On a day like this,
don't hate me because I showed you my true self,
but do stay because you truly care
On a day like this,
please don't run away if I'm not being sugary sweet,
because not all other flavours but are poisonous
On a day like this,
I cannot think for myself
and I'm too tired to defend anything at all
So carry me in your pocket,
I'll be your little genie
Just don't make use of me
Because I truly love you dearly

In my world of blacks and grays
you're my only burst of colours
you're my only source of light
shining so brilliantly bright...
amongst the shadow mines
devised, conjured up by my own mind...
You, are the ladder to my sanity
out of this pit of black hole
So if i never told you so, i'm sorry
but i'm thankful... i'm thankful...

"Karen, her name's Karen!"*
whispered one to the other,
grinning...
Those married men...
That new intern...

So...
what about loyalty?
what about pride?
what about honour?
what about when you said you'll only have your eyes on me?
what about when you say "you're my one and only"?
gone?
plain old lies?
"They remain...
Just in the name of having fun...
Just appreciating..."
Just asking...

So...
--what about feelings?
what about respect?
what about honesty?
what about "no more lies"?
what about trust?
companion?
"Nothing serious...
my heart still belongs to you,
you're the only one I'll come home to"...
But about loyalty?
Honour? Mine?
Respect?
What about... the rest?...
Just asking...
in the name of FUN...

In the old grand Cathedral
Down by the City Hall
Across the buzzing lively street
The place where we'd meet

Birds chirping signifying the new day...
My new dawn with you
Until the break of dawn...

Then balloons, --big white balloons across the sky...
A magnificent view
In the shimmering glistening sun,
the cooling breezy wind,
The crisp autumn air...
Laughters and cheer,
--those wedding bells!
Do you hear those beautiful tower bells?...
My billowing gown...
And doves, --doves flapping their wings...! Up and beyond,
gazing to the future...

...

I wish we're getting married today...

...

But we're not,...
You left me months ago...
and now my mind draws blank,
for another one to fill,
an empty space where your arm used to link mine,
as how we should've walk...
... the aisle, ...
under the stares of our beloved...

And you're not coming back, I know...
Stilll I wish, I wish, that were getting married today...

It's not the promise you break,
but it's my heart and soul you do break...

They say what belongs to you would find its own way back to you,
eventually, somehow...
Only they know...

You threw me once,
did you expect me to come back to you?...
....
So I let you go once,
would you ever find your way back to me?

Were you testing me? Somehow...
Were you testing our fates...
the one you held within your palms...?

I can't help but pondered...
If come back this time, would we fall on the same ground?...
Or will we break when we're collided?...

Only they know...
Only those who've known would know...

Heard you're with someone new now...
I should've known,... I should've known...
You'd never left your heart cool for so long...
In the name of avoiding loneliness, avoiding the longing...
Had always been a fling,
but this time would it be your eternal song?
Or just another song?...
I dare not to ask, I wouldn't want to know...
Only my fool would believe you're still my one and only, my own...
...

And so I've been told...
And so I'll keep my heart cold...
'Cause it's the only one I can hold,
my pride and dignity...
The only key to my sanity...
...

You were never mine
I was very way too late at hello
Yes, I know,...
I am just another season,
I might will just be,
in your long strings of goodbyes, aren't I?
We might never be,
but your scent is too a sweet felony...
haunting me astray
keeping me in this yours truly imaginary fray
Why do I want you, the trap of the desire
Reeled in by your beauty, the **** liar...
I know I am not the only one
She detained your heart,
and you never ask back for it...
I wish you say you need me,
but I would never have your history
I know...
So, no need to say sorry
Fate was never on my side on this, I might just meant to be lonely...

I'm lost...
all rust and lost...
Fleeting around to nowhere
Perhaps some things are worth fighting for
Would you be my saviour?
My tower light?
Lead me the way to hapiness,
save me from this nothingness
All my friends seem to have found something,
something they settle down with,
contented with nevertheless...
I am but a fling
Where should I go forthwith?
...
I'm so lost,
afloat and light,
exhausted the exhaust...
all black smokes and frost...