You're all that matters to me
© Emily 2014
Emily Mar 2014
There is a sickness
That is coursing through my bones
I can feel it with every move that I make
My bones ache
From how heavy my heart has been
For much too long

There is a sickness
That is taking over my life
Slowly, there will be nothing left of me
I'll just be this hollow shell
A mess of a human being
With no point and no direction

What is this sickness
That makes its way through my veins
Interrupting the systems that run my body
Releasing all sorts of chemicals
To create this imbalance in my brain
And feed this disease

Is it depression
Is it a broken heart
Is it self pity
That's causing me to fall apart
Or is it just a fact of life
That I have not yet lived through

I wonder if there is a cure
For this incessant pounding of pain
That invades the very core of my heart
And captures the thoughts in my head
Making it impossible to remember what I was living for
© Delia 2014
Emily Jul 2014
Sorry my poetry ***** but...I'm posting anyway because I enjoy writing it and what's the point if it's going to remain on these pieces of paper and not be read by anyone else.

Thanks for all the feedback, love, constructive criticism, and support.
© Emily 2014
Emily Feb 2014
Fallen into a slump
Can't seem to wrap my mind
Around reality
Around a day's work
Around any obligations
Glued to my bed
Ignoring all the consequences
Of my apathy
The days pass by
Things get worse
Knowingly, I stay put
My bed is nice and warm
Reality is mean and cold
Sleep is my only true comfort
© Willa 2014
Emily May 2014
Sitting next to you on the couch
Has never felt as it does now
I long to be close to you
And feel your warmth
I long to hold your hand
And kiss your neck
I'm so confused in this sea of love
A tidal wave of emotion
I can't figure out just what I want
One day, I cling to you
The next day, I repel
I don't know what to do
I'm in my own personal hell
I want the clarity that I seek
I want a sign to tell me what's right
So I can be free of these sleepless nights
© Emily 2014
Emily Jan 2015
The sweetest ******* earth
That is you
I regret so much everything I did not do
Everything I continue to neglect
Like looking into your eyes a little longer
Telling you how much I love you one more time, and a little nicer
Smiling at you as I look into your eyes
I'm foolish and stupid for ever letting go of your hand
Because now that I am without you
All of my mistakes is all I think about
I hate myself for letting moments slip by
Where I felt tired or lazy and let go of you
I hate how I've been rude to you
My lack of sensitivity towards you I despise
You only deserve the best
You're so sweet and so kind
You love me so much
And I love you so much more
But my natural flaws hold me back from being the best companion
I adore you with all my heart
I miss you with every bone in my body
I long for you so much
I need you more than I express to you
I just wish I had all those moments back
Moments spent arguing with you or yelling at you
Moments spent being bitter and creating tension
Moments when I should have been smiling with you
Moments when I should have been loving you and reassuring you
I can't let you go
I won't, I never will
But I promise I will get better
I promise I'll be the perfect person for you
Just like you're the perfect person for me
I'll never let another moment slip
Time is precious
But not as precious as you
I love you deeply, forever
I promise
I'm so sorry, baby
Emily Mar 2014
I should leave everybody alone
I should lower my expectations
I should have none
That way when nothing is as it seems
And when I feel I'm being ignored
It won't matter to me
Not anymore
Because I won't care
Just like they all don't
Then life won't seem as unfair
If I just leave everybody alone
© Delia 2014
Emily Feb 2014
I feel so good without you
It's like you were never here at all
Keep your lies
Keep your wicked heart
You're worthless to me
And you'll go down in history
As the coldest person I know
© Willa 2014
Emily Oct 2015
what are you supposed to do
when you get that feeling in your stomach
you're gonna be sick
your heart drops
no air in your lungs
your heart stops

what are you supposed to do
when you get the feeling in your stomach
the one that's terrible
the one that makes you feel like your world is crumbling
the blurry confusion
the inability to know how you feel
when your sanity turns into delusion

what are you supposed to do
when the feeling in your stomach
is caused by wanting it all to end
by wanting to give up
what are you supposed to do
when the same feeling occurs
because you are scared of it ending
you don't want to lose it

the feeling in my stomach
it makes me sick
i am so conflicted
it's like an evil trick

wishing i could shut off my mind
wishing my stomach could feel fine
Emily Jun 2014
you carved his name
into your skin
almost like
an uncontrollable sin

but it was reminiscent
of his name across your heart
and how without him
you always fall apart

foolish to believe
your every word
i let it pass
ignoring what they inferred

you still love him
want him with all your might
and when you are lonely
you think of him at night

i'm no where to be found
in that mind of yours
i'm not even in your heart
even after fighting all these wars

i guess i never won
the battle was always too hard
so i surrender now
my feelings you can disregard

it's nothing you haven't done
it should be easy for you
since all you ever did
was rip my soul in two

use me, abuse me
take advantage of my will
to love and protect you
i think i must be ill

countless sleepless nights
turn into bed ridden days
and during that time
i dream of pure rage

the rage that was once
a true love formed
now in the wake of a hurricane
in my heart brews a storm

my tears are the rain
my emotions blow like the wind
my silent cries howl
as i realize you weren't even a friend

maybe time will help
this pain to subside
then the healing can commence
once my love for you has died
© Emily 2014
Emily May 2017
Why must I get myself stuck
I'm short for air
I can hardly breathe
My heart races fast
I think about my past
It's all too familiar

