The feelings are both happy and sad
So I am writing again on my pad
Those things that were colossally bad
How I wish I was that rad

He just cheated on me
It was too late to see
So I went to the sea
To think and have a cup of tea

I didn't say anything
but my heart wanted to sing
the promise of a ring
and the moments it bring

"It's the end", I said.
"Please, stay" He led.
"It's getting dark. I wanna follow you but I won't. I'll be safe here. You broke me yet in the end, heart reigned." Words that I should have left unsaid.
He implausibly said "All I can do is cry on my bed"

It's twelve in the morning,
these thoughts don't have enough space
It screams for a peaceful life
yet craves for endless ideas
I'm not crazy, I am just aware
That people will leave
when they are tired of you
Believe me,
they can and they will.

Long time ago,
I told myself that I should love with all my heart,
to the moon and back,
from the bottom of my hypothalamus
'cause that's what love is, right.
You give it all.

But that was before.
Now, I've learned things in the hard way.
You should think first,
before getting into serious relationships because if not,
you'll lose in the end.

But if you want to leave, then go
'cause I won't beg for you to stay
Because if you love me, you will

Let's skip the bad memories;
Let's keep the good ones
For it would illumine not only our lives
but also our way of thinking

Let's forget the people who broke our hearts;
Let's remember the people who took good care of it
For it would illumine not only our lives
but also our way of loving

Let's forgive the people who left;
Let's treasure the people who stayed
For it would illumine not only our lives
but also our way of searching

I wonder
I wonder why
I wonder why I feel at ease

I wonder again

I wonder  what
*
I wonder what’s with you

I wonder, cause I can't help it
I wonder *how
I wonder how feelings escalated this fast

I wonder with all of these adverbs but I've got no answer. And then, I find myself asking
"Are you the one or are you the next to break my heart?"

I fell asleep, you're in my mind
I dreamed of you, you were the one that I love
I woke up with a smile, thought it was so right
It was just a dream but **** got real

Can't live, can't breathe without you
What was I supposed to do?
Can't smile, can't laugh without you
Do you feel the same way too?

I really hate you,
I swear, you're gonna be the last person in my life
I just want to punch you, really hard
'cause the bad memories are all that I'm thinking about
It's good to hear,
that this will be the end of us.

It's two in the morning
and I've tried to ask myself
"what keeps you awake?"
I didn't know the answer,
Yet I can feel it,
the heart of a poet,
it flows in my blood
it makes my soul alive

These words, These words
It should be kept deep in my heart
Yet a poet, screams everything
Through these words, these words
Nobody's going to understand
But if you have the heart of a poet,
Sure enough, you will.

These are the days that I want to give up.
For all the painful words, broken promises and broken dreams.

These are the days that I want to disappear.
For all the sadness, challenges and unending thoughts.

These are the days that I've lost myself.

I wondered,
was it really that easy to forget 'bout me?
Could you just explain or tell,
why it had to end this way?
It tragically pained me,
are you happy now?
I loved you whole-heartedly,
*how could you?

My heart's as heavy as the night,
Feels bad in every fight
All I want for us is to stay tight
I don't wanna be out of your sight

Emotions of me that were kept in a box
I can still feel the pain and it *****
I tried to do my best but I guess
My kind of best wasn't your kind of best

Do you ever feel like you're not good enough and never will be?*

Yes, The people around me
They never fail to make me feel so worthless
It's like "I'm trying to be good, I've done all the things you want me to do. What else?"
At times, all I want is to disappear
Maybe. Just maybe,
In their eyes, they'll start to appreciate me.