at least in this chimera
i dreamed as if it were love
at least i believed in
the power our "love" had
but i knew that it
wouldn't even last anyways

but the reality of it is that
you were never good for me
and i was never good for you
now i stand here alone
not knowing what to do
with a candlelight just for you
staring at the fire while
watching the illusions burn out

distressed and distraught
regretting the feelings i caught
while still believing it was real
as if it were love.

a tale away from dreaming
already frozen from feeling
high on a high that will never last
living in a melodrama
stuck in a clear nirvana

cling to open windowed dreams
as if it never lasts
life is the bird that sings as it’s wings
have grown weary as the moonlight
starts to grow dreary yet they never rise
he lets out a strong cry
as he knows he can’t fly
knowingly gets left along to stride
leaving him only his dreams to confide

the letters of your name
tumble out of my lips
leaving me breathless
you never seem to leave
my imagination alone
we sail from shore to shore
from the islands to open blue seas
fulfilling my divinity
roses grow from the
garden endlessly living in
peace and tranquility
falling from distant constellations
leaving nothing but
memories to drift off to.

it seems now my clouds are grey
incomplete thoughts that often tame the sky
calming the waters that wade in my eyes
as the sun kisses the sea
here I abide by the silence that waits for me
thinking it’s you in disguise
in my hands is where your heart lies
after filling your ears with my words
that leave you in a solitude of bliss
joyful noises fill the sound
my love for you becomes profound
I wander in the arms of the tainted truth
when all I wanted was proof

you were the one
with broken feathers
dashing along with the sea
falling purposely
coasting among the
warm winds exposed
by the shades dipped in gold
hiding behind everything
that glows
abiding by the forgotten memory that flows.

one day my heart fell
across the ocean
then it washed away
and became one with the sea
while the birds flew
and joined each other in harmony
my mind got lost there
like the clouds underneath
the ribbons of my feet
they just disappeared
i can't seem to find it
but at least i'm still here.

fell in love with the world today
left home with a smile
his height stood tall
he was beautiful for me too
if only he knew
I leave him to the imagination
body & soul
illustrating his beauty
in its simplest form
caught in the right space
at the right time
in my daydreams is where he resides
from his lips to his eyes
it’s hard not to resist
with his words leaving me with bliss
I’d like to keep him in mind
refreshed and refined
is how he felt up close to me
letting my temptation uprise
frustration hovers over
scrambling the speeches in my mind
although I show it all the time
it seems as if he’s blind
by the chick that he stands beside
but it’s okay
I tell myself it will pass overtime
maybe it wasn’t my time.

i lost you
i tried to find you
but you flew away
with the sounds
of the wind
and drifted along
with clouds in the sky
i tried to call your name
but you ran away to
the sacred place
beneath the sun

love is such
a hard thing to
find but yet so easy
to get hurt from

every time i see you in my dreams
you bring weakness to my knees
the feeling that you give to me
is indescribable
it's like a feeling I've never felt before
i wanna experience this feeling more
when I'm with you in my dreams

footsteps faintly
imprinted on the concrete
raindrops fall on the windowsill
captured by the writings on the wall
reminding him of his adolescence
he takes a look as he sits still
the scent of maplewood coats his nose
as it leaves him with remnants of
untainted happiness
potions of whiskey seal his lips
trailing off while the pain echoes
stinging the back of his throat
piercing his eyes towards the mirror
held back by his reflection
his breath trembles from fear
basking in the “lift of freedom”
while kisses remain bittersweet
dreams are the only thing that
seem to pass him by
only willing at living the “sweet life”
running low on his ego
he sees the person he can’t see
as he’s left vacantly in a disarray conflicted with his wounds
here lies a man confused...

show me the way to
the pain inside your truth
hidden behind the proof
why must you disguise yourself
leaving your pride on the line
withering in unreasonable doubt
while fearless and breathing
yet and still purposely smiling
hiding behind the brokenness
of your soul waiting for the
young sovereign to rise again
wondering where to begin
blinded by finding a way
only to get lost again
while fighting wars from within.

we tend to lose control
of what was once lost
rekindling the passion
that was never caught
we end up getting drawn in
that we forget
what we once were
every part and every
trace we leave behind
ends up becoming nonexistent
and floating off with the
flowers in the sea.

stuck in a paradox
a paradox of lies
as the rivers stream
through the shallow creek
trying not to think
while dwelling on my thoughts
for a second
purposely anxious
sadness stands by my side
the shadows remain
dim and hallow
it is pain that I have to swallow

broken by this world
how do I get by
miles run wild
as time runs off to
the wilderness it finds
ran by the silver lines
leaving no remnant of fear
in this golden sky of life
where tears run dry
the beauty of this life
is often bittersweet
like a forbidden truth
often told to keep
with the shadow of rivers
running deep.