I pull the moon from the sky
And hand it to you
I take your broken heart
I mend all the pieces
Rid you of your diseases
Where does that leave me

I'm still in the dark
Grasping for air
Suffocating in my own house
Depleted of all my energy
Void of any memory
I am alone

Nothing is what I am
Not to you
Not to her
I'm just a crutch
Until you're on your feet again
I'm on my knees
Washing your feet
You walk away
Leaving me *****

No, I'm not worthy
Emily Jul 2014
I must be stupid
I keep on believing in liars
I never learn my lesson
I think anything could be a blessing
But that's not how the world works
People are not true
They're never looking out for you
Only themselves and what they want to do
It isn't fair that you give chance after chance
Only to be left without any romance
Now I want to die
But don't take pity on me
It's all my own fault
I deserve to learn my lesson the hard way
I just didn't think it'd be this hard
"People are not true."
Kurt Cobain

© Emily 2014
Emily May 2014
The leaves are vibrant
Green the color of bright eyes
The sun leaves a mark
Haiku

© Emily 2014
Emily Jun 2014
Baby girl
Sweeter than strawberry pie
Hotter than the summer's sun
She is my only one
© Emily 2014
Emily Apr 2014
I bet you taste like candy
And smell like roses
10 words.

© Emily 2014
Emily May 2014
I can't stand it when you don't act like an adult
You just assume the worst and revolt
You think you know everything but don't bother to ask
You cop a bad attitude and start acting crass
It's so pathetic how you act like a child
That isn't attractive and it gets me riled
You're always the one to point the finger
It's never your fault and the tension lingers
You love to place the blame on me
You always claim that I am lying
Name calling is what you do best
With you I'm anything but impressed
But maybe you're right, I'm just a *****
And now I think it's time for me to make a switch
Focus on myself rather than on you
I hate to say it but I think we're through
© Emily 2014
Emily Feb 2014
"Once I ran to you, now I run from you"
Our love disappeared into thin air
Just like our reality disappeared
When we were infatuated with each other
Our love is so strange
But is it even love
Was it even real to begin with
What is this strange connection
That exists between us
Nothing
Everything
I guess we will never know
Because this love takes us no where
And we only seem to create trouble
In each other's lives
I sometimes wish things could be different
But what we had is long gone
And in all honesty
I'm better off without you
Somewhat inspired by the song ******* by Soft Cell.

© Willa 2014
Emily May 2017
why won't you talk to me
don't you miss the excitement i gave you
i made you feel so good
right through the phone
your desire burned deep
like you finally made it home
you wanted me bad
you wanted me good
you wanted me anyway i came
just like all bad boys should

why won't you talk to me
don't you miss the excitement i gave you
you felt passion once more
love entered through your chest
you could breathe easily again
alive from being suppressed
yearning ran through your veins
just like the sweat ran down your temple
my lips the subject of your fantasy
real enough to make you tremble

why won't you talk to me
don't you miss the excitement i gave you
please
Emily Sep 2014
crying tears of joy
because i have never been so in love before
i have the most beautiful girl in my life
and we help each other through all of the bad times

crying tears of joy
because i have never seen a face so beautiful
or a body so exquisite
she is beyond the precious and the delicate

crying tears of joy
because i have never encountered such a blessing
she provides me with the perfect love
she is my all and there's no one else above

crying tears of joy
when i think of the way we make love
it's a celestial experience
worshipping each other, removing any distance

crying tears of joy
now that i know i've found my life's true purpose
adoring her and caring for her are what i do best
being with her is my reason, marrying her is next

crying tears of joy
when i look into her blue eyes
she asks me why tears are rolling down my face
i respond saying i can't believe it's her i get to date
my baby is so **** perfect. i'm so fortunate to be surrounded by the most beautiful ******* earth. she makes my world spin, she makes everything worth while. when we are together, i am so happy.
Emily Feb 2014
I like it when your arm is around me
And you look at me with that look
Eyes full of lust
Making love is a must
You bite your lip
And I can't resist
Take me to bed
It's where we belong
© Willa 2014
Emily Apr 2014
It's funny the way life changes
And how
Once before, all my thoughts were consumed by you
But now
You never even cross my mind
Emily Mar 2014
No longer is the face
Of the person you pretended to be
Stuck in my head
Instead it is replaced
By the one who set me free
By the one who truly loves me
And is set out to make me happy
That's the face that I see in my mind
When I am in my bed and fantasize
About my lover
It is no longer you
Or the face you pretended to have
But it is my lover's face
And God, is it beautiful
Emily Mar 2014
I love you with a burning passion
When we make love
It's like a fire is lit between our bodies
The friction causes the heat to rise
Emotions spark ravenous feelings within us
We can never get enough
The physical chemistry we share
Is a reflection of our understanding for each other
The respect that we treat each other with
And the high regard with which we hold one other
I love you with a burning passion
Nothing and no one can put out the flame that is our love
© Willa 2014
Emily Feb 2014
I hope you appreciated
When I said
I loved you
Because it was the last time
I'll ever say it
To someone so
Unworthy
© Willa 2014
Emily May 2016
your personality came through the screen
your kind heart was potent
though you couldn't be seen
i felt you coursing through my veins
just after one day
this immediate connection
felt like our own version of heaven
were you the one?
i like him so much
Emily Apr 2014
There's a girl in my head
I can't get her out
She's the only one
I've ever thought about

