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3.4k · Apr 2021
weirdo
fariha Apr 2021
calling me ****** was her love language,
that would never resonate through my ears again.
1.7k · Apr 2021
Beautiful wreck
fariha Apr 2021
her lips are red;
but overflowing,
barcodes on her wrists;
to scan self worth,
her hair is no longer long
nor smooth,
these purples and blues on her back;
has been a map of memories,
those crimson red nails
suits her the most,
that smile on her red lips,
oh so beautiful,
oh a beautiful wreck.
please do seek help if you are in a abusive state.you are strong.very strong.
990 · Jan 2022
silver soul
fariha Jan 2022
in the midst of sadness,
I found solace,
and a truest companion,
that shall remind me,
not to remain,
in the abyss,
and not to remain,
insane.
798 · Jul 2021
smile for me
fariha Jul 2021
I will be the one who lit up our thread
by making a blazing flame
that you could not even
water with tears
746 · Jan 2021
glaring contest
fariha Jan 2021
found myself a beautiful mannequin,
i glared at her as if my eyes are about to pop,
luckily i won!
but;
mom said i am crazy,
maybe that's why she got killed,
by a loser.
732 · Jan 2021
Perfect
fariha Jan 2021
Brightest smile i seek,
Blue eyes i plead,
Beautiful lips i adore,
Im nor in of those,
Because;
You are the perfect one of them all.
726 · Aug 2021
Ambivalence
fariha Aug 2021
graze my pain like the shard,
because you said it was not that hard,
to die and seek bliss,
in your arms I have found peace.
673 · Mar 2021
Broken
fariha Mar 2021
in the silence,
i can hear something is shattering,
but it’s not the glass,
from the table,
nor from the kitchen,
what is it?
its turning into dust and debris,
all over the place,
but blinded by eyes,
and silence at mouths.
653 · Jan 2021
hope
fariha Jan 2021
my very existence excites you the most,
could not be shaken until the time finally arrives,
my very existence kills you the most,
could not be forgiven until the time finally ends,
i am indeed,
hope.
the excitement and the disappointment when it comes to expectations because you hope for something even if its trivial.
628 · Jun 2023
Untitled
fariha Jun 2023
by the time you feel regret,
your cries has no meaning,
and your victories will gain nothing.
625 · Jan 2021
Innocent
fariha Jan 2021
I  gasped,
As if you are taking my breathe away,
In the depth of heat,
I lost my mind,
As if;
My sanity were melting away,
along with my purity.
586 · Apr 2021
Beautiful revenge
fariha Apr 2021
im sorry mom,
but;
i would like to see,
the terror in your eyes,
when i break that smile,
just the way you did to mine,
from years ago.
548 · Jun 2023
Untitled
fariha Jun 2023
"I like your eyes",
I know in fact he did not,
because deep in my brown iris,
all he could see is himself,
and he likes it,
so much.
503 · Jun 2023
A woman’s love
fariha Jun 2023
in my next life,
i want to be a man,
not because i have more benefits in patriarchal social,
maybe that’s one thing,
but no;
i simply want to experience being loved by women as a man,
because that is the real privilege.
481 · Aug 2021
hidden cause
fariha Aug 2021
and if tears is not enough to hide your pain,
maybe the stars that's hiding between your sleeves,
will do.
480 · Jun 2023
a silent journey
fariha Jun 2023
i don’t care if I lost myself,
for you to search yourself;



but i do owe an apology,
do i?
fariha Aug 2021
"some things are better left unsaid,
like the way you were hurting me,
and the way you look into my eyes everyday,
as if i'm going to disappear."

some things are better left unsaid,
like hurting her was my biggest regret,
and her gleaming eyes that kept me sane everyday,
as if you are going to leave me.

some things are better left unsaid,
like our unsent letters,
and the way your actions affect my daily life,
as if we are not going to last.

some things are better left unsaid,
like our tragic love story,
where you disappear,
without saying goodbye to me nor to the world.

