I thought I could handle this.
But I can't.
And I'm sorry.
I'm weak.
And already too broken.
I can't do this.
I don't have the energy.
I thought that I could.
And I'm sorry.
For being wrong.
For lying to you.
For lying to myself.
For not being strong enough.
I just don't have what it takes to do this.

I just don't understand what's going on,
I have no clue what I am to you.
Am I more now?
Am I less?
Has nothing changed at all?
I'm not a fan of ambiguity;
Especially in friends.
And I thought that we were more.
But this unknown state of being
Is tearing me apart.
So if you meant to say
That when you come back
You'll be coming back for me-
You should say it sooner.
Because if you wait 'til later
I might already be gone.

Seven years down the drain
All because I've sat here waiting.
But now the seven years are up
And a miracle has happened.
But that miracle I wished for
All those seven years ago,
Was wished for in a time and place
So very different from this world.
So now I'm stuck here incredibly upset,
Hoping that somehow you can fit
Into this life of mine I've made.

They burn in my bones.
They course through my veins.
They eat at my stomach.

Each and every one of my fears.

This is my life now,
All shrouded in panic.
Picking away at what sanity is left.

Muddling my brain.
Sharpening my reactions.
Piercing through my eyes.

Each and every one of my fears.

My world is nothing
Except a whole lot of confusion,
As to why the world isn't collapsed.

Silly little girl,
Stupid to strive for strength
Of sheer willed men.
Sorry for the senselessness.
Of all the stupidity served her own way.
Scared of loving when scarcely a soul does bother
To sense her own sadness.
Nothing to do with skill or savvy.
Just skepticism and her own stained heart.

Our generation's newspaper
Is Facebook
And today's headline
Left me wanting to puke, cry,
And scream to the high heavens.

Six months I said I didn't care.
For six months I knew I was lying.
Today was the day that I dreaded,
Today is the day you moved on.

"Is in a relationship"
With 32 likes and a cutesy comment.
Makes feel want to #Oops
As you disappear from my life
Forever.

My love is like a star
It's there burning bright for so long that you take it for-granted
And when it's close to its end
It gives one last giant burst with all the energy that's left
And then it's gone forever