Dear diary,
I lost hope again,
The drama queen of high school
Came ******* back to me
Something about she’s sorry
And here we are again
In the same place we’ve been
Time and time again

Why am I chasing you
You aren’t even trying
I’m alone through all my troubles
And during the worst of times
You’ve become so distant
Goodbye, again

P.S. i miss you

Hold my hand
So I don't have
To be all alone
Anymore

Hold my hand
Please don’t leave me
To be all alone
Anymore

Hold my hand
Look at me, Dear
Hold me in your arms
Forevermore

you are my friend
you guide me
you aid me
you give me your love

so I am in debt
I owe you my love
I owe you my aid
I owe you my guidance

you are my friend
I push your limits
I test your patience
I laugh at your fails

but you forgive me
and you laugh with me
and you test my patients
and you push my limits

for you I am grateful
my dearest friend
I would still be lost if it weren't for you
because you found me
and brought me back
I am ever in debt to you
my dearest friend

Here I am
Starring at your shadowy self
Let me see beneath your mask
Your refuge of darkness
I know you are beautiful why do you have to hide

You hide because someone made you
Feel like you had to
Feel like you deserve to
Feel like your not good enough
I am here to say
You don’t have to
You don’t deserve it
You are so much more than good enough

If only I could trade places with you
If I could take you out of you
And show you what I see
You could love yourself
The way I love you

I know
I’m a hypocrite
Here I am
Standing in the shadows
Behind my mask
Taking refuge in the darkness
And no
I won’t ever let you see
Me for me
Cause I hate who I am
And I don’t want to lose you...

Of all the people
How am I the one
That you have chosen
To love

Thanks for opening
My eyes to see again
You have showed me how
To love

I was all alone
Before you appeared
To show me that I
Love you

Why do I feel guilty
I didn't do anything
I just want to be whole
I want to feel safe
The only way I can ensure my safety
Is to stay hidden
If my secret got out
I would be *******
You see my parents are catholic
And homophobic as hell
And I hate to lie to them  
I don't have a choice
I want to stay here
And so, I'll go back to the closet

Remember me?
I remember when we were best friends
And now you can’t even look me in the eyes

Where did you go
I’ve searched every where,
High and low,
Just to say hello
I’ve missed you so

Life is like a river
it twists and it turns
it is hard to explain
it hits bumps and it slows
yet it is still beautiful
and it still gleams in the sun
through every thing
Life is like a river

God forbid
There are rocks in the river
God forbid
It isn’t crystal clear

The trees aren’t straight
The leaves aren’t symmetrical
The stars aren’t aligned
None of it is perfect

Roads are laid down
Laws are laid out
Stories are drawn up
None of it is perfect

People smile
People lie
People wonder
None of them are perfect

Nothing is perfect
So why do we say
That everything must be
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Is poetry bad
Some say it leads to madness
All the bleak winters
And sorrowful nights
But what of the Spring
And the budding flower
Does that lead to madness

Is poetry bad
Some say it leads to depression
All that built up feelings
Anger, sadness, fear and pain
But what of joy
And happiness, gladness, and glee
Does that lead to depression?

I’m sorry
I’m not who you think I am
I lie
I’m just trying to protect you
I’m rude
I can’t let anyone to close
You could ask me
To show you the real me
But all you will see is pink and glitter
Because I’m  afraid
Of the darkness inside
I’m so sorry

tears stained red
from all the times
that you hurt me
left me to be
all by myself
searching for guidance
in my time of need

tears stained black
i let you go
but you still haunt me
in the dark of night
your memory
will never leave me
you won't let me free

tears stained blue
i'm moving on
i'll become new
i'll have new friends
by the days end
i can be strong again
i will be strong again

I do stupid things
Yet I still tell you not to
I know I’m a hypocrite
I just care for you to much
You are beautiful in my eyes
You can always make me smile
So please don’t do anything stupid
Because without you I couldn’t live

I wish to be a flower
Budding in beauty
Admired by all passerbys
Picked from the ground
By gentle hands
Only to be dropped
Out of rejection
Onto the sidewalk
And blown under
The passing cars

Smile because you are happy
Smile because you want to
Smile because you don’t know what else to do
Smile because they say it’s pretty
Smile because you don’t want them to know
Smile because you have to hide the pain
Smile because you can’t let them know
Smile because they make you