It’s good to be back
With a sharpened pen
In forward emotion
Let us extend
Our tangled heart
Frozen in love
Let us write
Pull and shove

Let us unwind
In unrest of mind
The unfaithfulness
 Of loyalties bliss
Let us conceive
Thought flowing free
Subjectively shadowless

But most of all
Let keep standing tall
Facing the new day rising
Hanging low on tip of toe
Vertically upon the horizon

Two very large steps forward
Was a bit too fast for our country
It exposed our sad truths

Racism trumps good sense
It doesn't matter how far
Obama brought us
Out of Bush's mess
He is demonized for being black
Oh but how our officials deny
Such accusations...

The majority of us are in fact
Superstitiously-impaired
Yes (Although it angers people)
Religion and superstition
Share the same definition
The belief in something with no proof

The separation of church and state is an illusion
It bleeds through our government
In the most illogical ways

I believe there is a high probability
That a higher power exists
Unlike
Christianity and Islam
I don't believe
Everyone who doesn't share my beliefs
Is doomed to an eternal suffering...

I believe in peace, mercy, compassion
And dignity
For all my fellow earthlings
My hope is that all find meaning
In the only thing that is for sure
The here and now...

As slow as the process is
Evolution exists
It saddens me when we take large steps backwards...

What part of my mind
Holds this fragment
Of memory
This perfect moment
In time
As it surface's
In my dream
A six month old
Version of my
Adult daughter
Laughing with
Bright happy eyes

If only I could
Freeze this moment
Of time for eternity
Would that not be heaven?

As for the aesthetics of religion

Even though I don't believe

If it's beautiful, I will listen...

Behind every tree
An eye watches
The hand of doubt
Hesitantly reaches
While quickly pulling back
To many eyes to count

But
You and I
Seek the gleam of
Eye to eye contact
Wide
Open curtains
Exchange of smiles
But we haven’t seen that
No, not in a coronavirus mile!

Human doubt
Depletes the soul
Off into the ether
Our essence flow

These things
Are invisible
Until you close
Your eyes...
Doubt
Is bigger
Than these pangs
Of life...

Doubt moves us on
While faith holds tight
Doubt lives again
Beyond the night

In worlds anew
Where creature create
Doubt is actually
An open gate

So hold on Thomas
Cause here I come
We're off to Never
Never Land
Where
I doubt
We're from

Don't let hope
Bind you here
Let your doubt
Take the wheel
And steer!

I read your pain
And I remember when
Things weren't so clear
When adulthood began

Bigger than life
The emotional ride
The stress that we feel
The shadows we hide

All of lives questions
Will need to be asked
Choose only answers
That you know will last

Know that you are
Unique, not alone
And thank you
For making
HP your home!

She showed up shinning
Shy southern smile
I knew it was her
From her HP profile
I said, I'm Traveler
But please call me Tim
It's so good to finally meet you
Where on earth have you been
In the fleeting moments that followed
Everything just seem to go full throttle
Then suddenly she was gone
A week filled with fun and song
Dear Poetess
I wish you'd stayed on!

Can you show me where love has gone
Like a missing chord in some sappy song
I have searched until I no longer care
Finding comfort in such despair

A rain of wonder fell upon
A land of broken dreams
Left its rainbow bright and brilliant
As any dreamer ever dreamed
No sooner did these dreams come true
The cloud returned to gray
And left me in this dreamland
Lost within the haze

Can we return to the passage
Where the answers seem so clear
Where the angel of the constellations
Dried up swelling tears
Where love and dreams walked hand in hand
Through eternity evermore
Where honesty and true compassion
Were the key to heaven’s door

Instead I wake up to this madness
Of constant give and take
Where the trees of life hardly bend
Before your spirit breaks
And a broom that sweeps the broken pieces
Underneath the rug of yesterday
Guided by the hands of time
To which we all have fallen slaves ...

These are the passages
of eternity
A translation beyond
right versus wrong
The questions of life
bear no relief
nor answer
While the raging heart
beats on...

Inherit the burden
of forgiveness
Your belonging
has tied your hands
Join your heart
to the universe
Heed the call
take a stand...

Imagine if you could sense
Where a loved one was
Or even when a loved one was in distress From far, far away!

But then I thought to myself
How would technology
Ever stand a chance to climb
To sore into
Enlightenment!

And so I pulled my product off the shelf
And destroy the patent

It’s good thing Procter & Gamble
Didn’t get their hands on that one.

Perhaps..
We came here to experience love
Because..
This is the only place love exist
Question is..
If so will we be able to take love with us when we go?

