I give it all to find you
Where it’s the land or the sea
For all the things that you do
No matter how far you are that where I’ll be.

Was I moving too fast ?
Here I stand
Please try to leave it all in the past
Now as I am a broken man.

Walk this street alone
How did we go wrong
Without you I can’t make it on my own
All the time we spend is now all gone.

Remembering the day you set me free
I am always one step behind from falling down
Now I’m on my knees
Through all these crashing sounds.

Starting to blur and fade
Feeling the movement of the floating sea
And hurting inside with my long lasting regrets stabbed by a blade
As I look at the sky reaching my hand out to you begging you to rescue me.

**By Jacob Cuadro

Roses are red violets are blue your eyes shine like the sun as bright as the moon. Love the way your hair smells like sweet flowers like the taste of your lips. Your smile and laughter bring me joy every time I spend time with you I just want more and more. If we ever separate it’s never too far as long you’re in my heart I be right beside you dear. As older we get time is always passing by my memory might fade away but your love remains the same. I’m grateful for you to be my  wife when it my time to say my final goodbye don’t worry we’re start our new life.

**By Jacob Cuadro

Your smile makes the roses grow your laughter make them bloom when I’m with you I never feel alone, you remind me of space cause you’re the whole solar system. The earth is the beauty of your description and everything that you are worth, Your eyes make the stars shine simply take my tears and fill them with joy and I’m glad that your mine. Feel like I’m Pluto a small blue cold rock because I’m not worthy of having you, but you turn thing around and make me feel like Jupiter so big nothing can take us apart. When I make love to you feel like a shooting star making my heart beat race to a secret land near by a warm desert sand, you’re the light to the sun bright as the moon, you’re the trees that I breathe your everything to me. You’re the ring of Saturn that hold us together and make the galaxy sing, when I’m not with you anymore that how know the world is going to end. I thank you to be part of my life and amazing friend, my memory of you will never fade we will no longer be a shade, thank you for making me feel worth something again.

**ByJacob Cuadro

I remember the day I kissed your lips when I look into your eyes I reach the stars and I love it when I hug you tight because I can feel your heart so close to mine. And when the day break as day goes by I think of you almost all the time, and I know this was a one night stand but please hear me out cause only going to say this once. There so much I haven’t discovered your love so tall like the Eiffel tower, where a magical place where two souls collide. You’re so perfect in every way; you’re so beautiful you don’t even have to try so give a chance to show you what I can really do. A love so strong that make you blush, a love your never regret it doesn’t hurt to try something new. We can be like ocean waves or falling skies whatever you chose I be happy either way cause that moment we had was an amazing night a strange love you probably never forget.

**Jacob Cuadro

I think making money to live to regardless how much money you have, or how big your roof is over head, or getting your bachelor or masters whatever ******* you call it just to get a better jobs these day is not life. Doing something you love something your passionate for something to hold on to, is worth the struggle to achieve the dreams that you dream the thing that you were born to do is to create your own world. And decide this is what I really want to truly be proud and say I’m living life.

**By Jacob Cuadro

I once lived in a world with amazing fresh air,

To look at what’s going on and to know I can’t help them seem to be not fair.

We once had long green trees,

But they chop down the oxygen that we breathe.

Starting to shrink as I look up and feel so small.

As the cities expanding and building growing tall.

Mother nature cries seeing her children’s taken away and disappear,

Rain pours from the sky by her sadly tears.

Some companies, industry, corporations, resorts lie say they are green,

But always battling by intervene.

But what they all have in common is they like the taste of honey,

Greedy nothing in the mind but the money.

Trees saved provide food, energy, water, teach us the seasons and actually are made from green papers that most people adore,

A plant that the most unique symbol of life in a beautiful world that human mistakenly ignores.

Before you destroy something listen and hear them speak,

Feel the air as their leaves floating around you with brushing kissing on your cheeks.

Is it really worth killing for an extra space for the earth to carry more weight,

Why suffocate the dust the pollution mankind created never realizing that there making a big mistake.

If it was me I rather live in a forest and lay on the soft dirt where nature collect soil and feel the seeds grow,

And watch the leaves at night shine as they glow.

To sleep on top of the branch as the leaves sing me a song,

As all birds, animals, insect, every creature gathering to share the world by the trees stems holding us together being a friend to welcome me home is place where I belong.

**By Jacob Cuadro

We been together five long years with a beautiful, gorgeous daughter,
She brings the child in both of us she our little joker,
There are never any regrets in the choices I made to be with you through all the arguments through all the obstacles and struggles from good time to bad,
To every emotion from joy and happiness even from anger and sad.

This is the hardest decision in my life that I ever had to make,
Splitting up isn’t going to be easy for the both of us to leave you and our daughter when the time come to be set apart,
I know the pain it going to cause me the hurt in my chest even though there going to be times my heart going to break,
But I just want to let you know that no matter what happens that I will always have a deep place of you in my heart.

You are so strong your capable of so many things you’ve broke obstacles and never realizes you have won them you have a big mind and so may dreams,
Through the mountain you must climb don’t give up no matter how hard it might seem,
You can do all things just keep your mind focus keep pushing through and the most important is that you got to believe,
I don’t want this to be the end of us even though we may be apart I still want to see your goal and see you live your dreams I still want to be there to see you achieve.

