Walls are tall
Walls are strong
I thought I could feel it pulsing
That heart you guard
Your deception was smooth
But The pulse came from my own heart
I suppose you never had one
But why did you have to steal mine
Why did you leave me hollow

brisk. jagged. grainy.
your words dance
across my innocence.
"im sorry,"
mumbled. whispered.
poisoned.
cynical are those words
aiming to ****,
forcing to struggle,
eternally scarring.
once, i believed you.
thought it was real,
and you actually cared;
that's when your intentions
became art.
my body the canvas,
your words the brush.
my emotions the paint,
your mind the audience.

I’ve seen the night’s demise
with the luminescent sunrise
and stood in a downpour
a thousand times before,
but everything I do with you
feels brand new.

Flashbacks
Snapshots
Of a different time
A different me
A different perception
A skewed reality
An easy deception
An ignorant little girl
Who had too much to drink
A wild little queen
Who never stopped to think
Now all she sees
Is a broken mirror
Fragments of memories
Nightmares and PTSD
Institutionalized and forcefully taken
No salvation
Only one violent revelation

I am only human
But I can feel Armageddon
It's trapped in my body
I am afraid to open my eyes
because if your eyes meet mine
you will glimpse The End
You will never be the same
I'm so afraid to touch you
Because my disease will spread
Soon everyone on earth will be infected
Nothing will be able to save them
I am exhaling poison and it is
filling the atmosphere
It won't be long before your lungs collapse
Because you kissed me
Don't you see the warning signs
Don't you hear them
When I mutter my words
Don't let me manipulate
Control you baby
Stay away

Maybe one day
I won't see your face
In every sunset

when I met you
I was a ******
To ***
Drugs
Self harm
When you left me
I was drowning in addictions
Self mutilating the body
I gave to anyone
Just to feel anything
Even close
To the way your toxic touch
Made me feel