I'm laying in bed a month after we broke up,
And I'm staring at the ceiling thinking about every time I kissed you.

And ****** I wish I would've kissed you longer.
I wish I wouldve held you tighter.

I wish I would've done a lot of things.
I'm just glad it happened in the first place.

But **** some nights just get me,
Holy **** do I miss you.

You asked me when me heart went missing.
I told you when my mind did.
I like to think that I loved you.
I like to think that I still do.
I can't tell anymore though, if I'm in love with you, or the girl I once knew.
A lot can change in a year.
But not me.
I'm still that same old record, left on repeat.
I'm that same broken boy, with scratched hands, and purple eyes.
You change personalities like clothes, and I was the only one who didn't know.
In the end we can pretend like I didn't notice the way you brushed your hair off your shoulder, or the way you sighed and stared into space.
But I did.
I miss it.
But I know it's gone now.
I really do wonder if it's for the best.

Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me.
Fool me again, this is getting old.
Let's just skip to number ten, I'm way past just being bold.
I think I can do whatever I want
But no, consequences exist...
Backlashes exist...
Other people exist...
C'mon I need to resist!
Self control is my issue and I need it to survive.
Help, some one help I just need to feel alive.

Snap an elastic
Snap a rubber band
Taking deep breaths
Counting to ten with deep breaths
Draw a picture
Draw a flower
Call someone
Call your friend
Tell yourself you're beautiful
Tell yourself you're worth it
Go for a walk
Go for a run
Make a house of cards
Play cards
Find things you're grateful for
Find things to smile about
Video chat someone
Video chat an old friend
Squeeze a ball
Throw a ball
Scream at the top of your lungs
Scream and cry
Punch a pillow
Punch two pillows
Paint your nails
Paint a picture
Hug someone special
Hug your mom
Smile as hard as you can
Smile at the little things in life
Play with your dog
Play with your cat
Listen to music
Listen to an old record
Organize
Organize your feelings
Take a nap
Take a nap but wake up
Stay
Stay alive
Reflect
Reflect with yourself
Cut your hair
Cut paper
45 Bake brownies
Bake cupcakes for your friends
Cope
Stay
Promise you'll stay
Promise you'll cope