we were poor
but not deluded

and when
van morrisson's
"brown eyed girl"
comes on the radio on
that worn
old
brown rug
my brother and I
started tapping our feet
shaking our heads
to the music and
our sisters are smiling
at us and
our mother is laughing
at us

and all we needed was
laughter and love
a prayer and a song

turn up the radio

I wonder , what would had happen?
If I would had gotten everything right.
With completely obeying God in everything.
I wonder, what would had happen ?
If I would had follow that beautiful Lady?
All the way to where she was going in Cali.
When I was but a mere 22 years old back then.
I wonder , why God has allow me to be like this.
To place awesome challenges that would help others.
Then at the last minute fail him and them as well.
By running away which was what I had always done.
Now that I have finally set down roots here in Maryland

Sing your beautiful
lullaby to me
drizzled with your
silver drops

I cry with you
we dance
the dance
of aching souls

The autumn winds roar like
my inner goddess does for you.
Although the leaves change, love,
I promise that I never do!


C.S.