i know you used to wake early
and sit in the cold dark
to scribble those playful loops
into the truest of joys,
the truest of pains.
this morning i saw you
as a young man,
a young dad,
with that infectious smile.
your smile could put others at ease
and disarmed the fear we all carry
everywhere, all the time.
i was so closed-off then,
so hard in my belief
that no one understood…
i hope my shortsightedness
didn’t make you think i was mean.
i know watching you i learned kindness,
i learned that warmth to strangers
is a gift to the world.
i know you tried to connect with me
in the ways you knew,
and i want you to know you succeeded.
you are with me now
as i try to do no harm in this world
and live in a way you’d be proud.
you are with me now
as i write these words
in the cold dark.
good morning dad

Your eyes
Ice in
A pool of lava
Cool stones
Against feverish flesh
An ocean
Against the lips of a desert
Your beautiful
Blue
Eyes

Waiting here by the door.

Just hoping for something more.

Friends? Family? Love? Something...

Something that I cannot bring.


Watching and waiting for it to show,

the things that I will never know.

Waiting for the door to open up.

Waiting in silence until I blow up.


I'm waiting for something that'll never come.

It hurts knowing. Hurts till' I'm numb.

Maybe it'll show up one fateful day.

Hopefully. I will always pray.


So I'll wait by this door until I'm,

old and gray and out out time.

My heart pounds out in rhythm
Sending out waves of energy
Up and down the spine and openings
Sometimes in rings of tightness
Hoping the message can be heard.

Slow down, sleep and rest
While I repair your damage
Let yourself feel
Your gentleness and move with ease
Allowing your heart to come alive
No more rushing, hustle or bustle.

Trust in gravity for support
Enjoy Mother Nature’s abundance
One’s desires connected to heart
Will always bear fruit.

Give yourself all the rest you need
Being you is all there is
Or need be
Being you is all there could be
Or EVER will be.

Sometimes a love is so strong it causes nothing but destruction.
A love so powerful that it damages the other person.
It tears them apart and leaves them scarred for the rest of their lives wounds so deep that nothing in the world can heal.
Wounds that leave you romantically paralyzed.

What if these people go about their lives convincing themselves that they're in love with another person just to get old and realize they've missed out on something truly magical.

What if that's us?

- Leah

What's the point of being here,

if there are so many things to fear?

If no one cares about me,

why should I continue to be?


I'll just end it all right now.

Jumping off the roof. That's how.

Falling quickly, nearing death.

I close my eyes and take my last breath.


A flash of light fills my eyes.

It's time to get rid of all these lies.

Goodbye world, I hope you'll forgive.

But now I have no reason to live.

Swallow hard just convey your cowardice

I'm quick to let him enter.....

Down here where the concretes cool

My arms around you

then your gone........

It snowed sand the other night

i was shocked and awed  

but then i looked up and it got it my eye


Scratched my retina

snow blind

Your brightness wasn't beauty after

your brightness was beauty in the end

i should have seen your glory was a *******

hole in the back of your head

your brightness wasn't  beauty

it was arrogance.