She is always more deceiving,
than she is comforting

You take one look at her
and not one thing is halted,
quieted, stopped
from going through your mind

Your clumsy tongue was enough
to get me drunk on you.
rather than stumble on myself
I stumbled over your words,
and false hope

In the end, I was slumped
against the wall,
wondering what I ever did to deserve
everything less than the best

I used to be okay
With you
The way you treated me

Then I found bliss
And realized
It was nothing more
Than possession

I never have liked fighting
especially when it was with you

Your screaming,
the words that sting
like an open wound

"I'm sorry," you say
"I love you,
I never want to lose you."

I never wanted to lose you either
especially not to the alcohol

Everything is a blur
Yet I take another sip

Friends around,
laughing

Nothing bothers me,
for once

Feeling your skin on mine,
I sense that we are one in the same
There is not a me without you
When I'm away from you
I feel like a part of me is missing
Yearning
for what parts of you it's lacking

I thought of texting you
"Good morning, I can't sleep"
But then I remembered
You are on a journey,
Which I am not part of
And that's okay.