I never believed in demons
Invisible or otherwise
Not the kind straight out of hell
Plaguing humankind

I would never perceive
Superstitiously
What I've seen in human eyes
Where evil dwells
By chance or spell
**** or stay alive

I'm not an atheist, nor theist
The absolute cannot be known
But I've seen such evil, behind eyes
   Everywhere I've roamed...
........

Surviving in a prison cell
I learn to stand behind myself
Witnessing this hell I dream

We sleep in comfort
As we slumber away our existence
Being a true master takes persistence
Hell I can fall back to sleep in an instant

Aesthetic displays
I get lost in the days
This dream is but a life
The con from beyond
Keeps me going strong
No matter wrong or right
..............................

Well it's kind of like Dracula
You know... no longer a big deal
There's just too many flat spots
No longer a wheel

It all measures the same
My burning love has no flame
My care wanders far
Beneath fallen stars

Yet actually my love grows
But only god need know
The faces that we wear
To rise above life’s despair!

Cliffs of rocky words crumble into
landslides of incomplete sentences
I climb your ill frigid mountain
of self-righteous commitments
Gathering suppressed memories
I reach the summit of your greed
There the air is far too thin to breathe

The fear of your heights paralyzing
The cold of your winter realizing
I see my breath as the frostbite starts
Your avalanche of resentments fills my heart
Breaking my spirit, arresting my soul
'Til all that's left is you, the model I role

A footing unfit for vindication
A biography unfit for syndication
I froze in your tundra so many years ago
Until at last, like you I am the snow
I lost myself zeroes below...

This is not a poem
Oh how I wish it was!
I wish it could make you cry
I wish it could make you blush
Oh how I wish I could express my need for love

But this is not a poem
I'm just a writer
Alone
.....

I crave the creative flow
Entranced within the zone
The imagination flying free
Beyond timeless space
I shall attempt to convey
These sensations I breath

At speeds where
Time stands still in humility
My thoughts explore
The far regions of all possibilities

A dominant gene
Set in motion
The passionate drive
A need to decipher
These hidden pathways
Within my own  mind

And within that moment
When the chemistry reacts
I'll enter enlightenment
And never come back...

Are we blessed
Or are we ******
All this beauty
And suffering

One seems less
The other extreme
One is so real
It chokes out your dreams

Yet clinging to life
Takes more then it seems
It's like gasping for air
And trying to scream

Ya, it's not that bad
For everyone...
I guess we're all blessed
When it's all said and done
..................................................

Behind the clocks
Ticktock, ticktock
An immortal
Spirit dwells
No flesh that sags
Nor slowly rots
No meat on
His bones
To tell
Temporal
Disturbance
Fatigue sets in
As we scrape
The bottom of mind
Post it on your page
And now you're all in
Cursed to be
One of his kind
....

I travelled the Mediterranean coast
when I was young
Such a beautiful landscape
Carefully carved from stone
Castles and cathedrals
Extravagantly designed
The marriage of man and divinity
In a Jubilee ancient time

Unfortunately
The ghost of my ethnicity
No long prevails
If there’s no forest or rivers
I call that hell
I’ll take the winter
I’ll wait for the season to change
Find me not in any city
Nor any kind of desert terrain

Out here is where I’ll stay!

In the reckoning of abandon
The restless heart bleeds out
Surely you felt this pain before
Get a hold of yourself!

The matter of loss you witnessed
Now bury it down deep in silence
When life deals you lemons
Try not not to be so ****** violent

But mostly
We need you to learn
Not to be so **** concerned
Just close you heart and be on your way
   And please don't question the way we cave...

In the reckoning of abandon
The restless heart bleeds out
The truth is we learn
To keep it to ourselves
...

I realize the ketchup
Is not where it belongs
And while the tooth picks
You counted are pretty much Gone
Relax my friends
HP will carry on
...

The gift of logic
Shall dictate
The mighty
Shall see
The wise
Shall rise
All in the name
Of reason
And humanistic pride
...

There was a mad person
We all gathered round
Quite the sensation
This strange passion
We found

No ties to morality
Could flag our attention
Those of a studied mind
Also suffered this condition

I've sat there next to killers
Staring at a thief
Pointing bloodstained fingers
Those **** solutions of the elite

Mob mentality
An anomaly that blinds nations
Social conditioning
Media manipulation

No worry
It happens to the best of us
But now it's time to look within
The world will always be in need
Of any love that we can send...

Living deep
Out in my forest
In an attempt
To close my mind
It fail upon
A dark October
In a better
  Vanished time...
When we were young
And life was bolder
I never thought
We'd get older
While recklessly
We lived as if we
  Could never die...
In drones of silence
The heart beats on
Slowly now
As I write my songs
And here I play another solo
   As I turn to face the night...

A wise man
Once tried to teach me
If all else seems to fail
Listen to the universe
The wisdom that it tells
The voices within
The white noise
Unfolding like a spell
The vibration illuminates
The reasons for your hell
Open up your spirit's eye
See what can't be seen
This is only temporary
All this suffering
........

