Night fades away so slowly
Waiting for early light
Imprisoned behind cold sheets
As loneliness sets its sight.
I've waited for far too long
For things that could never be
I tried finding love while blind
And in turn became debris.
Saw night took friends away
Treasured memories became dust
As bonds become buried
Through tattered tales of trust.
Loneliness is an old companion
We share dinners together alone
And night after night as a result
Our bond and friendship grown.
Love is a complicated task now
I fall into the abyss of people's words
That 'unlovable loner' is my destiny
So I keep it to heart like a password.
I have loved two people in my life
That extends further than family
And although we aren't anything
I still wish them to be happy.
To find happiness on Earth
To see warmth in the cold of night
And to finally be able to vision
That in the dark, there's light
I've given up on love. I know other poets might say it's a wrong move. Truthfully I'm better of alone, I don't deserve anyone who comes into my life.
In the words of my ex; I don't know how to treasure the people I love which means I can't put another person through that same sensation.
I don't deserve to be loved simple as that.
In the words of a HP poet 'Love contains emotional rollercoasters and the only way to truly love people is to not ride the rollercoaster".