Looking away as you begin to speak. . .
Your words were slurred. . .
Your voice was weak. . .
Night after night. . .
You pour another round. . .
Bottle after bottle. . .
I watch as you drown. . .
I wish I could tell you how badly
this hurts. . .
I see you suffer everyday, while your drinking gets worse. . .
But, I stay silent, as you stumble and fall. . .
Deep down I know this burden is not your fault at all. . .
I remember back when we were
younger. . .
When you were sober,
Just a year or two before the alcohol took over. . .
Back then you spent so much time with me and my brother. . .
But our relationship slipped away as the years carried on. . .
And slowly, you shut down. . .
Pushing away your own sons. . .
You burned many bridges. . .
You sealed many doors. . .
You didn't have time friends,
Or loved ones anymore. . .
Almost like a sickness once it began to take hold
With no way to stop it. . .
We sat and watched alcoholism unfold. . .
We would catch you as you begin to lose balance every night.
We help you in to bed when you stumble,
You hold on to the walls,
Wobbling and stumbling the harder you tried. . .
Even with us helping you to bed you would still curse us
We tried like hell to lift you...
And if we ignored you. . .
You would try to fight us all instead...
Including my friends. . .
You would think this process would. . .
Eventually get old to someone. . .
But for you. . .
it never did. . .
We still see the same thing everyday,
And yes,
It's just as sad each time it repeats. . .
But we continue this routine. . .
Watching you **** yourself slowly. . .
Drowning yourself daily,
In alcohol, pain and misery. . .
day by day. . .
night by night. . .
“Dear Lord please, show him a sign. . .
Clear his mind so he can know and see. . .
The hurt , the loss and the sorrow.
covered with a wave of lies shadowed on it's lable. . .
The problem here is very clear...
Actually , at the bottom of that bottle. . .
Is all the proof you need. . . ”
“I pray that one day you get a chance to see our faces once more. . .
To truly see that we are still here. . .And we still care. . .
Through those glazed over eye's of yours."
“Please dear lord, consider this prayer I ask of you.
He isn't lost show him the way to you. . .
Show him the love we have for him. . .
Please God… Just let him see the truth. . .
God, from my heart, you know these words are true.
Thank you Dear Lord for listening like before.
Thank you, I love you Dear Lord...
In your name I pray...
Amen.”
“Lord, I put all my faith in you.”
Edited and extended, fully re-visited , version of one of the earliest poems I posted on here.
It extremely personal but even without the personal connection or anything...I still would have felt like it needed a second run with y'all ....the old one got deleted along with two of my other earlier pieces that I have edited or re-visited to create greater quality pieces. I'll post so be on the look out for em and tell me which ya like best...revisited or original version