Its  new  year
I look back at past
I am on this road of hope looking for  you change
I  just wanted love and hope
You will never  understand me or see the good in me
I  want more then gifts  just  want you be my mom
be  the sun threw my darkest days
you are so stuck on the past
I have keep walking moving forward
the words  cut my skin and burned hole in my heart
I try so hard  make things better but end up lost at the end

We are so far apart
I wish i could  turn back time
I see the good threw the bad
I can't live in this past
You are fading away
I wish i could  be hand pick you up
I wish u  saw how things are
You are just lost in your own world
I am  just outsider  looking in

The holidays are hard for me  I think about the times we shared and love u showed me. You never asked for anything but was always there for me. I think of you tears roll down my face . I wish we could spend another holiday together. I will always love you in my heart you were like mother to me. i miss you nana rip

I wish that i could take back the kindest i shared
You are  so closed  mind   and stuck in the past
I can't  live in world  where its  one way
I have take step back look see the world from outside looking in
I am nothing to then  you then just another step
My heart is too kind for you
I wish i could walk and slam door in your face
You never see how u are  blind by your own self
It  is time to remove this cancer out of my life
And  stop being the hammer to the nail

They say diamonds are forever
You are just a Ray of sunshine
A understanding mind with a heart of gold
The up and downs but always saw  good rather then  the bad
The words flow from soul as this poem unfolds
I fallen but  you always gave  me ur hand pick me back up
I  am not perfect but you always saw something great
The memories we shared  i will hold close  to my heart
You are a Ray  of sunshine on this road we walk