Just woke up
Feeling like crap
The regular routine
The usual scene

Dying of boredom
Feeling lonesome
Waiting for something catastrophic
Wanting to do something idiotic

Desperate for craziness
Hoping for some happiness
But I have no time to throw away
So I have nothing else to say

Having no excess time
To do good or to commit crime
Because everything flies so vast
Everyone else is moving really vast

Only looking forward
Only wanting the reward
What is happening to the earth?
Life is surely getting absurd

We should enjoy the journey
Live a little and be happy
So put a smile to your face
Do not look back to yesterday

Everyday is special
Things just don't happen twice
Don't waste time
Go on and roll the dice

Enjoy every moment
Make it monumental
Ignore the horrid comments
Make the day supernatural

Reach the unfulfilled plans
Grasp the impossible dreams
We can't until we admit
That were too afraid to break this habit

Just to conclude
I have one last thing to say
I have no time to look away
Just way too excited for this typical day

The darkness in my soul, never left.
It was always there
It was suppressed when you where here
And filled me up when you left

The darkness in my soul
Plagued what I hold most dear
Infected my heart
Infected my brain
It growed into a tumor, and latched untill it became a part of me.
You see my dear, you where the sun in my sky. The angel of me.
And I? Hehehe.... I was just the demon in you, killing what you wanted to be...

I remember the thunder
Cascading down your spine
The night that you told me
Our love was now all mine

I remember a bang
Then nothing else
I watched you
The magician
Work your last trick
And out from your hat
A serpentine

How could I not have heard the cries
How could I not have read the signs
Howling wolves come late at night
Procure their next delight

I was a paper plane
And you were the eye of the hurricane
I was a skeptic slip
And you were the robe beneath my feet
I was a butterfly with a fear of falling
And so you clipped my wings

You were the ink
Spread out on sheets of unused paper
Line after line
Stroke after stroke
Vestal canvas
Tainted over time

Now I grab your fingers
Now I run away
Now I'm swirling in slabs of sapphire
Falling wave after wave

Now I'm crouched beneath my sink
Crying
Now I load old pills in my gun
Take aim
And fire
Cremate all of
My desire

Now I walk on all fours
Primal
Sleeping on the debris
Of my defeat

And watch you sheathe your two front teeth to taint your next great masterpiece

Me counting the ticks
of darkness of horrors
and skiny demons
which arrived as nightmares

then i realise
isn't they are alike her
who is around me
since years of beingness