Hannah Reber

Hannah Reber Oct 2016

When the nerd in the back dies with complexity
of not sharing simplicity
of not getting acknowledgment
of not receiving enjoyment
What is there to live for
with the dark days ahead
and the ruined ones behind
what is there to live for
other than the lonely scorch ?

I ask myself on single days
why do wait,
why do sing
to a lonesome soul
or a high pitched scream?
lonesome thoughts
swarm through my brain
wishing the better
of every single day
wanting with heart
craving with soul
what is there to live for
other than that 6 foot hole ?

The nature dies along without a cause
The fire burns singing screaming songs
when the old crow hackles
when the little mouse rants
I'm going to be hanging
from a little unknown branch
praying to my soul
praying for life
When that old crow hackles
Ill be sitting on a mantle
with thee only thing left but
the ashes of my neck
What is there to live for
when I am only a spec ?

Questions like those,
come and go,
yet one always stays
which one I will never know
Along with the dreams
of a broken pain that lasts
Along with wishes
of a sad whimsy past...

#poem #worry #pain #death #hurt #brain #screaming #soul #questions #hanging

Hannah Reber Aug 2016

Insanity With A Touch Of Fear

Insanity.
It festers in your ears,
It grows in your tears,
With each tick tock tick tock second
You live with that one fear.
Don’t try to hide,
For those who live within the pride,
Will someday find,
That one day where they will surely die.

You see, with your own eyes,
The pale, the white, the sticky, the slim.
Those maggot flies,
Which fill your mouth,
Slinking down your warm throat,
Now they’ve gone south,
Deep they swarm within your core,
Where you once were warm,
Now you are frigidly sore.
They flood in a panic,
Multiplying in a frantic,
Their slim drips from your ears,
Then the tears,
Finally all you can speak is that one fear.
They eat you alive, feeding their bone breaking selves,
All you can do is break your screaming cells.
You’ve met the thing that eats the dead.
Welcome to your 2 foot wide, 6 foot deep, wooden bed.

#fear #death #insanity #touch #terror #horror #bugs #crawling

Hannah Reber Jul 2016

Goodbye my one and only love...

Don't you see me?
Broken down,
Shatter's flooding the open ground.
Don't you know?
Can't you see?
That I only wish to be free,
Free from this pain,
Free from this world,
Free from this lost and lonely girl?
That's the thing.
I want to live,
Not to die,
At the cost of that one guy,
That one guy who told me he'd stay here with me,
That one guy who I love,
That one guy I believed.
He isn't wrong,
He isn't the one who left me abandoned,
Who left me never singing another love song,
I wish with all my heart I could see him,
See us never falling apart,
Yet that's a little girl's dream,
The world insists I grow,
I grow till I rip the seam...
I know now, I must be strong,
Even though I know it's so very wrong,
I love him more than the sun,
The sun that holds me,
Even though my days seem done,
I want him back,
Yet that dream seems to lack,
The reality, the truth...
Missing him is worse than dying,
Worse than fire, Worse than crying,
I say my goodbye, with countless tears in my eyes,
And now I fear that I may never live with another tear,
Let alone another fear, for now I'm dead, gone and past,
Cause depression is long, and is too strong to not last...

#love #depression #pain #death #dead #goodbye #longing #gone #missing #done

Hannah Reber May 2016

The Sun Lit Angel

Her sun lit strands of gold streamed fluently down her body,
Her sharp crystallized eyes were engulfed in sadness, for she had nobody,
Her moonlight skin, dotted with the stars,
Brushed my rugged wounded face, capturing my heart.
She seemed to have a hard time standing,
For her heart and soul had never had a landing,
The damp clouds, reaching higher than the both of us,
Trickled the angel's tears, and darkening some of our trust,
She gracefully tip-toed with her delicate feet over the hard cold streets,
Dancing with a certain beauty, she spoke the words, "I love he"
My heart raced and spun, never having another one to hold and to love,
To kiss and to save, she was my new glistening wave,
The oceans weren't vast enough to hold our fast and moving hearts,
I knew right there and then, I would never let go of her, never would we part again.

#love #life #sun #angel #lit #moonlight #sunlit #lovethis

May 2016

Emily Dickinson

What mystery pervades a well!

1400

What mystery pervades a well!
That water lives so far—
A neighbor from another world
Residing in a jar

Whose limit none have ever seen,
But just his lid of glass—
Like looking every time you please
In an abyss’s face!

The grass does not appear afraid,
I often wonder he
Can stand so close and look so bold
At what is awe to me.

Related somehow they may be,
The sedge stands next the sea—
Where he is floorless
And does no timidity betray

But nature is a stranger yet;
The ones that cite her most
Have never passed her haunted house,
Nor simplified her ghost.

To pity those that know her not
Is helped by the regret
That those who know her, know her less
The nearer her they get.

May 2016

Emily Dickinson

If I should die

54

If I should die,
And you should live—
And time should gurgle on—
And morn should beam—
And noon should burn—
As it has usual done—
If Birds should build as early
And Bees as bustling go—
One might depart at option
From enterprise below!
’Tis sweet to know that stocks will stand
When we with Daisies lie—
That Commerce will continue—
And Trades as briskly fly—
It makes the parting tranquil
And keeps the soul serene—
That gentlemen so sprightly
Conduct the pleasing scene!

May 2016

Emily Dickinson

Sometimes with the Heart

1680

Sometimes with the Heart
Seldom with the Soul
Scarcer once with the Might
Few—love at all.