I saw the hands that broke me
In more than one place
I hope you didn't see me
The look on my face

Today I met fear
That you'd turn and see
That you would come near
And break the rest of me

Today I met pain
Reliving your crimes
I panic in vain
Making them mine

Today I was still
With pain and remembrance
I began to feel ill
I couldn't finish a sentence

I felt myself shake
In the presence of my abuser
I felt the earth quake
It's his game and I am the loser

We are the cutters
Crying and weeping
We are the lovers
Searching and seeking
We are strong
But soft to the touch
We are happy
But not too much
We create friends
'Cause they don't come easy
We are almost at end
With the problems you see
We never go home
And wouldn't if we could
We don't feel alone
Just misunderstood
We are teenagers at a glance
Looking and praying
For one more chance
Standing not straying
We aren't trouble
Nor are we perfect
We live in a bubble
But we know we're worth it
We are the future
It's easy to see
That we will go further
Just you, you, and me

Such beauty
Such artwork
Flows from the mind
What cries
What laughs
At the same time
What ends
What starts
Without a defined line

Such form
Such grace
In every pen stroke
A painting with words
Capturing minds
Freeing the souls
It's over, last line
Release the pen
And sigh

Are you alone?
Yes, who are you?
It's Pain, I've come back,
To show you what to do

No, please go away!
You can't stay here!
Why push me away?
I'm here to help dear

I won't leave you
But Pain, I said "I'm okay."
Say what you want my dear,
I'm here to say

Does it hurt?
Can you feel me now?
Never block Pain darling
You took a vow

I'm not just Pain
Can't you see?
You aren't just you,
You are me.

So be yourself a bit,
Experiment a while
Embrace your Pain
And fake a smile

Start drinking heavy liqueur
It'll curve the pain quicker
Start taking the happy pill
You have a void to fill

Go and smoke that cigarette
You haven't done that yet
Go and do a line
I bet you'll feel fine

What about ******?
You won't feel the pain again
What about shrooms?
Without them you're doomed

Try everything you can find
But keep in mind
The pain only hides
It returns sharper than knives

Look at my tears
See how they glimmer
Look at my fears
How they make you shiver

Look at my soul
So empty and hollow
Look at the hole
That I call my sorrow

Listen to my screams
Of dread and pain
Listen to my dreams
They control my brain

In this life I'm haunted
Because I've seen the next
In this life I'm taunted
By the ones I lay to rest

I woke up today and took my medication
I looked at the time and wondered why
It was noon and I was still alive

I woke up today and took my medication
I made a meal that I normally adore
I felt nothing and lived some more

I woke up today and took my medication
At least I don't want to take my own life
Now I don't have to live by the knife

I woke up today and took my medication
I felt like a bottle and put the pills away
I may be a zombie but only for today

I woke up today and didn't take my medication
I laughed and cried and I was enraged
But for once in my life I was engaged