I want to know how she is
What she does in her spare time
I want to know how she talks
If her voice is anything like mine

I want to feel her lips
And wrap my arms around her
She's so worthy of love
I bet she tastes like sugar

The worst part of this all
Is that she is a stranger
I'll probably never know her
And that fills me up with anger

But mainly it tears me up
It really breaks my heart
Because I'm so passionate about her
And we'll always be apart
© Naomi 2014
Emily Jan 2015
trying to find a remedy
for the pain that i feel inside
i miss you
and it creates a hole in my heart
filling the void
with things that make it even worse
i just need you
need you by my side again
it's hard to keep the faith
when the one you want is a world away
but she's the reason i'm alive
the reason i am ever happy
so i'll keep going
smiling for her
it's what she deserves
been a while since i've posted and yeah i think my writing *****, especially these days but thought i would post a little something. Happy New Year.
Emily Mar 2014
Nothing feels quite as bad
As knowing you lost time
Precious time
You're wasting it
Pretty soon, we'll get on with our lives
And eventually lose contact
I'll have no way of ever seeing you again
Nor will I get the chance to talk to you
I won't know where you live or what your name is
You're wasting time
By continuing with the lies
Come clean
Please
Don't miss out on something
That has the potential to be breathtakingly beautiful
No matter where it is we are led to
No matter where destiny takes us
Let's take the journey in honor of honesty
In honor of the truth
It's time to be ourselves
Success is more likely that way
© Willa 2014
Emily Mar 2014
The truth sets people free
I'm so happy to be liberated from all of the lies
That make up the very essence of who you are
A lie
I'm so happy that I get to help others realize
What you have done to them all this time
You lied
I'm so happy knowing that eventually
The truth will reach everybody
And you will have no where else to hide
And no one else to turn to
You see, that's what happens when you spin a web of lies
As big as you have
Every relationship you've formed
Is based off of a lie
All the love you may think you have
Will die when everyone finds out
That you are a no good
Time stealing
Using
Lying
Piece of garbage
© Willa 2014
Emily Feb 2014
I'm in love with my best friend
This isn't a dream
No need for pinching
This is so real
Nothing can stray me away
Not even the highest of pay
He's my soulmate
Forever we will live
Our infallible love
The title of this poem and the last line are inspired by a song I love called This Is For Keeps by The Spill Canvas.

© Willa 2014
Emily Nov 2015
you are beautiful,
gracious,
and kind
there is nothing
that i would change
you gave me peace
you gave me security
you made me happy when i was at my worst
you gave me purpose
made me feel beautiful
made me feel wanted
and adored
it's not that i don't love you
because i love you very much
from afar
but my heart doesn't want to continue
it is tired of the struggle
it is tired of trying to find all the right
in the midst of all this wrong
i am dragging you down
deep into my confusion
into my loneliness
into my dissatisfaction
you deserve so much better
than what i am offering you
i can't continue to short change you
i am not made for you
not right now
you are my soul mate
you are my first
you always will be
i will never stop loving you
never cease to pray for you
you are the highest of the high
and the most beautiful person i have ever known
don't you ever think for a second that it is a lie
because this is the truth
i love you
i will always be here for you
i know you will be happy in this life
because God knows how much you deserve it
and He will make sure that you get it
break ups are difficult and anything but ideal, but sometimes they are necessary.
Emily Apr 2014
I gave you the option
To be real with me
I'm all for second chances
Another opportunity
But you chose to ignore
What was right and what was wrong
So your time with me is up
The charade went on too long
You have no one left in your circle
You feel alone and bitter
You lied to all of us
You let the love simply wither
I'd like to say you could come back
Re-enter my heart
And regain my trust
But you turned me down the first time
So letting you go is a must
I deserve someone better
Someone who decides I'm worth the truth
Sincerity doesn't exist within you
Of that there's plenty of proof
© Naomi 2014
Emily Jul 2014
England calls my name
That's where my love waits for me
Across the blue sea
Haiku.

Title inspired by the Simon and
Garfunkel song, Kathy's song.

© Emily 2014
Emily Mar 2014
The things you made me feel:

Worthless
Ugly
Annoying
Clingy
Ridiculous
Unwanted
Stupid
Guilty
Miserable
Useless
Just to name a few

But in reality
Those words don't describe me
They describe you
© Willa 2014
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