Just wanted to let you know for me leaving has to do with spiritual reasons you did nothing wrong and have no fault in this,
When this time comes for me being away, I have faith that our relationship can get stronger but if we don’t ever get back together, I understand and I hope that we can grow another relationship and become best friends and I hope when you are ready that you find love again and find the one,
You and especially our daughter has been the best thing that has ever happen to me you girls help me grow so much the man and father I’ve try to be everyday there no words that can describe how much you girls change my life you are beyond my bliss,
There something I do want to say that important and I’m going to real with you through the past five years I’ve been with you I have dealt with being accuse and blame of thing I had no fault in. The feeling of shame of treating you unfairly or encouragement I’ve try to give you but somehow you take it as a negative point of view, or the exhausting overwhelming feeling of your anxiety, fear, low self -esteem, depression and so on the things you fight within. I’m no angle myself but all the things you have put me through have taught me this is to be patient and that love is a choice, all these years that I’ve stayed is because I love you that much. Let’s pat ourselves on the back that it’s been five long great years with a twist that with all the struggles we overcame a lot together I feel like we’ve won.

P.S God love you unconditionally meaning when no one cares or when no one there when there no support or in life when you believe you don’t have a purpose or just don’t have a clue, ‘’God said before I formed you in your mother womb, I knew you.’’ (Jerimiah 1:5)
When you feel like there’s weight on your shoulder and life is hitting you hard and everything seems to be crashing down, with your head spinning round and round and feeling broken,
God holding your hand and he right there beside you if you give him a chance Jesus is the living water that can flow within you like the waves of a crystal blue ocean,
I will admit that you and I have both experience suffering and that we both have felt like we’ve been in a tunnel in complete dark,
But God is the light at the end of the tunnel and to see it and reach for it you simply must open your heart.

No matter what your decision you make in your life I’m truly happy for you of the things you’ve overcame and the person and mother you’ve become and much more I am, and God is proud,
So, a toast to the long journey we had together and possibly much more in the future to come but until then goodbye for now.

By: Jacob Cuadro

Guns and knives are for coward’s pens are for me, you can beat me down to a ****** pulp my bruises and my scars will fade weapon of words is all I need. My breath will lead you to a trail of darkness of the hall way broken lights from your weeping mind and your sinking heart falling to the abyss, a pain of fiery flames way beyond measure of your imagination begging with desperation for a different ending. My words will curse you haunt your dreams for all internally emotions of guilt and sins feed my starvation stomach those who will bow down before me. Like political peoples,  speakers, dictators, and of course presidents  who choose their words wisely with there lies in the air making  fools believe whatever they want them to hear, so who need guns and knives when words are the most powerful weapons in all of mankind.

**By Jacob Cuadro

Come, come closer, and enter in a world that is against each other. Don’t get me wrong you will have people the will love one another, but someday they will stab you in the back knowing you won’t be able to escape their traps. Feeling powerful but fooled, falling by the darkness night desperate to reach what you so call light. Hypnotize by the spark of fire one touch and you’ll burn to ashes and dust, probably do anything to survive when the world is about to end flashing right before your eyes. We as humans think were so big and on top of the world, but literally were small like tiny little ants. Not aware were the one causing this pain, a final day to have a blood of rains, planet earth doesn’t have a specific year for it end it’s the ants so call us making that happen. So wash from what is going around us not realizing where our sins are taken us in a world this is against each others.

**By Jacob Cuadro

Close your eyes feel the blood and flesh dripping form your mouth feeling the sweet revenge on your hands. Bullies that made you tears everyday with bruise on your face, refusing to look at yourself in mirror thinking what I did wrong to cause this pain. I don’t think there is a thing call love where all you see in this world is full of hate and dust falling from the darkness skies as shadows passing you by. Can’t help your body stop trembling of fear hearing little voices whispering you can’t do anything. But one day I let my demons took matter into my own hands feeling the anger building inside me. Smelling there blood from miles away feeling my hands through there thick skulls. And that when I realize this is where the river ends.

**By Jacob Cuadro

Every year I go back to the very beginning dreaming back inside your womb again evolving piece by piece feeling everything. The gravity, the space of your belly that start to grow, waves of your fluid rotating around me to dance in, the heat in your body keeping me warm, the vibrations of your booming beating heart. Hearing your voice echoing when you speak to me that sound like a sweet melody of a harp, the blood circulating through my veins, and the memory of your beauty forming in my brain. Felt your pain I cause you suffering and struggling to bring me in a brand new world, seeing your light that reflect in my eyes that shines like a pearl. The feeling of your soft fingers and hands holding me as I curl, and the first time my lungs were expanding gasping for air, the tickling wind In my ear of your words in prayers. Remembering the taste of your milk in my mouth that helps me fall asleep, thank you for all the thousands kisses I can still feel on my cheeks. The emotional of happiness of family and people in the room, spreading like a flower that blooms, just want to say I always be in the palm of your hand and I love you mom Happy Mother Day.

**By Jacob Cuadro

There’s a saying that words can hurt, which If you let it cover all over you with worm crawling disgusting dirt. Than yea you can say that but I find this false info, it’s  hard to see through something when you have a ***** window. Same thing with words they can always be turned around people may hit you with the fact that you may think it’s true saying that your ugly, weak, poor, alone, sick, coward, dumb, depress, turn these words inside out and what do get ?

Ugly = Beautiful
Weak = strength
Poor = Rich
Alone = Love
Sick = Heal
Coward = Brave
Dumb = Smart
Depressed = Happy

It’s a choice to have words cover you up but another to find and pull them inside out you are your own mind don’t let others control it.

**By Jacob Cuadro

I can smell the air crystal clear, with my lungs full of your strawberry peaches flavor perfume surrounding the atmosphere. Love your minty breath breathing around my neck, putting my hand on your hips getting near your ear whispering thing you want to hear. As I look into your spot light eyes that shine and reflect though mine I can have this moment every night. When my lips connect with yours the love making we have feels like unknown forming galaxies just for you and me. No one around no distraction just the lust of us and your moaning voice echoing though my soul as we become whole. Your affection is so strong is like a cupid shooting an arrow though my heart a wonderland of you loved that never ends.

**By Jacob Cuadro