If I could be anything,


I'd be yours.


*Every **** time.

You promised
f o r e v e r ,




                                 *Your definition of              
                                   forever was a lot
                                   shorter than mine.

A year ago today,
We were laughing when we kissed.
Now it's like we're strangers,
& I don't exsist.

I see you in everything.
You're everywhere I go.
Reminding me that some things,
are better if you just don't know.

And now I'm scared.
Because I wish it was a year ago..
You just turned the other cheek,
When Cupid shot his bow.

(c.r.)

You've consumed my thoughts for so long I don't remember how to think without seeing your face.

I've been laying in my bed for quite some time now, and as usual I've been thinking. But this time it's different. It's not the happy thinking you'd think I was thinking. But it's the dark thinking that follows me like a shadow. I would never tell you this.
Just like I'd never tell you how I think about the nights we've spent together. Or that I'd never tell you I can't go to those restaurants anymore without seeing you there. How the park isn't a park anymore. How I can't even lay in my bed without thinking of the cuddles and hours we spent talking on it. But I'd never tell you that.
I'll never tell you how much I regret everything. I'll never tell you how I pull up a message to you, but I can't find any words to say so I just cancel it. If you ever text me I'll pretend to be happy, not to hurt you, but to help you move on. If you ever asked me how my day went, they're always slow and dead. I sleep a majority of the time an when I'm not sleeping I'm thinking of what we used to be and I'm crying. But I'd never tell you that, "I'm fine," I'd say. And it would break my f*cking heart to watch you walk away, but I'm the bad guy. So I'd never tell you that.

You Broke
Everything
I Was ,






                                            Why Do
                                             I Still
                                             Want You?

I remember how I felt when I first looked into your eyes,
my god I couldn't ******* breathe.
I remember when I first saw you as you were walking up to my truck,
my god you were so ******* beautiful.
I remember the butterflies in my stomach when you grabbed my hand,
my god I was so ******* nervous.
I remember how I couldn't stop smiling when we first kissed,
my god you put the ******* sun to shame.
I remember when you told me it was over,
my god I felt like ******* death.
I remember the butterflies stopped flying when I saw you for the last time,
my god you were still so ******* beautiful.