It is me who changed,
I now know who to blame.

For she is just like her self,
She didn't change at all.

No, I do not blame her,
For she is exactly the same.

She is just like she was,
Still video chatting clothless.

The difference is that I'm here,
The new one is overseas.

He has told me everything.

Unwanted glory,
All of it was so gory,
And I am so sorry.

Why that day came,
And why I survived,
I do not know either.

It is as if I chose dear life,
Of the two choices there,
Now I doubt my choice.

There is no happiness,
And there is no sorrow,
Neither happy nor sad.

Unrequited love I dispensed,
How long will it take for me,
Always I repent after loving.

They ask me my story,
I tell them my saga,
Of love & suffering.

Then they get bored,
Too dreamy a story,
They take it all as fiction.

The only thing I regret about meeting you
Is all the times that I said no.

The time you were probably too drunk anyway.
The night we could have played around in your car.
The night you broke down and my body could have made you smile.

I thought to myself...
"Don't do this with someone who doesn't need you."

But you wanted me.
More than anyone in my life had ever wanted me before.
And for you to want me still.
I'd give anything.

I'd give anything to run my hands through your hair.
I'd give anything for you to pull me closer with your tongue again.
I'd move mountains to hear you whisper in my ear.
Just to hear you tell me what to say...
I'd create stars for you.

To watch you sleep so peacefully.
To tell me goodnight every evening.
To have you ask me questions.
To have someone tell me everything.

Why do you infect my mind this much?
Why can't I be free of the memory of your touch?

It's you I want to comfort me.
It's you I want to play with.

But I said no all those times.
It's your turn to say no to me.

My heart was stolen
by a beautiful woman
she taught me to love
like i had never before
and i lost myself in her
living off the beauty there
wanting and asking for more
but she could never commit
and that is how it remained
for many wonderful years
but due to outside pressure
our lives were pulled asunder
i lost her to family
to money and to power
now i am down for the count
but i will get right back up
happy for what we did have
it was a wild crazy ride
and i love her for all that
so i wish for her the best
and i will always owe her
my undying gratitude
for sharing with me completely
her mind, her soul, her body
her beauty as a woman
every detail of her
a sublime intimacy
singed into my memory
you taught me about myself
and plumbed my capacity
to care and to empathize
and to take a chance on love
to that end i still remain
an unrepentent sinner
a believer in true love
and willing to take the fall
whenever love calls