It’s my fault
I torn us apart
Set it back to default
Went and broke my own heart

The devil has blonde hair, blue eyes and a hand between my thighs
He's got a forked tounge and a wrist tattoo
And a black car is what he drives
He's got a red t-shirt on
The sleeves are all cuffed up
He called out my name last night
Now he's gonna **** me up

We were driving around in the nighttime
Hands intertwined
On your demin covered thigh
Both singing lightly to the radio
Turned as loud as it can go
Aimlessly wasting in a nighttime high

I wish I could tell you that it can be the way you want
Because that's the way I wish it was too

'Cause there's a hole where your heart lies
And I can see it with my third eye.
And oh my touch, it magnifies
You pull away, you don't know why.

I can't listen to your favorite songs

Or any for that matter

My mind finds a way to relate them to"our" happy never after

I find it cruel honestly

And I just wish I was free

From this heartbreak hold you have on me

And it's two am
And I'm still sad
And we still don't know what we are
And that makes me mad
And I remember how I could taste your lunch when we kissed
And all I can do is reminisce

Just being outside tonight
Under the shining starlight
It feels like everything is going to be alright
Even though, I know, it won't

Innocence died screaming, honey, ask me I should know
I slithered here from Eden just to hide outside your door

I know you're a fighter, but you never fought for me.

I just wish it would rain
so I could sit in my room all day
and just think to myself
about things I could do
and about things I couldn't

Everybody already knows what I don't want to say
But it needs to come from me anyways

Here I lay
Just like yesterday
Nothing has changed
But I can't wait until it does
I'm done with laying
I want to start living

All I do is think
You are the only reason
I wish I wasn't

Birds singing out my window
Please quiet down so I can sleep
Because I had so much concentration
But suddenly it seems it has left me

Dream dream dream
I dream of you
When I don’t think to
But when I try I just can’t find you and me
Hopefully
You’re unintentionally dreaming of me

You’re so worth it, yes you are
You are worth every scar
Every hopeless desire I dream
Is a dream of you  
But they never come true

Dream dream dream
I dream of you
Of course I do
Dream dream dream
You’re in my head
You’re in my bed
You’re every where
And I  just want you next to me
Maybe then I could sleep

Body

The one with brown eyes
The one that made me cry plenty of times
The one whose sass would never lose
The one I never want to forget
The one I finally had
The one I don't anymore
The one who is beautiful
The one who was my first real love
The one who loved me when I didn't love myself
The one who brought out the best in me
The one who accepted me for what I was
The one who I never want to lose as a friend
The one who understands what I mean
The one who shares the same dreams
The one who loved to read
The one whose lyrics match with mine
The one who I'm writing this for
The one who I'm crying for right now
The one who I will never forget

tres chaud
et tres froid
je ne suis pas que tu penses de moi
je n'aime pas cette
je suis juste essaye
gris porte pour moi
fermer!
fermer plus
je ne suis pas pret

aimless paper
flying planes
nocturnal wishes
all the same
poser une question?
cette ne pas pour moi
demander un petit phrase a god
je ne sais pas
je ne suis pas
je n'aime pas penser
I hate this paper please go away

Golden string tied love
Floating down from above
Your tiresome grip so effortless
Put all my hopes on a departing ship
Sail it out where it won't be found
Attack it, cold chain tie bound
Where it rest move the ground
A protectorate shield of muddy mound
Clouded feelings and judgement
Escape here in the dungeon now
Tomorrow's light shall break the clouds

Usually your heart says yes
And usually your head says no
Usually Your heart want to rush in
And usually your head says take it slow
I'm so apparently drowning
My lungs filling with fear I don't have time to sort through
Maybe in a year or to two we could start again
Just me and you
But for now I must let go of you

You say I played games with you
But, what did I do?
Say we should be friends?
You had me and you lost me all on your own
Don't put this on me now that you sit next to an empty throne
You asked what changed my mind
It was you unwilling mind
You can try to "beat me at the game"
But, there is not a game
It's just you and me
And whatever we may be
So the to blame here is you
I'm tired of always taking the fall
Your mistakes are your mistakes not all

