You are the
        window
              to my pain
  Cloudy with
            no chance of clarity
      I can see
               how far
away you are
                    Out of focus,
           still hurting me
                      *so easily

I whispered a thousand secrets
to your eyelids
while you slept last night

and as the fire rose over the hill,
shining into our window,
it left your face glowing

I gazed upon your perfection
without you ever knowing
how much I adore you

and when your eyelids finally opened,
you saw me staring,
and you smiled

but I lied and said
I'd only just woken up

hopefully your eyelids
don't tell you my secrets

hopefully they won't tell you
how much you mean to me

it still
       hurts but
                   it doesn't
                               **** me
                                         anymore.

You try to talk me out of it
But I am what I want to be
You can't change my colours
They are a part of me