Perhaps this is the only place
where music exist
Angelic arrangements
cosmic gifts

Perhaps this is the only place where hate exist
The gravity of separatism causes platonic rifts

Time and space can exist anywhere?
Perhaps only here..

I love it here
and I won’t let go
Nor lose my connection
to love, music, time, space and soul!

My mother never calls
She....Well
I, I loved her, most of all!!!!!!
And even at this stage of life
Perhaps a word from her
Could set any simple things right....?

She's my mother whom
I love her with all my heart
And all my might
Yet..........................................
She knows all my stumbling blocks
She's seen
All the love that I have lost
She know my heart
Has suffer great
Yet her finger points at my mistakes.........
!.....?
I miss her finger
I know I lived wrong
Yet we need a family!
To help us stay strong
If she won't call me
I hope she lives long!

Submerged in a commitment
Of over-involvement
Individuality disseminates
Reputations escalate
Demanding attention

Like-minded poets
Fade into fussy megapixels
Of the overwhelming
Hub of false daylight

Wasting away
Incognito circuits
Indiscretions
Gives way
To emotionless
Follow commitments

Choking down
Abstract jargon
Until your words
Touched me
And now I remember
Why I'm here...

Mighty are the winds
In their invisibility...
Wickedly blowing
All around me...
I am but an island
In a mighty storm
Of needs...

Living
Resentful lies
Somehow we survive...
Invisibility keeps me alive
....

This next stanza
Would be to painful to write
So I'll use my invisible words
And hope everything
Turns out all right!

Come home now my precious child
For life is getting older
These dreams for you have faded
The intoxication sobered

Come lie beside me
And rest your weary head
Stress and strife shall slip away
And all those things you dread

The promise of a new world
May appear pretty bleak
Yet your destiny awaits you
And the answers that you seek

Death is but a doorway
So many options open
Our quantum souls return to source
To all we put our hope in

Come home now the voices call
Like a vague yet gentle caress
Easing all our worldly worries
Putting our minds to rest

I'm truly sorry for all the bad I've done
But I'm not gods only
New Age Son!

We are the lambs
Refuse the slaughter
New Age Child
Or even Daughter!

The uneasiness of
When we're exposed
To what we detest
Shines bright
Through our souls

All that we hate
About ourselves
Projected onto the world
Is hardly stealth

Forward I am
Friend to human
I just want to be me!
Comfortable in skin
Come and dive in
My love
   Will always be free...

Why shout out to the mountain
It's time to fall on me
The sky keeps turning darker
So why pretend to see …

Love so often cast
Like pearls to the swine
The dog returns to his *****
He calls it  holy wine …

There’s a new day on the horizon
As our lungs gasp for air
Existence remains unsolvable
Yet on ourselves we swear

Eternity holds no definites
The equation six feet deeper
Wake up and do some living
Or be an eternal sleeper

It's not actually a flower
It's a painting of a flower
No definition beyond
The flower's we see
Out on the lawn
Merely an image
Paint fumes replaced
The charmers scent
That once
"Meaninglessly"
Drew our mates

An orchestrated opus
Of wayward heart
Galaxies of lyric-less
Wayward stars
Glimmering
From who knows
Afar
Meaningless poetry
Is all we are

Why do morning dove
Insist to sing
Meaningless songs
Birds of prey scream
Blinding beams of sunlight
Reflect off mighty seas
Blinding our eyes
Yet still we believe
What meaning has
The giant ancient trees
Majestic mountains
Purple beauties
These impressions
Of nature only define
Meaningless poetry
That beautifully rhymes
.................................

Sobering
The impact reason
Has on reality
Surely the access to
Thankfulness
Leads through
The door
Of togetherness
Down the empathy
Of continuity within
There we will ascend...

Pawns, expendable pawns
Black and white squares, we move upon
Dreams, lost in a garden of dreams
Invisible hands guide our teams

Heaven bound angels we turn
Fall to the ground we burn
Run, run to the mountain of lies
Our righteousness is our disguise

Devastation and heartache, our path
The unavoidable crash, karmic wrath
Yet somehow we find love in vain
In one brief moment we leave our stain

Truth revealed in fever dreams
Guilty feelings waking hours bring
What does it mean we ask ourselves
Storing hope upon dusty shelves

In the silence between our laughter
I have heard the voice of stars
Deities banished to wayward heavens
Sentenced to observe us from afar

Behold the whispers that makes us dream
Countless eyes that see everything
Forbidden to touch, to reach and feel
Enviously awaiting with intention revealed

Stumbling into reason
The settling dust recedes
Stars so bright and brilliant
So much to know and be

The answers of the universe
Clustered within the mind
Simple state of chance
The emergence of divine

Hope is but an invisible rope
Tethered to our fear
A glow within the darkness
Draws a silent tear

A tear for those who pass
Into the great beyond
Fear shall slowly fade
Cause soon we'll all be gone...

