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Cintaku kepadamu yang terawali layaknya sebuah kepompong
Hingga menjadi sebuah kupu-kupu
Terbang melintas dunia
Berakhir dengan kematian

Tetes demi tetes tinta
Menyusun kata per kata
Membentuk sebuah kalimat yang ramai
Mewakilkan mulutku yang membisu

Untuk siapa kubuat tulisan ini?
Tulisan yang tak lebih melibatkan amarah dan kebencian
Namun ditulis dengan sedikit rasa cinta yang masih melekat
Putih suci ditimpah hitam penuh dosa

Bisik Sang Hati " Lipat dan buang. Sudah cukup sudah. "
Jemari bergerak melipat surat itu
Berbentuk perahu
Perahu kertas.

Raga berjalan ke tepi laut
Seakan jiwa yang menggerakkan
Mulut yang berbisu mengucapkan sebuah doa
Tangan melepaskan surat itu

Perahu kertas,
Bawalah mimpi buruk ini berlayar denganmu
Berlabuhlah di neraka
Agar dosa dan penyesalan ikut terbakar disana.

Cinta
Mungkin adalah hal yang paling sakral di kehidupan
Terjadi ketika 2 insan bertemu
Saling menerangi sesama

Rindu
Mungkin adalah hal yang paling ajaib di kehidupan
Terjadi ketika dirimu terlintas di benakku
Turbulensi yang bergejolak di hati dan pikiran

Doa
Adalah saat ketika keajaiban akan terjadi
Ketika kuucapkan namamu yang begitu indah di doaku
Agar didengar oleh Allah SWT

Dirimu
Sebuah anugerah yang sangat dijaga
Begitu sucinya dirimu untuk dilihat
Seolah-olah menggugurkan segala bintang

Diriku..
Lelaki yang mendambakanmu
Seperti kerumunan semut yang berciuman dan yang mencubit
Pada waktu satu anak kecil yang menggigit-gigit kuku jari

Rindu adalah bulu matamu, bergulung-gulung layaknya ombak

Perempuan ciptaan cahaya
Perempuan semua anggrek kesayangan
Kau layaknya labuhan terjauh, pekat, tidak berujung
Bolehkah aku berlayar disana?

Sore senja
Sunyi
Rindu akan rumah
Ruang hampa

Kedua mata menatap jendela
Terlihat sepasang burung bersemayam
Saling bersenderan
Memiliki sesama

Cemburu akan kehidupan sepasang burung
Naif kah jiwa ini mengelak dari itu?
Rindu akan hal yang mustahil
Mustahil untuk dirindukan.

I lose myself
I've lost everything that I love
I wonder why I deserve all of this
Did I deserve this?

Nights that I've been through
You've crossed between stars that I looked every night
I miss you
I do really miss you

It's been 8 years that we haven't met
I lose myself for nothing
I don't believe what I've become
In the end, I've only got myself to blame

The world that I've been fighting with
Won
Against me
A shameful defeat

Once I thought that life is too beautiful to ruin me
But truth has spoken
Life doesn't want me
Me...

Unrecognized..
Unseen..
Unheard.

Songs we used to heard
Feelings extracted to each other
Stares at each other
Thinks that “ Us “ is forever

All of these things that we had
Based on three empty words
We can’t fix what’s broken
Even we still feel each other

I won’t say those three empty words
Because we can’t take it anymore
I know it’s hard
To not fall on us.

A tall building with many windows outside of it
Some glows light at night
Some dark at night
Same at daylight

Every window has it own story
A couple that live happy together
A family that always argue each other
A man that live all by himself

But every time when it's midnight
All of them are the same
It was a quiet moment
Peaceful

Where everybody sleeps
Flying to a world that never been traveled before
Warm blankets that cover them up from the cold night
Magical things for every each person

Quiet hallway
Sound of water drops
Footsteps
Ringing door bell

A building with thousands of stories in it
Hundreds of people live together
Without knowing each other
Hesitation to say hello

" How's your day? "
" Hai there, how are you? "
" Can we hangout someday? "
" Did you hear the new movie coming up tomorrow? "

Questions that filled in thoughts
Fear to feel awkward
Life that filled with stupid moral
A Hai is a no to their own ego

Life of an apartment world
Living with hundreds of strangers
Loving a solitary life
Less living as a human, more destruction to humanity.

Hai
In this very moment
I would like to say thank you
For everything

We knew each other when we were just a sophomore kids
A tomboy girl that i knew
Turned to a beautiful hijab girl
The most beautiful girl i think.

You amazed me
Your personality
Your beauty
Your smile

Everything about you is perfect.

Every night i always thought about you
Our moments
When we were still a bunch of spoiled kids
We went places together
Just living our life with fun

Our first meet that begin with a " hai "
You smiled
I smiled
Then you told me your name

It is the most beautiful name that I ever heard.
We became a best friend since then.

You consider me as your best friend
But my heart told felt different

I love you.

I don't know how I ended up with that feeling
But I love you
I fell in love with you
You've become my world.

Everytime we laugh together
I feel so happy that I'm the one who makes you happy
Everytime you smile
I feel deeply in love with your beautiful smile

I don't have a courage to tell you this strong feelings
I'm afraid that if I do
I will lose you
And that's the risk that I will never take for the rest of my life.

When we entered highschool
You came to me
A long time not meeting you
You came with a hijab on your head

That's when I fell deeper for you

You've turned like an angel that Allah sent to me
You are the most beautiful woman that I ever love with
My heart beats faster than my breath
My brain freeze for a while and focus on you.

What did I do good so that I can be with someone I love with?

Perfect
Defines you.
Beauty
Reflects you.

Until now
I still love you
You might don't know
But I hope you know.

So help me God

To become yours

Forever.