My weakness is  that I cared
We  can't  help who we love
I care about  things  i shouldn't
I should  just walked away and  broke those chains
Why waste my time
Why waste my heart
Does this make me better person to care
When you never gave it your 100%
I can  never settle  for less
Why did i not hear  my mind cry out
My heart was playing tricks with inner thoughts
I stand here and still care  
In end the it want drives my complex soul

I must be living in my world to think things  will change. I  keep love and  hope in  my heart but  i see now it was just my mind playing with my heart.  I  wish i could be that guy in your life make you smile. I could put  back together  your broken heart but  in end  you use to it broken.  i smile when i think  the world slows down but is this lost image in my head . I my eyes  never been open  i was lost in your beauty . The beauty  is my weakness  that is like cancer to soul.  I don't  think people see way i do but i need more then PHD for this work.

I was just  stone on your path
The words  crushed  by lies  you told
I couldn't  be  your star in your star
You never  saw night past  the day
My heart  was nothing more then  a  cheap toy
A dream of you but all it was just smoke
I was so blind but know  i can see image that is you
I wish deep my heart  i knew the words  to say
I just got  put back together my heart  on this cold day

I wish it was different
We grew so far apart
I always put my hand out
But  you are so blinded to see it
I never  stopped loving you
But  the sadness of not knowing  you  rips my soul apart
They have been some up and downs
But  what  is life without the falls
I just wish i could be there  to pick u up
We are half but in my heart you were  a whole
My words seem have no value
But my heart never stopped caring
We can't  change the things that were done or words that were said
But we can move forward on too better road to see the hope

I wish could hear  the word love
If heard it  from u
It would just  be wind blowing in the air
I ask  myself
Why do  i care?
My heart keeps this hope of love and understanding
But my mind is so torn from  the negative out look you have of me
Could I be something great in  your eyes
Or is this just fate
I been stuck on this island  looking in
I am just outsider  who  is just  second class in your life

In visions of the dark night
        I have dreamed of joy departed-
      But a waking dream of life and light
        Hath left me broken-hearted.

      Ah! what is not a dream by day
        To him whose eyes are cast
      On things around him with a ray
        Turned back upon the past?

      That holy dream- that holy dream,
        While all the world were chiding,
      Hath cheered me as a lovely beam
        A lonely spirit guiding.

      What though that light, thro' storm and night,
        So trembled from afar-
      What could there be more purely bright
        In Truth's day-star?

Dearest Dear,

    This is my last attempt
    The very same people
    who I'm going to miss.
    Tears stream down my cheek.
    My head feels heavy,
    limbs go weak.
    Darkness surrounds me.
    Blankness,
    no sound
    I feel my body drifting
    I hear a scream, I hear a moan
    Oh Guardian Angel!
    It was my family
    I want my family back.
    No sound out my mouth,
    Only in my mind.
    No one to help me,
    No one for me to find.
    I start to yell...
    Please get me out of this hell!
    Please get me out of this hell!
    I give up!!!!
    
     I open my eyes, and look around
     I am  lying in a hospital bed
     No one makes a sound
     "Sorry" is all I say.
     Mother starts crying,  Father is sad.
     I got a bear hug from Papa.
     I still manage a small smile,
     And close my eyes for a while.
     Forget all the bad days,
     I'm leaving them in the past.
     Misty clouds vanish and,
     The new Aurora commence.
          
    * Sincerely
    * Haritha