Where were our minds
As we fell into the night
Lust within a dream
Teeth that long to bite

Raw passion digging
Ripping to the core
Far beyond the limits
Picking heaven's door

To taste, to feel
To hold as long as can
To trick the demons of no return
And take the promised land

A drop in the bucket of time
Now frozen within a rhyme...

From me to you...

I watch in silence as the children play
Innocent games like tag and keep-away
Pushing and shoving, the weakest child falls
And the playground monitors see nothing at all

A big boy teasing pulls a little girl’s hair
We feel for the girl so let the bullies beware
But what about empathy for the boy and his deed
Abuse and neglect is the home life he leads

But all I can do is stand here in silence
Condemned to a world of hatred and violence
For the crimes I committed before I could see
The ways that the playground had taught me to be...

It's not there any longer
That sparkling loving glow
I see you reaching out for
Someone else to hold...
You've an itch deep beneath
Scratch it as you may
I will write this unread poem
And bleed another day!

I hid within my shadow world
And held my breath too long
These holes within are empty parts
Where your memories belong

I saw you in the distance
I know you saw me too
I turned my head and walked away
I think I'm turning blue
.....

Of course heaven exist!
It’s everywhere we let it be.
It’s the energy of our love..
It’s the movement of our sea.

The algorithms didn’t like what I had to convey.
So I attempted to say it in a different place ..
Instagram, Twitter it’s all been done…
Activism gets eaten in the algorithms!

I don't get along
with my own rage
mostly I disassociate
rather then engage

Still my rage is in here
looking for a breach
of all my multi intelligence
rage is the hardest to teach!

Let me take a moment
to navigate this maze
there's so much more to living
than some festering heated rage

No one need reminding
rage can be quite blinding
but I am not a complete slave
I will keep my rage
caged!
(and off your page)

I wish I had a time machine
There are so many places I’d rather be
Instead I’m stuck right here in now
With this guitar upon my knee
I play all day and dream all night
What sweet rhythms do I hear
I cast these spells of love gone bad
While I'm crying in my beer
And if I weren’t on this spiral
headed for an early grave
I’d find myself another excuse
To waste my life this way...

I had been running from
My shadow's for far too long
And so I tried to stop
And take a right
To fix what's wrong
I had to learn to get along

But
These ghost of mine
They share my soul
They refused to simply just
Let the past go

I burn a candle and meditate
But all my magic is tied to fate
The time to pay
Is actually here
I keep my love
And passion near
.......

As the lunar expanse
Of these multiverses
Bleeds into the coming
Of a new dawn
And as I never
Speak too long

The poetic depths
Of my expression
Cannot be contained
Not in mere words
That pop in my brain
Nor images of letters
Expanding the lines
Protruding the pages
In whimpers and whines

The span of my creation
Most grossly defines
The music and laughter
Echoing through good
And hard times
Perhaps then
Our poetic hearts
Shall be aligned...

If I attempted to expose
My many dysfunctions
With words that simply rhymed
My heart would surely ache
As I committed to relate
The faults in my weary mind
What I'm really trying to say
Between these lines is where I fade
And so I survive another day!

These streets and alleys
I've chosen to roam
No roof nor shelter
No memories of home

My shopping cart
Contains all I can hold
Leaving behind
The world I sold

No room for memories
Nor kitchen sink
Beyond a care
Indifferent to stink

No *******
No riches
Just the essentials
Bags full of resentments
Where I lay my head
And dream of what could have been

I park my cart
Outside the liquor store
Short of change
I panhandle a little more

I quickly turn in my returnables
And purchase the cheapest wine
I  return to my cart
And now life is just fine
...

The Goblins of Gloom do prey
At the borders of safety’s demise
This passageway frequently opens
A blessing yet curse despised

Passion for fury
****** out of control
Hell's fiery embers blister
As the burn of lust
Consumes the soul

Innocence caught in a vacuum
****** up, used and discarded
A fuel that feeds
The demonic machine
The evil eye lids have parted

Nightmares and spells
Conjured in hell
The righteous and wicked do ponder
Through evil doors
The wickedness soars
How many left open I wonder?

