I put on another dress
I apply another coat of blush
I curl my hair perfectly
     I look like a dream

I take another pill
I pour another glass
I pull out a razor
     I hurt like a nightmare

I tell another joke
I give another kiss
I smile till I forget
     I fake like an actor

you gave me a prince
then told him i wasn't his princess

you gave me a knight
then told him i wasn't worth the war

you gave me a savior
then you told him i wasn't worth saving

i loved him
i loved him even though i was too young to know what love was
i loved him
and you took him from me

Some days I can't stop thinking about you and some days I wonder why I start.
{bcg}

I still can't sleep at night because you wander across my eyelids,
but you'll never know.

"I'm not leaving", you comforted me.
"I'll always want to talk"
"It'll be different," I insisted
"You'll be busy with a life that doesn't include me
And I'll have to learn to live without"

The nights we stayed up talking
Four thousand miles away
The nights I kept the scraps you left so close
Until the night became day
The nights you told your secrets
And I told you my fears
The nights I felt so safe
After all of my painful years

Those nights changed me
Despite the hurt and the cursing
Those nights saved me
From the horrible mornings

What if...

I lose the memory of the first time we kissed?
I can't retrieve the image of you crossing the room to me?
I forget the way your hands felt holding my face?
I can't remember the shirt you were wearing or the way you smelled?

I lose you?


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Would I lose myself?