I need some happy poetry
I'm tired of sadness
I'm tired of not seeing the sun
And the bright side of things

I need some happy songs
I've been lost for too long
I need to find myself now
No time to get stuck in the past

I'm more than what
Never let me smile
I'm tired of this charade
I'm tired of being cold

I want to get lost gazing
At the possibilities in the stars
Not at their fateful destruction
Not at their fall to nothing

I needed some happiness
For some time now
Because I broke the chain
That dragged me down

Look at me and tell me who do you see
I'm not the know one you know
Nor have I ever been
I'm a not a hero, I'm mystery

I'm a soul searching for answers
Searching for dreams to come true
A girl searching for her destiny
Trying to be somebody new

Finding solace in the little things
Little achievements and hopes
And in the big romances
Big gestures and adventures

Some of us were never made
For tranquility, stability
For calmness and quiet tides
Some of us were made for giant waves
For thunder storms and hurricanes

I never backed down from a wave
That's not I how I was made to be
And I think you should know
That's quiet was never for me

It's going to be hard
But I'll never give up
It might break your heart
But believe in me
One day  you'll see this girl
Being who she is

there is a ghost of your smile
that haunts me
there is a ghost of your embrace
that keeps me warm

the love I’ve never felt for you
holds me down
and the stars remind me
of the brightness of your eyes

there is a ghost of a dance
that I’m not sure I had with you
there is a ghost of your words
that fills my head

the things I feel
and the ones you do
are blurry and confusing
and I can’t identify
what is mine and what is yours

maybe I can’t forget
all I almost had with you
and I’ll almost have

maybe I did love you
even if just a little
and for just a little while

maybe I do love you
even if just a little
if I didn’t why would I
lose so much time
thinking about what can be
between you and me

Silent cries and hushed whispers
The dreams you would never let be
Your words feel like knives
Your stares pierce my skin

My hopes and wishes are nothing
When placed in front of you
Everything I hoped to be
Is dead and gone
I never thought you would be a killer

Let me hopeless
Let me be a failure
Let me be nothing
But let me be me

In the end, this is just a plea
A plea from a young girl
Who never could be anything else
Other than what you never wanted me to be

I beg you
Let me fall
Let me burn
Let me be destroyed
But let me be me

You can't see the fire that burns inside
The will and the hope
That have kept me alive
You don't know me
And you can't hold me
Not anymore

Let me be dangerous
Let me be furious
Let me be terrible
But let me be me