Extremism
Is just another dead end
Believe me
There's no place I haven't been
Simply put
Curiosity is the itch to know
To feel, to dream, to grow
Still
Dread can appear as a illogical intrusion
When based on a incomplete resolution
And so...
Not even contemplation
Before conclusion
Can guarantee absolution

On this side of the maze
   I get lost for days...

An abundance of life
In a cycle of death
How much living
Could we have left?

An abundance of stars
Displayed in the sky
Endless pleasures
On a summer's night
Hear and see
Touch and feel
The reality of existence
Consume at will

An abundance of love
To plant in our graves
Pushing up daisies
I wish we could stay
......

To think about it
I have seen the whole thing
Hell, I've seen it come
Into this world
And I seen it leave
I seen the passion
That every breath breaths
In the face of cold reality

And here in the middle
I've been beneath
I held on to heart ache
Been kicked in the teeth
But tomorrow is here
At the end of the road
Now, I'll do some living
With this heart of gold
...

I am blind to the future
I have lost foresight...
I've been running
From my past
Like a coward
From a fight...
I have so little left
I've lost most all...
A voices inside
For tell my fall...
The end grows nearer
As the poison sets in...
  Imagine hate
That never mends
 Still I must forgive
      How and when ever I can.........

Long lost
The normal
Human role
The hope of your return
Digs an even deeper
Empty hole

Where I direct
This love
I saved for you
like fallen shards
Into an endless pool...

And when my mind
Is finally gone
No recall
Of what went wrong
Memories blurred
No longer cursed
Judged and blessed
Of all my worth

I will set quietly
In happy thoughts
Awaiting the stages
Where death is lost
Where you and I
Shall meet again
Hearts in minds
Behind our pens

No need to believe
In promises made
Entropy is
An eternal phase
.............

I'm much more complex
Then your perception of me
I once was a sailor
In a corrupt Navy
I once was a drunker
I once was a thief
I once had to run
From the local police
I fell in love
Well maybe twice
My heart is missing
More then one slice
I wish I had
More love in my life
Yet I've been assured
Everything is alright
.....

(Today in world news)

All those people in the streets
coming together as one!
There must be a million of them expressing their rights and doing their duty as citizens.
America will always be separated. That’s the way they keep that from happening here.

(USA)
Change is a coming
And it don't look good
Flooding , hurricanes
Burning neighborhoods

Ice melting
And flowing this way
They're seeding the clouds
With vapors and rays

The water is undrinkable
Where I grew up
I'm quite sure
Our government
Is quite corrupt
The people of Flint
Are standing in lines
For hours and hours at times
To get clean water
Cause there's lead
And death
In the city water lines

Imagine that
Right here in the U.S.
A third world design
.....

If I were the monster
Under your bed
Restlessly awaiting
Your attempt at rest
I would insist
Your fears be met
Silently plotting
To make your sheets wet

As chill bumps climb
Down your **** spine
I'd sense you were one
Of the sleepy kind
As short hair *****
On the small of your neck
Let go and just connect
You're feeling fearfully fine
My claws rip into your dreams
Heavenly Hell's ecstasy
Is what you'll scream
If you make your monster me!

Do you know
How to fight
Go lay down
Or set it right

Prison *****
Or make a stand
You better know
Who I am

When
Negative energy
Strikes again
Misery
Is not my friend
I will break
Before I bend
I will break
Before I bend...

Pain grounds me to reality
I can feel it while watching TV
Pokes and prods
Will you please
Figure out
  What's ill'in me...
Take some blood
Hypnotize
Figure out what will not die
Blame it all on yesterday's
Disruption is the final stage
...........................................

As I read her piece of mind
I am mush upon her page
Lost within her lines of grief
Trapped within her rage

Still I read on
Her ink again spills red
In silence of lucidity
In a maze of heart felt dread

Yet time removes mind
With the darkening of day
Screens eventually time out
And attentions fade

The heart string
Is carefully enticed
With the realization
She's merely a function of my device

No child should have to
Look into the face of death

Not even the child within
Can know they're self-prepared
Some shocked stand staring in air
Perhaps the lucky ones
Quickly integrate despair

Some stand strong quickly moving on
Dissociating to get the job done
And now my psyche's on the run
At the sound of breaking bones
And the sight of blood and guts
A hundred years later
The fallout is quite abrupt...

Her eyes are kind her heart is warm
She is a Rose, I am a Thorn
We catch and ride the wild steed
I’m so alive and she’s so free

In the gazebo we dance until dawn
Our bodies lay naked out on the lawn
Completely fulfilled and finally whole
I have no intention of  letting go

Wheels are turning my heart is yearning
A lust for life subconsciously burning
I breathe too deep and the dream is lost
I start the day with a secret thought

Perhaps she was fictional beyond conclusion
A kaleidoscope of colors, a beautiful delusion
If only to awake and find her near
Instead I awake and gasp for air...

Breathtaking
Her curses
And form
She cracked
The mold
When she
Was born

Into the
Heart of man
Arrived
She slipped
Within
Their night

She fell
from grace
Inside a storm
Cursed be man
For now
She's torn...

I have driven
The climbing mind
Far past the cliffs
Of "by design"
Above the caves
Of spiritual slaves
With nothing left
To give away

I have scaled
The suffering soul
With broken spirit
I'm sure you know
How high the summit
As we grow old...

