Makenzie Marie

Makenzie Marie Jun 2018

I signed my name...

Your name
Attached to mine
I took your name in mine
Took your hand in mine
That was a different time

But back to today...
I took a pen to a page
And said goodbye
To that time
And the lying
And crying.

And now I’m not yours
And you’re not mine.

You’re free to be
And Choose how you’ll be
And you can no longer hurt me
I can be free.

I hope one day, you’ll see
All the harm you did to me
No bruises, no bleeding
But you’ll remember the anxiety, the screaming.
and now here’s me
With a little bit of PTSD.

But baby,
I won’t be there to agree.

Im taking care of me.
And taking back my name.

#divorce #heartbreak

Makenzie Marie Apr 2018

Transferable demons

I know it’s daunting
And the road seems long
But this demon you’re facing,
It’s not just you that it’s haunting.
It’s not just you that it’s chasing.

I know you’re strong
But my belief in strength is fading.

Is it enough
To want to try?
To tell me you didn’t mean
to break my heart
Console me just enough
To keep me from crying?
(Thanks for trying)

But then turn to distract
From the reality of your loveless acts?
Meanwhile...
I can act tough
Until I crack
(Not tough enough)
And the demon of yours
that I’ve absorbed
comes pouring out
In full force.

I would lift you
If I could
And carry you far away from this world.

I love you.

Sep 2017

ryn

Possibility

Clutch tight the tail of the sun.
Shed your tethers
and take that ride into the next.

Redeem the possibility
of limitless tomorrows.
Because today was meant to happen
and yesterdays were never meant
to weigh you down.

#hellopoetry107 #possibility

Makenzie Marie Jan 2016

If I'm a theif then so are you, but keep my heart, please.

You are safety
That I'm happy to steal.
If it makes me a thief,
send me to hell.
Because I know with you
No matter what hell I'm going through,
I'll have love on my side
Urging me to "go and do."
And I trust you can tell
That this is going so dang well.
And it's unreal
How awestrikingly wonderful you make me feel.
I'm full of wonder at you my dear
How I got so lucky here...
And I know that you will carry me
(When necessary)
Because for you and me,
Heaven is waiting.

And I'm looking forward to the journey

I love you more than everything

#love #hell #happiness #heaven #marriage #forever #eternity #serenity #infatuated

Makenzie Marie Jan 2016

Time is a funny thing

I was:
a little broken,
a little lost on time,
too much,
and not enough
(But I'd swear "I'm doing fine").

And on every cold night
You held me so tight
my pieces fit together
and you filled the holes
left by storms and bad weather.

Too much is nonexistant
and you love that I'm persistant.
not enough is impossible.
And that's what it means
when you tell me you love me
I'm on top of the world.

I want to say time changes things,
because it's the truth about reality.
But honestly, you're the thing
and you've changed me.
but in a better way than time herself could ever dream.
And now, I'll get to watch change with you for eternity.

Today we're together,
and I'm a little lost on time.
'Cuz I'm in love,
and that's enough.
(I'm doing so much more than fine.)

#love #broken #happy #time #change #patience #impossible #forever #enough #persistance

Makenzie Marie Jan 2016

10.03.2015

And I know that the whole poetic vernacular doesn't really resonate with you, but it doesn't matter much to me because I know that you think my mind is beautiful and I know that you love the words in my head and that's enough for me.
So thank you for thinking I"m beautiful. Thank you for complimenting my Sunday dress and for noticing when I part my hair differently. Thank you for complimenting me whether My makeup is done or not and no matter how long I've gone without washing my hair. Thank you for seeing me. Thank you for holding on tight and for making me feel safe. Thanks for not being afraid to be yourself, and for making sure I know I can do the same. Thak you for being who you are, right now, and thank you for helping me be who I'm becoming, in this moment. Simply stated, I want to become that someone with you at my side.
More simply summarized, I am falling in love with you.

10.3.2015

Makenzie Marie Dec 2015

1:57am

Fasten your seatbelt
Tuck your baggage away
And in case of emergency
follow steps A, B, and C
in that pamphlet nobody reads.

Was there an "in case of" pamphlet I didn't bother to see?
Like in case you have to say goodbye, follow steps x, y, and z?

Why doesn't love come with a warning label? Like if you remove part A, part B will not run as efficiently.

Today I boarded a plane
And I flew away (from you)
Which is the same thing.
Because we're two parts of a whole and nothing is whole When its parts are apart.

I can try to self deceive
Repeating that you're just right here down the hall and when I wake up in the morning it'll be to you jumping on my bed and literally dragging me out of it.

But I know that you're days away and that's a hard thing to know because I know you. (And I love you.)

And now I'm lying in bed trying to figure out how long "soon" is and how to measure the distance between now and "later" when I see you again.

#love #man #heart #goodbye #missing #distance #mine #soon #later