L - Left here alone with my scary thoughts
O - Only me, myself & I are present
N - Nobody will ever understand how this feels
E- Everybody always leaves when things get hard
L - Love hurts more than anything I've ever felt
Y- You could never see that, so you ran.

I smoke cheap cigarettes
and with every drag I take
I'm reminded of how you
threw me away after I was used up.

He shoots you with bullets made of shame, aiming straight for your heart.
He stabs you with a knife made of insults,  etching forever scars in your back.
He forces self doubt down your throat and gags you to swallow it like stones.
He punches your gut with fists made of manipulation, leaving you gasping for air.
His lies like a tight rope wrapped around your neck, a noose, if you will.
His attitude like a cleaver, sharpened and ready to disembowel you at every turn...

just like the rain,
I will fall when things get too heavy
but like the sun,
I will rise again every morning.

My love, if I knew you were just as dangerous as this loose draw between my lips I would've thought twice before I put you in my mouth

your marks a little more permanent than my lipstick, your smell a little stronger than my perfume and your promises cheaper than my manicure

just like this cigarette you were cheap, dangerous and over quickly.