I cannot avoid seeing them
I look at the person and I wonder who they are
Who am I looking at?
It is such a familiar face yet I can seem to recognize who it is
Do I know you?
I want to know who you are

Even though you are no longer here,
I am occasionally reminded of you.
I hesitate for a second,
a part of me wonders if these reminders are some sort of sign,
a sign that you are somewhere
also thinking of me in this exact moment.
The thought tends to leave my mind just as fast as it enters it.
Maybe they are a sign
that you are becoming
a second thought.

I can’t help but not care anymore.
As the sun shines it’s warm rays on top of the snow,
I watch the plants take in the cold water.
It’s as if the sun over powers it all and gives the sparkling white frozen water no choice but to melt slowly into the ground.
I can’t help but not care anymore.
As the sky becomes dark and the moon shines above us all, the stars are not yet there.
I have nowhere to stare.
I have nothing to count.
As the days go by I think I’m falling apart

if we love.
if we love too much they stay
if we love too less they leave
nothing is ever loved enough
most things in life that we love, we let go
when you let go of something you love
when you let go of something you hate
the love you provided is gone
if we love enough, things will be okay
if we hate enough, things will fade
the hate we bring
the love we bring
maybe if we loved enough, we’d all be free

I’m not sure what to do. I lost you. you were all mine this morning and then by the time the stars were out it was like everything that happened between was erased from your mind, and I was nothing to you. I hate this feeling. I hate being alive, but I am forcing myself to see through the pain. for. you. this is all for you.

as you watch sun
you watch it rise and you watch it fall
as it shines so bright in the morning
as it isn’t alive in the evening  
the colors you see
the clouds you see
they are only separating you and me

as you watch the sun day by day
it becomes brighter
you can no longer see it any higher
the light you see
the happiness it brings
you’ll never see anything as strong as thee

as you watch the sun evening by evening
you realize it is fading away
as the world becomes still
as the stars are almost shining
everyone is wishing for nothing but dying

as you watch the moon night by night  
the sky is pitch black
darkness is all over
the clouds cover the sky
the world goes to sleep
the day has ended

as you watch the sun fall you see its truth
the way it shines bright
the way it dies at night
<3

I thought I knew you
Now you are nothing but my perception
Did you really mean what you said to me last night?
I used to be able to see it in your eyes,
I can't anymore
I thought maybe I knew you again for a second,
but I don't know you
I never knew you