If I give you love
what will I get in return?
will it be acknowledged?
or will it be but spurned?
If I offer my love
will you be mine forever?
or will you laugh at me
and say to me   - not ever.
Am I just a fool in love?
head over heels and blind?
silly and sheepish, blushing
not knowing what's in my mind?
I stand on the steps of happiness
worried, lest I fall
falling at your feet
all curled up in a ball.
Columbus took a chance
and by God - he did all right
I cannot leave you now
without putting up a fight.
I smiled and said I love you
my voice began to crack
but your eyes lit up I swear
as you smiled at me right back!

46 years
What do you get
Your way past old
Your pants don’t seem to fit
Your always cold
Like day old bread
Your beginning to mold
Broken Hips
Brittle Bones
46 years
**** that’s old

Remember when…..
Barefoot running on a blacktop street
Lazy days
Summer heat
Swimming pools
summer vacation
There is no school
12 years old
To be again
One more time till the summer ends

Dreaming of lovers that were never mine,
I watch the stars fall from the sky
And wish to fall off of this earth.
Let me paddle to the edge of the world
And drop off of existence.
Gone and forgotten, like the words I never spoke.

Imagine
All the lives
I’ve lived
And things
I’ve seen,
Gone by noon
Dizzy as a dream
Fevered bodies
Clutching clammy skin

Please, wake me up dear.

I fear for the day I die young
Imagine this brilliant youth, crushed
By the fragility of mortality
Imagine my drowning fear, rooted
In visions of a cruel death
(Premonitions or sacred wishes)
Rushing to the front of my mind
Hanging above my head

Imagine how they’d mourn
The gentle poet
Dead by 22
With nothing to show for it

I fear for the day my words reign true
For an artist who shows their scars
Is one who is not afraid to see them so
And suddenly I feel myself
          growing,
              growing,
            ­      growing
                       All too quickly.

And the rush of this fleeting youth,
Makes me ache with the chase of death

I always knew it would end like this
Blurry eyes begging for forgiveness
Unanswered calls, hollow bones
Silenced beneath packed earth

Ask for another chance and I’ll watch you weep
Silly girl, this was always your fate

Repentance, repentance
Empty words I could’ve used long ago to heal myself but
My wounds have scarred, and my hands are ******
You are stained with betrayal, and I
Am rippled with shock, fragmented
With a deep want for pain. Harm to you a thousand times.

Repentance, repentance
Not enough for your misdeeds
Your harm needs blood to cleanse

Imagine, at the end of your life
I’ll wait at the foot of your grave
Waiting for pleading knees
Buried in soft earth

Even the sorry eyes and words of comfort aren’t enough,
Because sympathy won’t save you from her fate.

I am always half awake,
Occupying the space between
Then                   and now
        Today                     and tomorrow
One half dreaming, dizzy,
                           Falling. Always falling,
Graced in gravity’s pull
I’ve never found the bottom
But when I do
I’ll just keep digging and
                 keep falling.