every time I look in your eyes
you leave me mesmerized
when i think about you
you leave me hypnotized

numb to feeling
breathing slowly
dreaming vividly
lost in paradise
high on novacane
lost in wanderland
watching the colors collide
feeling a different kind of high

love is patient
love is kind
love is great
but hard to find
love is strong
love is blind
love is precious
but worth a lot of time

majestic sounds that fill the ear
luminously engraved as
the bass harmonizes with
melodies in my mind
as the piano croons a humble tune
coating the whispers in my ear
as the drums build up to perfect synchronization
wishing I could hold it so near
the heart of the synths enrapture me
catching me in the web of love
crocheted in a melodic fantasy
I close my eyes
as I enjoy the ride
letting the strings subside
I fantasize in this melodic bliss
who knew heaven could feel like this?
as I walk along the tones of bridges
building up to a world unknown
it is the sweetest thing I’ve ever known
like the tenderness of honeydew
the rhythms of love speak to you
so sweet yet so tempting
the trumpets tower over me
leaving me selfless
giving myself endlessly

do you see me
from the trees the grow above me
that grow out to the vineyards
across the dirt-risen floor
yearning for the sunlight
to love once again
as I dwell on thoughts
coasting along the river
confessing out loud
to the dried sunflowers
and the ultralight beams
walking on water with
the thorns on my feet
calling out to heavens above.

smoke filled clouds
leave a strawberry haze
distant memories turn into
kaleidoscope dreams
bright and vivid
colors leave a trace
on the night sky
thinking of you my love
as i count the number
of clouds that are in
the sky
and how each cloud
represents our love
at different times
the warm winds
remind me of
your embrace
while making
me think of
the beauty
behind your face

burnt wood fills the air
coasting along with the
scent of applewood smoke
with the lakes
that flows off with the stream
closer with the sun it seems
my mind ponders while
my imagination wanders
as I become in tune with
the sun and the moon
thoughts sprout like a rose
with the light it glows
leaving it time for it to grow
with the flowers below

shades of indigo
paint the sky
while the doves
fly away in the wind
while the waves
match with the tide
as the white candles
burn the air with incense
as the smell of sage and rosemary
compliment the aroma of the air
i dream of you dangerously

summer nights
five days of
nothingness
fill the skies
with emptiness
here lies a girl
who lies in loneliness

hopefully when i call
the constellations will appear
tears hang like crystals
from yesteryear
the vapors sail out from a distance
yet leave my soul feeling very cold
underneath the moonlight
deeper than the sky above
hoping that when you come
I will call again.

leave my heart in a casket
where it's safe and sound
will someone catch it for me
no pain is evident in this film of life
flames progress high
while the wings of the phoenix
take flight striding by the moonlight
never looking at the reflection
haunting the mirrors of the sea
that flows beneath
leaving me with nothing
more to cling to other than the
fears that were meant to dream
wounds that were never meant
to be found and were meant to
be drowned leaving me
alone to take the crown

flying high in my feelings
fearless and breathing
distorted and jaded
memories faded
from the end of time
alice in wonderland
flying high in the dark
on the way to
never land getting
lost in my innocence
in a perfect disarray
colours go astray
and later fade away.

as I run along freely
in the meadows of sorrow
grown with sweet misery
as the moonlight
surpasses the sun
and i wait for the return
of the morning
i sit by the lake
of forgotten wishes
while the dragonflies
shine brightly along
with the moonlight
as the lily pads
glide along across
the lake
as I catch the breaths I take
while the sounds of quiet
calm my mind soothingly
i recall the scenes
of my dreams
haunted fantasies
of you reappear
and then i vanish
and eventually
disappear

capturing a picture
that I don't see in my eyes
believing in false tales
and broken lies
too blind enough
to even realize the
illusion i had was never
even real
so here in my hands
i hold the capsule of
broken time
hoping it can take
me away from this
perfect lie
all the dreams i've
ever thought of deeply
can drift away and
eventually die
and remain with
the clouds in the sky
one day time will tell
for this broken fairytale
coming from a complex mind.

treading by faith
only to get closer
cleansing myself
from all my fears
just for them to reappear
numb to silence given
cooling down the rivers of ambition
wilting in the power of the rose
rose from the time that once began
gradient skies seem to follow as we stride
only to push past the lines

we played along the keys of life
colored along the mirror of the sky
we built sandcastles in my dreams
you professed love inna better light
bathed in the waters that fell down
poised with passion that we gave
opened my eyes for a new love to see
cleansing the air I breathe
astounded by the grace of our sound
it is heaven that we’ve found
it’s love
that has me feeling this way
the reason I get up everyday
desired by the love you gave
feel this almost everyday
fulfillment in my bones
flowers have grown
by this love we’ve shown
that can go for miles wide
if only I can feel this all the time.

grown isolated from
the shadows that
i hide behind
alone with the
darkness that
i've held from within

i can feel myself
crumbling down
as the walls start
to cave in
i don't even know
where to begin
i feel myself tumbling
down to the ground
as i feel myself
crashing down
I've grown too weary
too tired to feel feeling

she dances in moonlight
as she colors the crevices
of the clouds in the velvet sky
while the warm winds drift
along with the stars
she traces along with the
constellations
with the intention
to not be erased
her energy spreads
throughout the hidden oasis
among the secret gardens
as they all become one
she sings the song of eternity
as they recognize her every sound
the sway of the
burgundy tree branches
follow her every tune
drifting along with the
flowers that bloom
her cries shift the powers
of distant waters behind the moon
bringing the light of the sun
soon as the morning arises
she vanishes running
towards the sun
leaving her spirit untouched.