My mask is pure And white as snow But my heart is Black and cold. Beautiful rythms Flow from my lips While my mind plays a Sour note. Where did the happiness go, The easy, simple Melodies of childhood, The light and happy beats? My style changed As I grew up, Higher and louder and faster. An air of panic Entered the flying stanzas As my life started to Fall apart. Now the only music of My soul Is the melancholy dirge Of lost hope And broken dreams.
I lean over myself. Clinging to what's left of you in me. And what is there, like a sixth sense, is the silence that you showed me. The silence that keeps me alive when the world gets overly noisy and I feel myself being swallowed. My panic room.
everything isn't always the way it seems she not always been mean life made her this way she fights everyday takes pills to numb the pain kills her lungs to quiet the voices no one believes her no one can see her she is just a product of this generation where is ok to pick on the queer girl and instill fear in her heart she will always be afraid she will never be she will never be she will never be she will never be she will never she will She will be everything she ever dreamed of and more
Sludge caked in my throat I don't want to think of it Fire burning in my heart I don't want to think of it The memories **** the air from my lungs I don't want to think of it The blood drains from my face I don't want to think of it
***** fingers touching my chest I don't want to think of it Evil lips on my neck I don't want to think of it The thick smell of sweat I don't want to think of it Fighting back his voice in my head I don't want to think of it
The trust that was destroyed I don't want to think of it The guilt chained to my soul I don't want to think of it The disgust of my own flesh I don't want to think of it The taste that will never leave my mouth I don't want to think of it
I don't want to see it The flashbacks make me sick. I don't want to feel it The pressure between my thighs. I don't want to think of it My best friend ***** me. But I do.