Mostly though
I'm so glad I had
A chance to meet you
Upon this road
...

Behind every tree
An eye watches
The hand of doubt
Hesitantly reaches
While quickly pulling back
To many eyes to count

But
You and I
Seek the gleam of
Eye to eye contact
Wide
Open curtains
Exchange of smiles
But we haven’t seen that
No, not in a coronavirus mile!

I read your pain
And I remember when
Things weren't so clear
When adulthood began

Bigger than life
The emotional ride
The stress that we feel
The shadows we hide

All of lives questions
Will need to be asked
Choose only answers
That you know will last

Know that you are
Unique, not alone
And thank you
For making
HP your home!

These are the passages
of eternity
A translation beyond
right versus wrong
The questions of life
bear no relief
nor answer
While the raging heart
beats on...

Inherit the burden
of forgiveness
Your belonging
has tied your hands
Join your heart
to the universe
Heed the call
take a stand...

It’s good to be back
With a sharpened pen
In forward emotion
Let us extend
Our tangled heart
Frozen in love
Let us write
Pull and shove

Let us unwind
In unrest of mind
The unfaithfulness
 Of loyalties bliss
Let us conceive
Thought flowing free
Subjectively shadowless

But most of all
Let keep standing tall
Facing the new day rising
Hanging low on tip of toe
Vertically upon the horizon

Human doubt
Depletes the soul
Off into the ether
Our essence flow

These things
Are invisible
Until you close
Your eyes...
Doubt
Is bigger
Than these pangs
Of life...

Doubt moves us on
While faith holds tight
Doubt lives again
Beyond the night

In worlds anew
Where creature create
Doubt is actually
An open gate

So hold on Thomas
Cause here I come
We're off to Never
Never Land
Where
I doubt
We're from

Don't let hope
Bind you here
Let your doubt
Take the wheel
And steer!

What part of my mind
Holds this fragment
Of memory
This perfect moment
In time
As it surface's
In my dream
A six month old
Version of my
Adult daughter
Laughing with
Bright happy eyes

If only I could
Freeze this moment
Of time for eternity
Would that not be heaven?

As for the aesthetics of religion

Even though I don't believe

If it's beautiful, I will listen...

Mighty are the winds
In their invisibility...
Wickedly blowing
All around me...
I am but an island
In a mighty storm
Of needs...

Living
Resentful lies
Somehow we survive...
Invisibility keeps me alive
....

This next stanza
Would be to painful to write
So I'll use my invisible words
And hope everything
Turns out all right!

Can you show me where love has gone
Like a missing chord in some sappy song
I have searched until I no longer care
Finding comfort in such despair

A rain of wonder fell upon
A land of broken dreams
Left its rainbow bright and brilliant
As any dreamer ever dreamed
No sooner did these dreams come true
The cloud returned to gray
And left me in this dreamland
Lost within the haze

Can we return to the passage
Where the answers seem so clear
Where the angel of the constellations
Dried up swelling tears
Where love and dreams walked hand in hand
Through eternity evermore
Where honesty and true compassion
Were the key to heaven’s door

Instead I wake up to this madness
Of constant give and take
Where the trees of life hardly bend
Before your spirit breaks
And a broom that sweeps the broken pieces
Underneath the rug of yesterday
Guided by the hands of time
To which we all have fallen slaves ...

Notice!
Silence seems to have
Taking over
It's Sunday morning
Am I the only one up
Or even sober?
Somebody, anybody
Sing me a song
A poem about cutting
Would be better then none
Surely some Poet
Has pain to covey
When you get home from church
Write what you may
I'll shoot you a heart
Some loving thoughts
HP is my addiction
This is the cost
.....................





...

I'm truly sorry for all the bad I've done
But I'm not gods only
New Age Son!

We are the lambs
Refuse the slaughter
New Age Child
Or even Daughter!

I dreamed about love
so deep I cried

So beautiful and unattainable
Yet still I tried

I tried to hold on
As long as I could

Yet my dreams are so often
Misunderstood...

Winter, the long lasting loving season

Sparks the passion that keeps us from freezing

In the coming of togetherness a new life arrives

Reflected in beautiful blue diamond birthstone eyes

...

Comprehension
is but a path to meaning..
Who am I?
Why am I here?
Why am I suffering?
Experience
is the path to understanding…
So embrace the pleasure
and the pain..
Stay strong my friends.

Perhaps..
We came here to experience love
Because..
This is the only place love exist
Question is..
If so will we be able to take love with us when we go?

Perhaps this is the only place
where music exist
Angelic arrangements
cosmic gifts

Perhaps this is the only place where hate exist
The gravity of separatism causes platonic rifts

Time and space can exist anywhere?
Perhaps only here..

I love it here
and I won’t let go
Nor lose my connection
to love, music, time, space and soul!

Unburden my heart
With soft words or hard
Unseen unformed words
Like clay in a jar

What can my soul spring
But fountains of dreams
From the depth of divine
What will my muse bring

Unburden my heart
And set my mind free
Untainted by memories
Of the hell I have seen...