One thing parents will never understand is that their kids are addicted to something that takes away the pain.

The pain they can't see

In your weary eyes
In your fake smiles
In your short laughs
In your zoneouts
In your small talks
In your disappearing voice
In your hangovers
In your sleepless nights
In your laziness
In your losing appetite
In your silence

Some days I just want to get lost
Some days I just want to be found
Some days I just want to die
Some days I just want to live a life

A life not wanting to get lost
A life no need to be found
A life not wanting to die
A life to live and is mine

Mine like my choices, my dreams
Mine like my beers, my cheers
Mine like my will, my hope
Mine like my heart, my soul

But my heart is tired
And my soul is lost
I guess I need to be found
Because I want to live

You always say I'm the only one
In your heart I'm the only one
In your life I'm the only one
But we both know I'm not the only one

Every time i see the picture of you two
My heart aches and breaks into two
You even had to choose between us two
I can't believe all your words are for two

Oh my god please stop lying
straight to my face darling
Tonight I might forget and forgive you
But tomorrow I'll regret it for sure you know

Oh my god i'm tired of your *******
with your lame excuses and lies i'm so sick
You're only sorry you got caught
You would change, for once i thought

Oh my god my heart hurts so bad
And I know for the next days i will be so sad
So painful when you already gave everything
Just to receive in return -nothing

Oh my god I can't do this anymore
From him, I didn't ask for more and more and more
I don't understand why it happened to me
Maybe we're just not meant to be

You said I'm pretty and cute
Especially when I smile
You said I'm **** and hot
Especially when I laugh
But you said it all
Especially to her

You said you love the way I talk
Especially about how my day gone by
You said you love the way I walk
Especially when I'm in a hurry
But you said it all
Especially to her

You said I have beautiful eyes
Especially when I just woke up
You said I have beautiful nose
Especially after when I sneeze
But you said it all
Especially to her

You said I have a wonderful future
Especially you on it
You said I have a perfect man
Especially on my wedding
But you said it all
Especially to her

From that simple hi
to we both get high
Everything's so fast
I wonder if it will last

I knew right then
I found the one
Who'll break my heart
And leave me in the dark

Yes, I write bad poems when I'm sad
I prefer silence to comfort me
Yes, I write bad poems when I'm mad
I prefer my own words to scream it out

Yes, I write bad poems when I'm happy
I prefer solitary than fake company
Yes, I write bad poems when I'm excited
I prefer obscure of the thrill

Yes, I write bad poems when I'm stressed
I prefer words to heal me than pills
Yes, I write bad poems when I'm tired
I prefer sleepless night than a bad dream

Yes, I write bad poems when I'm depressed
I prefer assurance than un-followed advises
Yes, I write bad poems
I prefer silence in this world that will never stop talking

When you love someone
you gotta learn to let them go
But life taught me was
to hold on to what you love

And I love you
I'm not gonna let go
It's not life without you
I'll hold on to us
to all the promises
us against the world

been so happy lately
i cant define sadness anymore
everything now is lovely
i couldn't even ask for more

afraid it will end soon
afraid you will leave me too
but we're always under the same moon
but i'll stay if you ask me to

why
it felt so sad suddenly
thinking you gone
out of my sight
out of my life
but i'm not the one who beg
for love
for someone to stay
for my life has no direction
i'll die any time
if i want it to

maybe its just me
and my dreams
that makes me happy for a little while
and my pain
that will ruin me soon
save me

When you cant find yourself anymore
you write poem and be lost with your own words
words you dont even know would come out
poem you dont even know how would end

Being lost with your own words
you feel some sort of happiness
knowing the poem is yours
and no one can take it away from you

I can't write a poem
because of you

my eyes are blurry
i can't start to think
again, sweetie
my life's about to sink

my thoughts are running wild
i wonder why you lie
again, sweetie
my love's about to die

Can we start all over again?
When the sun shines brighter
And the moon lights wider
Then the stars twinkles lighter

Can we forget and forgive?
When the wind blows away the sin
And the rain washes away the pain
Then the snow freezes the time

Can we continue to live?
When there are warm weekends
And cold wednesday nights
Then breezy afternoon breaks

Can we, please?
When the storm stops lightning
And the thunder sings peacefully
Then the sky goes crystal clear