It's late at night and I can't seem to sleep
I'm thinking about the first time we ever did meet
I saw you standing there
Right in front of my chair
You even curled your brown hair
To this day I remember what you wore there
Skinny jeans and a jacket
And of course you wore your attitude too
Then when you talked
My mind didn't know what to do
I had read all your texts to me until that point
In a voice that belonged to a movie star I had a crush on
You are a movie star in your own right
And you shine in your own light

Its the middle of the night
And I find me missing you
I really don't like this feeling
What can I do
Maybe after all
I'm not over you
You say you don't have feelings for me
But I can feel it from you
Don't give up on me just yet
Because I'm the one choice you won't regret

With eyes as blue as the icy seas
I can feel your love wash over me
But your smile is shining oh so bright
I'm blinded by its light

The sad thing is once you go to bed
The only left to talk to are the voices in my head
They try to tell me what to feel
They try to tell me what to do
They to convince me of an evil named you
But they don't need to convince me
I've witnessed first hand
That black magic that you do
Those evil spells that made me fall for you

Why is this happening to me
I have writers block you see
I don't know what to do
I've grown tired writing of you
It's run dry
And is quite a bore
Night time is normally when my writing is peak
But now my writing seems to be weak
Poems need much more than rhyme
They need words that will survive time
Mine just crumble and break
Maybe I'll have better thoughts when I wake

Golden shimmers
Bright lights
The finer things in life
Waves crashing
Thoughts mashing
Finding out the unknown
Artist adventures
Musical excavations
Silver stars
Forever scars
Choosing your path
Mistakes made
Forgiving gaze
Monumental discovers
Shooting guns
Bright burning sun
Death of friend
Holding on til the end

I guess forever was just words to you
I shouldn't have let your lies seep through
Maybe my skin was too thin
Maybe I shouldn't have let you in
But now its all over
And now you are gone
My heart was like a diamond
Trapped in a safe
The combination being you
And those snake eyes saw right through
I never thought it to be possible
But the only thing harder than my heart of diamond
Was yours of ice

Its night time again
I'm staring at the sky
Wishing on all the shooting stars that go by
I don't wish for more wishes
Because that's a cliche
Instead I wish for another today
The way my heart felt was much like a flutter
And your beauty often made me stutter
But if all it takes is words to own your heart
It would've been mine from the start
Alas you have him
And I guess he has you
I've learned my place now
Its time I bid you a dew
To move on like a nomad
With no set home or place
But I'll never forget how you made my heart race
If you find yourself missing me
You know where I'll be
Sitting here waiting for you
It hurt to much to say goodbye
I guess I'll always be second place guy

Honestly I can't stand you anymore
We've drifted
Further away you continue to drive us
But I still try
Memories keeping my faint hope alive
Do what I can to breath life into us again
But what's not meant to be
Won't
And that is that
So once I leave
Don't count on me coming back
Because my future is ahead of me
And you are in the past

Now its time for me to go to bed
And dream those dreams about you
The ones that never come true...

A pocket full of stars
A jar full of dreams
Your love's not what it seems
Like stars it is enticing
From a far
Twinkling
But up close
Its a supernova
Quickly burning out
Collapsing into a black hole
******* my love into eternal darkness
But that was your plan all along wasn't it
You are siren
And my weakness was you
But I still hold onto my jar of dreams
And I still reach into my pocket of stars
Even in darkness
I can still shine

I feel it coursing through my veins
The power I have been blessed with
I feel like I can do anything
I let this power go to my head
I take on too much
Crashing
Burning
Spiraling out of control
I hit rock bottom before I realize that
Even god needed a day of rest

The world may be many things
Wonderful, terrible, happy,depressing
But it's not black and white
Nothing is clear and simple
Thing's have shades
shades of gray