and some things are better left unsaid,
like how you were my only last string.
456 · Jun 2022
Perfect relationship
fariha Jun 2022
maybe it was the idea,
of two people falling in love,
that keeps me sane,
or maybe it was just my imagination,
that we are already perfect,
holding each other’s pillar,
not to fall,
when I literally don’t have the image of the other person,
all these maybes and ifs,
stuck upon my sanity.
441 · Jan 2023
Replacement
fariha Jan 2023
I look into your eyes,
and I see myself,
once more,
I look into your eyes,
and I see her.
432 · Aug 2021
Alas
fariha Aug 2021
Oh, look I am doomed!
standing in front someone whom I used to call my Moon,
I'm wondering if this is true?
that you used to love me like you never do.
The relationship you tried to keep is already meaningless if your ex partner said I love you after breaking up.
422 · Jun 2023
derealization
fariha Jun 2023
now, i’m one with the wind
because im no longer a person.
396 · Dec 2021
everything means nothing.
fariha Dec 2021
some people have everything,
some people want to be everything,
and some people want to be anything,
even though they feel nothing,
and some people have everything,
to use it to be everything,
and lead them onto a foolish act of nothing.
395 · Mar 2021
COLOURS
fariha Mar 2021
your soul is like the day clouds
white and pure,
your smile resembles yellow,
so happy and warm,
your hazel eyes stunned me,
and that red lips of yours is irresistible,
but why the colours changing?
it seems hazy and darker than before,
you turned into grey,
and;
left me in pitch black.
fariha Apr 22
if you are going to love me,
love me all, even when i break,
love me all, even when there are things left unsaid,
love me all, even when words is stuck between the throat to speak,
love me all, even when body is left in the cold being weak,
love me all, even when i cannot stand hypocrisy for you to plead,
love me all, even when i give myself in to my own defeat,
love me all;
even when you never said “i love you” which i refuse to believed.
354 · Mar 2022
sunshine
fariha Mar 2022
by day,
the sun lost its shine,
it will be the day,
the moon took over,
to fight against the void,
of darkness,
along with the dead stars.
335 · Jun 2023
realisation
fariha Jun 2023
only today,
i have come to realise,
that only love;
can heal and break people.
322 · Oct 2020
epithymia
fariha Oct 2020
As your breath crawled on my skin,
while embraced by your warmth,
i stumbled upon your words and whispers,
that shook my mind,
alleviated a year long headache,
entraced my misery away,
whispers and phrases,
brought me to seventh gate of heaven,
making an inclination of desiring more,
i wonder if this is the reality that i've been longing for?
as i muttered on my words,
i realised,
this is the hell of a dream.
318 · Jun 2023
I shut myself
fariha Jun 2023
“why dont you ever give us your opinion?”
opinions? MY opinions?
why would I even bother?
when my voice wont even resonate through your ears,
and my words wont even be enough to reach your brain,
including your eyes,
your eyes were looking through mine,
though in fact you’re not digesting my words, but yours.
317 · Jun 2023
delusion
fariha Jun 2023
small gesture and a brief conversation could mean nothing to me,
but to you?
it’s different-
it is big enough,
big enough to make you think,
that the truly small gesture was simply meant for you,
when it’s just how a normal human being act,
out of kindness to everyone else,
but you take it the wrong way,
because you.are.so.into.them,
absolutely in love with them,
or in my words,
you are absolutely deluding yourself.
300 · Mar 2021
Sail
fariha Mar 2021
let this haunting memories,
sails along my tainted soul,
because i could no longer steer,
in my own island.
275 · May 2022
writing slump
fariha May 2022
i think i’m going to take a break,
from writing,
as if i’ve been writing for too long,

well,
until i fall in love again with writing,
i will keep writing,
as if my pen won't run out of ink,
and my fingers won't stop typing.

