Ami Shae

Jun 2015

SøułSurvivør

classic

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i will hear
a classic piece
that my soul may rest
music soothes
the savage beast
which writhes
within my breast

the light begins
with violins
a lovely harpsichord
then came in
some flute!
woodwinds!
a winsome building chord!

finding my direction
back to a place that's fair
finding my connection
to a friend
who's there

finding my companion
in a friend who's free
music is the bastion

AND ALWAYS WILL BE

soulsurvivor
(c) 6/17/2015

Going to go listen to music
That always cheers me up!

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#depression #music #soothing #cure #classical

Ami Shae Jun 2015

Options

I wanted to crawl back underneath the bed
and hide my aching swollen head
never allow the light to find my eyes
just lay here forever til I die
and forget that I have a life waiting for me
cause this pain is just too brutal -- it's all I can see...

BUT!

hiding from the pain underneath the bed
is not an option, so what I'll do instead
is get my *** up off this cold hard floor
and put my clothes on, walk out that door
and make the best of this so called new day
and hope that I can at least smile along my way...

some days it's just hard to get moving and face the fact that I have to be a part of the real world...oh well...here I go...

#sad #hide #pain #bed #options #brutal

Ami Shae Jun 2015

just a wish

upon this land I travel along
wondering who it is
that will hear my song--
I have to sing always, you see
because without song
there is no life within me
and when music
surrounds my heart and soul
there is no where that
I am afraid to go.

oh how I

wish so that someone could be
as in love with song as I
(as I go floating on notes of melodies
while passing by)
and then find that their love for song
brings them to know (and see)
that they are just as in love
with me...

#love #life #song #wishing #melodies

Jun 2015

Perri

almost

people love to come into my life,
and dangle themselves in front of me
so close,
that I can feel their warmth
and hear their breath
so I can smell their scent
and see their beauty
and just as I am about to reach out
to embrace their presence,
they yank themselves up and out of my life
leaving me confused and hopeless,
until the next one finds me

#love #sad #lonely #depressed #almost #oneday

Ami Shae Jun 2015

I Ran

I couldn't help it.
I saw the open door
saw you were asleep
grabbed my clothes
from off the floor
and tried hard not
to weep
as I took my leave
trying so hard
not to look back
at you there
wondering why
I should even care--
but knowing the truth
will always follow me--
I cannot love you
or care or stay ever--
I have to be free.
So I hurriedly dressed
and quietly took my leave
and I ran,
yes, I ran
and left you to grieve
and wonder why--
but better to have you wondering
than you having to watch
as I slowly die...

#truth #sad #pain #tears #cry #leave #free #hurts #ran

Ami Shae Jun 2015

Nothing Ever Stays

If upon awakening
you happen to call out my name
and get no answer
it's because
Nothing,
Absolutely Nothing
ever stays the same...

#sad #alone #nothing #same