We all have something
Or someone

Who brought us here
Into poetry.

luckily, no one has ever asked me why i loved you.
why?
you know why.

it would be very hard to answer because
the reasons are infinite.

sometimes i love you because of
your smile
your laugh
your jealousy
your kindness
you're ecstasy
wait, where did that come from?

let's try again.
sometimes i love you because of
the galaxies in your eyes
you're ecstasy
the deep blue seas in your heart
you're my loveliest enemy
and your own field of gravity pulling me closer.

diamonds are blue
and the skies are, too.
most of the times i just love you
because you're you.

you know
nothing or no one can change you
and i'll always love that about you.

i'm mad at myself
for not changing to who i should be.

i'm mad at myself
for trusting people
whenever they say "trust me".

i'm mad at myself
for bleeding
when people stab my back
with their deceiving knives.

i'm mad at myself
for hiding my feelings
for pushing people away
when i needed them the most.

i'm mad at myself
for not being me
i changed a lot
i don't even know what's real.

i'm mad at myself
for being heartless
i used to be so sensitive
but i just cannot feel any less.

Behind our fragile skin
There's secrets everywhere
Lurking inside.

Behind every picture
There are memories
Everywhere
Can't you see it?

Behind our minds
There's insanity
Can't you feel it?

Behind everything
There's something
Hidden
From plain sight.

I left.
I saw you there and I left.
I left for me.
For us.

At a moment of realization
And clarity
I saw your figure
Standing under the pouring rain
Holding your umbrella

I saw your hair, your lips.
I saw us, laying under the big oak tree
With some touch of golden hues
I saw your smile, and your tears.

And I also saw his lips touch yours.
I laughed a bit there.
As I kicked some pebbles
Along my wander
I heard your whispers
Your laugh.

I know we never told each other
That we both feel what I feel.

I know we never kiss each other
The way he kissed you.

I saw everything
About us
In this place.

Cheers to us
To you and to him
To our memories, too.
And to me, I guess.

I'll be better off anywhere else
Than to be here.