welcome aboard,
a tough ride of a slump!
270 · Jun 2023
A mother’s daughter
fariha Jun 2023
she screamed my name so loud,
never once i felt my world crumbled,
i don’t know whether it’s terror or anger that i felt,
because in that eyes,
i can clearly see,
that her hate is bigger than love,
that her hate is louder than her voice,
just because I simply was late to her calling.
270 · Oct 2021
Untitled
fariha Oct 2021
and your problems,
is not my responsibility,
yet I found myself miserable in fatigue,
when you skips your meals,
while you're laughing at your phone.
269 · Jun 2023
letter to friends
fariha Jun 2023
if you are to be at my funeral,
don’t forget to throw,
any flowers you know,
so;
at least my mom will realise that i’ve lived a good life with people.
267 · Aug 2022
Father.
fariha Aug 2022
oh, my dear child,
do not cry,
do not whimper,
do not even flinch
fret not the fire isn't coming,
fret not,
the earth is still revolving,
fret not,
your father will die one day.
A note from a mother who has always been protecting her children from the abusive father

side note; if you're in an abusive relationship do seek help, remember if people are against you, I'll be the one who is standing besides you.
251 · Mar 2021
Man In The Head
fariha Mar 2021
He’s calling me,
anywhere at any time,
in the broad daylight,
or in the darkest night,
where i should see the stars,
shining darker than what i've seen,
flowing with elegance,
making sound like no other,
he’s laughing at me,
saying “you’ve lost”.
241 · Jun 2023
lost
fariha Jun 2023
everything starts to have meaning,
when it’s already gone.
237 · Jan 2022
In another world,maybe.
fariha Jan 2022
I love you so much,
to the point it hurts,
but;
we are the same.
231 · May 2021
confused
fariha May 2021
graze my pain,
like the ice making you bleed,
and if love was truly sacred,
why’d i always found peace,
in your arms.
224 · Jul 2021
Beautiful chaos
fariha Jul 2021
In the amidst of fears and tears,
im walking solely towards unknown abyss,
sudden,i profound something beautiful,
nothing,but;
a walking beautiful chaos.
the persona fell in love at the first sight but the persona knew that this person would crush the persona's heart no matter what it takes because this person is like a walking red flag.
220 · Oct 2022
Mom
fariha Oct 2022
Mom
because i know
sometimes she sits
on the bed
crying and regretting

the choices she wish
she never made
at a ripe age.
212 · Jan 2022
I (will) do well
fariha Jan 2022
I cannot die but I'm not living either,
but mom;
tell me,
if I do well today,
am I going to live tomorrow?
201 · Mar 2021
heaven in hiding
fariha Mar 2021
I was his heaven,
But;
He was my hell,
I tried to escape,
But i wish for everything just to be with him,
I'm confused but also I'm in love,
But;
You are my hell,
I'm too tired to go through heaven,
Because I know I'll end up in hell.
201 · Sep 2021
Help
fariha Sep 2021
try and try and try!
to help them,
until you yourself fall down,
into the pit of hell.
remember,how much you tried to help someone,if they dont help themselves it’ll just worn you out over time.
201 · Nov 2021
Belief
fariha Nov 2021
"I like men",
is what I want my mom to believe,
"I already forget about her",
is what I want to believe,

sincerely,
her.
193 · Aug 2021
a broken cycle
fariha Aug 2021
fix,
repair,
repeat,
these broken pieces,
that could no longer fit.
191 · Jun 2023
in another life
fariha Jun 2023
in another life,
i hope to reincarnate,
as my mother’s mother,
so every day i can tell her,
how pretty she is,
how hardworking she is,
pat her back,
wipe her tears when she is sad,
tell her “it’s alright”,
listen to her stories,
and sing her bedtime lullabies,
because i know it is her first time becoming a mother.
186 · Mar 2021
Canvas
fariha Mar 2021
if life is a canvas,
why'd you paint it black?
183 · Mar 2021
Canvas II
fariha Mar 2021
painted it black,
with elegance,
resembles as my pain flowing,
through out the whole canvas,
overflowing but still beautiful,
painted it black,
with modesty,
resembles as the trauma speaks,
louder than my mouth,
out of place but still intact.
there's two of Canvas,read the first one thanks!
180 · Jan 2021
Dream.
fariha Jan 2021
I dreamt a wonderful dream,
So wonderful I wish not to wake up
But how do I know;
If I'm awake or still asleep?
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