trapped behind this glass
shards of my heart,
piercing my fragile lungs
breathing in and out
gasping for air
I scream but no one can hear me
let me out
wishing my heart was bulletproof
but you shot my heart anyways
and you watched as I bled out
laughing, this was some game
this was all a game to you
you never loved me

Found a gem
In the deep blue ocean
Took it home with me
Fell in love
With its ruby red charm

Bonded it to a string
Wore it for a necklace
Had it close to my heart
Feeling it's icy cold texture
Sometimes...
It's gentle flames of warmth

Under a starry night sky
A hot coffee in my hand
A cooling breeze accompanies me
Clutching it tight
Always admiring its beauty

Got a phone call one day
Removed it from my neck
Held it in my hand
Driving down lanes
To another place

Handed it over
My heart sank
What I've realised was that
It was never mine
And people told me lies

*Finders aren't always keepers

He is made of laughter and heartache
He is made of so much pain
He is made of so many elements
That I’ve never seen him the same.

He’s a survivor and a fighter
He is made of tooth and nail
He is made of so much laughter
That it makes me want to wail.

I have seen his rough exterior
I have seen his broken heart,
I have seen the self he tries to hide,
I don’t see how he doesn’t fall apart.

I don’t take pity on him
For there is none such to give;
I look at him with wonder
For the different life he has lived.

He has seen such love and affection,
He has seen all lives brutal pains,
He has known the sweet attention
That only a woman has to donate.

He is made of the melting glaciers
And he is made of a burning flame,
And yet he is cold and gentle,
But still he is never the same.
-ALC December 27, 2016

I want you
everyday
I want the good things
and the bad
I want your soft and sweet
And your hard and jagged edges
I want you happy, sad, and angry
I want all of you
everyday
for as long as you will let me have you