Cliffs of rocky words crumble into
landslides of incomplete sentences
I climb your ill frigid mountain
of self-righteous commitments
Gathering suppressed memories
I reach the summit of your greed
There the air is far too thin to breathe

The fear of your heights paralyzing
The cold of your winter realizing
I see my breath as the frostbite starts
Your avalanche of resentments fills my heart
Breaking my spirit, arresting my soul
'Til all that's left is you, the model I role

A footing unfit for vindication
A biography unfit for syndication
I froze in your tundra so many years ago
Until at last, like you I am the snow
I lost myself zeroes below...

No one is without
The trickery of mind
Its grasp beyond grip
Subliminally defined

No hearts above
The trickery of love
And no mind's free
Of influences above
Or as prescribed
In meditation
Or good drugs

Relax your fist
These imperfections
Are gifts
Like the rainbow
After a storm
Equality a distortion  
A psychological extortion
Of dispositions
We feel are norm...

Try and wrap
Your mind around
A paradox
Quite grotesque
Existing within
A parallel
While bypassing
Togetherness

An ideology
Of choseness
To survive
The end of days
Will hold us
In its clutches
And suspend us
In its maze
...

The King with the axe
And the Suicide Jack
Are always worth a wild
Doubled down
Take a hit
And always wear
A smile
Snake eye roll
Crows eye view
Luck is a lady
Me and you
And the devil too

Now deal those cards!

In the landscape of spring
There is nothing superior or nothing inferior
The flowering branches grow naturally some shorts some long
........
Traveler

We.seed our fields
With poppies of pleasure
The light of our poetic souls
Includes and transcends
All nature

The first ripe fruit
On the tree of godhead
The harvesters of passion
Rooted in imagination

Never will we cease to expand!

The path of the gods
Leads us beyond forever
Stacked and confounded
Heavier then fairer weather

The fear of demise lays dormant
In the twinkle of a young child's eyes
Lovers of life whose fortune fades
Drunk upon the rituals of rites
Stranger then any true identity
Based upon a familiar disguise
Staggering through repressed divinity
We overlook the the reasons we're alive

The untethered consciousness
Has no boundaries, span nor depth
It's going to make a believer
   Out of me yet...

Oh blind me now
To the ways of sin
So that I may hide
Myself within
Rip it out
This heart of lust
Take away
My conditional trust
Deafen my senses
To unaware
Cage my guilt
In the dungeons
Of despair

Take away all I've sown
Place a limit on my cares
But you better close the door
Because there's a draft in here
A wind of change
That longs to blow
Into your life
To fill your soul
With the words of peace
Of tolerance that's fair
Allow us to breathe
  Just a little more air...

Times can get hard
For the easy
Surely the fat
Can't always be greasy

All fall in a moment
To pieces
And get caught
In the cupboards
And creases

So whenever
The good life squeezes
Clear your mind
Before it ceases

Find your path
Back to the feast
Leave the hard times
  For the beast...

On this road
Mistakes are prone
Even the Master
Stubs a toe
If he clams otherwise
It would surely means
He still needs to grow

In the limitless rise
Of enlightened minds
Even the leaders
Can be left behind
Stub not your toe
On the ceiling of knowing
Or like the master
The emotion's controlling
..................................................

When I look into your eyes
I see a warm safe gentle place
And although the world is dying
There’s still a smile upon your face
You tend to take for granted
What I hope for every day
And I know you’re not pretending
To be caught up in this race

Darkness has my number now
And this night’s forever long
There’s nothing left to believe in
‘Cause that part of me is gone
As I move on toward tomorrow
I’m thankful for the time
When love is all we had to share
In a world so unkind

I dreamt you were an angle
In a world so unkind
A light shone all around you
Suspending you in time
You came to heal the people
Of their sickness and disease
But you turned away in sorrow
‘Cause your touch could not heal me

It all felt so familiar
Like it happened yesterday
You left me in the ruins
And slowly walked away

Somewhere there has to be
a window left ajar
an unlocked door
a spaceship bound for Mars

beyond these crystallized values
these ceilings of sophistication
beyond these solid grounds
of miss interpretations

I can not fit in
these ranks reject my views
no one wants to know
the reality I can prove
no…
not within this human zoo
……..

I’ve searched so long for truth
Yet you can never be quite sure
Even a sign out of chance
At anytime could occur

Once I fell in love
But was that actually true
Hate could be so real
I’d tell you if I knew

Sometimes I feel so trapped
So caught in this thing called time
Other times I can’t seem to keep up
I guess I’ll never unwind

Still with destiny I’ve met
Both my goals and regrets
But the end is nowhere in sight
Nor near, no not yet