as i hug your body close to mine,
i feel my grasp tighten,
and my fingers clutch at folds of fabric.
this goodbye will break me.
you're the only thing holding me up,
and the second i let go i will crumble.
how could i become so dependent,
on you,
on this single soul?
be strong, they say, be fearless,
because fear is the enemy.
i ignored them.
but as i stand here,
holding you in an embrace for the last time,
every ounce of me is filled with remorse.
i regret not doing so many things,
simply because i was too afraid to.
fear was the enemy.
lessons learnt far too late,
my courage only now found.
but you're already gone.