life found in the fragile

Jun 2015

i am miss brightside

Can you still hear the music my heart is making?
Gentle and clear.
I see you.
I feel you.
I need you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.

Because...

All I can hear now is the beat of your heart-
Loud and firm.
**I see her.
I feel her.
I need her.
I love her.
I love her.
I love her.
I love her.
I love her.
Not you.

It's been awhile since i posted something happy here but now that all i could feel is brokeness.. i couldn't fill my pages with words to mend a broken heart.

#love #broken #sad

Jun 2015

The Noose

Worship

His name lives
In between panic ragged breaths
The essence of man
Perfection,
I will never hold
In my trembling arms
He is the wavering ocean
I am just a pebble
In a still pond.

May 2015

i am miss brightside

My Universe

Let loneliness' tears explode and be transformed into thousand moaning stars tonight,
As...

My universe whips with meteors...
                                                     Slashing the earth's flesh,
with scorching ***** of fire.

My universe cries an august rain...
                                              Leaving the earth in deep waters,
breathless,  it won't survive.

My universe hurls hails...
                                                  Crashing the earth's face.

My universe whispers comets...
                                          Making the earth sigh with fiery passion.

My universe frets in pain...
                                                 Deafening sound echoes
                                           in earth's hollow station.

That...

My universe in my arms is collapsing...
                                                   And I,
the earth, am dying with him.

Realizing you become the reason that I live...

#love #death #universe #live #immortal

Apr 2015

Liz And Lilacs

An exercise in worthlessness

Day* faded to *night
while I wasn't watching.

You were always too good for me
and **** it, I'm not good enough.

I wanted to see the sunset, but
when I remembered, the sun was a memory.

You called me a a sunset kind of girl
and I didn't have a clue what that meant
but I liked the way it sounded on your lips.

Stop that, this has to be unrequited,
it's better for you, for me, too.
I'm not good enough for you.

*Just leave it to be worthless.

Nothing ever works out the way we plan.
You were the day, so crisp and bright.

Apr 2015

i am miss brightside

Make me Cry

I want to do a movie-marathon,
Running from morning til noon to midnight.
Watch all the saddest movies ever filmed.
Or spend this day reading stories, novels, proses.
All told by broken souls, fueled by heartaches.
'Til all these pain metamorphose and birthed into tears.
'Til all these hurt goes away along with this release.

For,

I am growing tired of saying "It's okay. I'm fine."
Enough of the lies!
Those lines..
It kept me from being human,
For it suppress
the cries,
the screams,
the state of fragility.
It kept me from feeling weak,
from being vulnerable.

And,

I need to hear your voice, to soothe my restless soul.
I need to feel your hands holding mine, making me feel that i am not alone.
I need to see that look in your eyes, penetrating inside me,
reviving embers of my being
that is slowly drifting away.
I need to...
Oh please!
I need you.
Anything you can offer to take away this emptiness.

*Until I can see I.
Until I can hear me.
Until I can feel and be myself again.

I cannot cry when I'm depress.
And right now, i cannot cry.
I'm in so much need of tears.

#sad #depressed #tears #stretched

Apr 2015

ryn

Spectrum Green

Welcome the new day
As night lifted her screen
The sun had brought its palette
Boasting of colours never before I've seen

Rays like paintbrushes
As they dove into the water
Light explosively burst into emeralds
Ripple and eddies would sparkle and shimmer

Bolts from the orange orb
Speared the tops of trees and sprawling ground
Tinting their leaves with green of olives
And grass with freshness abound

Its wand touched the tip of the distant lighthouse
Turning it the brightest green
It brought life back to my surrounding
Layered my eyes with the greenest of sheens

Such beauty laid bare
The difference was literally night and day
But my heart is also green
To readily accept what my mind has to say

As if a child
Or yet still a greenhorn
I should ignore the stains of yellow
And enjoy this new day that had just been born

#green #hellopoetry107 #spectrumseries

Mar 2015

silas

heartbreak (10w)

who knew
that one simple word
'goodbye'
could burn cities?

cities, at least in my mind

= = =

for no one in particular

#heartbreak #10w #silaswrites

Mar 2015

Just Melz

~she tried~

She shouted from the roof tops
Her love for him
And how it would never stop

He simply stared at her
In utter shock
nobody could ever love me
Or so he thought...

She smiled with her arms spread apart
Waiting for a response

He stood there silently
Unable to move but wanting to walk
Walk away from the lies
Cause he'd been hurt too many times

She begged and pleaded
Trying to make him believe
It's the truth she said

But he couldn't respond
Simply turned around to leave
women only hurt me
Was all he could believe
Too much pain and abuse
For those lies to become the truth

She sunk inside herself
Filled with pain and so many tears
After years of trying
She finally faced her fears
Only to be hit with rejection
Imperfections of love
Shown at there finest
She couldn't stand her thoughts...

He slowed his walk
Thought about the past
Suddenly came to realize
This life is your last
And there on that roof top
He may have finally found some hope
So he stopped his walk
Turned around to accept the truth
Only to find
That she had jumped off...

#love #truth #sad #pain #hope #thoughts #accept #toomuchtohandle #hellopoetry107 #jumpedoff

Mar 2015

Luminosity Cat

Lies and Deceit

In a secret tomb, my ashes lay.
          It's ashes plea in disparity.

Buried miles deep, in false deceit.
          Suffocating, alive, in agony.

Given freely, my light is gone.
           I've lost myself to a blackened
           theif.

Mar 2015

i am miss brightside

Your Daily Dose of Lang Leav

I'm smiling --
but at the back of my mind...
Oh wait,
I don't have my own mind.
My sanity is replaced with lunacy.
Ecstatic.
Packs of delusional facades.
Illusions and charades.
Dreaming of nightmares within a daydream.

Detoriating senses.
Everything started to fall apart.
I am lost for words.
For you had taken my heart,
The day you walked that direction, opposite to what i'd took.
One final look.
Without any goodbye.
I started to cry.
And cry.
Until it drowned all that was left of me--
Your memories.

My world crumbles.
I cannot think of any word that would best describe this feeling..
These feelings..
But I cannot contain it. Not anymore.
I cannot escape.

So I will just fill these pages with--
Random letters..
Doodles.
Semantics.
Figures of speech.
Metaphors and similes.
Something only your heart could understand.

Because that heart was once mine.

I miss you.
And I don't have any idea why.
I don't know how to let this feeling pass.

#sorry #imissyou #langleav

Feb 2015

Parsavagely Kompenere

When I'm alone

When I'm alone,
Dissonant chords echo as I play,
Along to the blasting noise,
Of a meaningless song.

When I'm alone,
Pen and paper call my hand,
To spill my heart in ink,
Until I bleed dry.

When I'm alone,
The glint of sharp metal,
Captures my searching eyes,
Tempting me always.

When I'm alone,
Death seems kinder,
A new start perhaps?
A second chance.

But I'm not alone,
Not anymore.

#suicide #alone #selfharm #better