pea: Poems

pea May 2020

ignore
the marks, the stains
the pains
                                                pretend
i'm wiped clean
                                                               deleted
off the screen
                                                                       conceal
my insecurities
                                                                 erase
my disabilities
                                                                they hide
my possibilities

  i only want them to  see
the better side

of me.

Everything seems            out           of                         place.

                                                                 The tears   i cry

i now    disguise

     being told

“you are not alone,”

Doesn’t keep me

under control

have you got a clue?
                                                                what got you so blue?
how everyone else is perfect?
                                                                                                                                    unlike
you?

did anyone tell you that you're cute today? cuz you are!

#sad #love #cute #mystery #gold #tears #hidden

fractured

pea Aug 2020

fractured

when your heart shattered
it fell into my open palm

discarded

like the letter you wrote
over and over again
written past tense

with open notebooks and dried out pens
blinking cursor waiting

shards you left behind
embedded in my brain

when roses die
why do thorns remain?

dear reader, i hope you have a great day!

#poem #poetry #sad #rose #lost #loss #confused

google search

pea May 2021

google search

the cursor blinks
precariously on the doorstep
of the internet

she stares blankly at
the white screen
illuminating her face in
the darkness of the room the
only other light being
the faint glow of the moon in the
far window too blurry to be
wished.

when she was small she
was scared of the dark
scared of who was there
who was hiding

but she’s older
now so she should be braver because
only babies are scared of darkness

the cursor mocks her
in the search bar

she looks around as
if making sure no
one
is watching

as she reaches the
keys typing out her
sorrows
"who am i?"

the mouse wavers over
the magnifying glass

waiting to
open the rusty gate with
a key of curiosity

but the fog beyond
may darken the
the streets

and may poison
puddles
with the foul
smell of
uncertainty

she closes her eyes
and presses delete.

growing pains

pea Dec 2020

growing pains

people will leave and go
like how the sun rises and falls each day.
good things never last forever.

older, busier,
year after year,
no time for childish wonder
pulled down with the burden of responsibility.

it will soon trickle down to me.
what time do i have left?

when people i know start their journey,
will i want to stay?
will i be the same?

drenched in a place of nostalgia,
filled with bittersweet longing
and past friendships, rotting in time.

one day i will leave,
like my predecessors before me,
with a briefcase stuffed with memories.
which soon will be lost in the depths of time
within the twisting path
of life.
_

this is a poem about growing up
love you <3

#childhood #growing #sad #time

hidden~

pea May 2020

hidden~

my demons are hidden
in the deep trenches of my being
kept away, sometimes leaking
so if someone tries to reach for it
all they will do is
free
fall
into a bubbling puddle
filled with shadows
but then escape silently
never to be seen
again.

i hope everyone is doing okay!

#sad #quiet #love #poems #childhood #broken #sorry

mid-flight~

pea Aug 2020

mid-flight~

you take flight
high, in the sky,
above the clouds
toward the sun

the wings I wear
are broken, damaged,
weighed with despair

i search for the sun
but it’s only in vain
human adventures
with expiration dates

you took my hand
i felt finally free
when you let go,
i fell to the sea

not a fan of this title lol!
i hope everyone is doing well during these times

#flight #wings #tired #lost

Rain Dance~

pea Aug 2020

Rain Dance~

the clouds grow heavy
and now the rain falls softly
the animals dance

a haiku! the inspo was from another limerick i wrote when i was ten

#rain #dance #poem #poetry #simple #haiku #5

shouting at the storm

pea Feb 2021

shouting at the storm

talk till you’re hoarse
waiting the roof to crash down
in a room
of invisible people
who have moved onto something else.

i hope everyone is well

#sad #quiet #words #poem #poetry

unforgettable

pea Jul 2020

unforgettable

W hen the silence comes to haunt me,
H ere i am, lost.
Y ou promised.

C omplicated’ they say
A word to describe.
N obody trusted me as you did
‘T oday,not tomorrow’ you begged

I ’m waiting.

F or once, I wonder “is this
O ver?”
R ealizing my mistake, I
G uess I can’t listen to you
E ven your promises.
T oday, just another day..

Y oung and reckless, just like the
O ath you broke
U nlocked, I spill.

an acrostic poem <3
have a great day/night!
also not my best work :(

#acrostic #poems #poetry

untitled

pea Feb 2021

untitled

in a blink,
the clock hand whirls
a baby gains wrinkles and white hair
soon to leave the earth
leaving no traces behind,
like their ancestors before them
while plastic bags live on in landfills.

can any of you help me come up with a title?

#poem #poetry

unworthy

pea Jul 2020

unworthy

the sky falls short
almost
collapsing

time closes in
feeling
apathy

regret echos loudly
wanting
to forget

looking back
i should've
known

better.

not feeling well lately. not my best poem but still one i like.
please comment suggestions!
have a nice day! i love you <3

#poems #poetry

virus

pea Mar 2021

virus

It all started in March with
the people on television claiming
that it will be back to
normal in three months but
now it’s here for
it’s first birthday as I watch in
horror as the death toll rises from
nearly zero to half a million and the
stupid curve never deflating i’m
sick and tired of people being sick and
tired and “forgetting” that humans are
dying as if it's okay to go out just because
you’re some kind of ******* celebrity why
can’t you understand that the
world doesn’t
revolve around you i
stand helpless while
corporations boast that we’re “all
in this together” when we’re
not because unlike me you can
make a difference but yet you
sit on a throne made of
cash while essential workers struggle to
breathe their mask digging into their
skin tears dripping onto seagreen scrubs
i’m starting to
think that the real
virus is
you.

i hope everyone is okay

#corona #sad #pandemic

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