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Dec 2019 · 195
You
Orion Lesneski Dec 2019
You
You think I’m a fool,
Just because you're so cool,
Then I’m not for you.
Dec 2019 · 152
Dove
Orion Lesneski Dec 2019
Was I not enough for you?
I told you I was in love,
But you flew away like a dove.
Nov 2019 · 107
Dust
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
I pull over and park in the barrow pit,
Cursing myself for letting you quit,
You left our love in the dust,
For you it’s been covered up,

But for me I still see,
You giggling,
Because I said something,
You probably don’t remember that night,
But baby I can’t keep it off my mind,
You’ve been in my dreams,

I get out of my truck,
And turn the radio all the way up,
I thought we were in love,
But you just cut me up,
I was so torn up,
I saw you the other day,
And you looked just the same,

I just wish I could say,
Baby just stay,
But when love was in the air,
I thought you were being fair,
But you were never there,

I sat on my tailgate,
Wondering why I’m up this late,
Scrolling through all the pictures we took,
I delete them all,
It’s time for me to get over you,

I jump back in the driver's seat,
Slam the stick into 1st,
And I forget about you.
Nov 2019 · 102
What's wrong with me???
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
No matter how hard I try,
Or how many times I cry,
I always want to die.
Nov 2019 · 478
Tree
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
You see,
You and me,
We made a tree,
Just you and me,
But it wasn’t free,
You got rid of me,
And cut down our tree.
Nov 2019 · 211
Let's Go Away
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
Take my hand,
Let me take away your pain,
Make it go far away,
And let us jump on a train,

Take us to a different state,
Let’s make a new reality,
That only involves you and me,
No more hurting,
No more pain.
Nov 2019 · 153
Serious Question
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
What should I do if I witnessed my best friend get punched by his father? HMU for the details and I will let you decide.... I need help
Nov 2019 · 362
Don't Test Me
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
As blood drips down my fist,
I hope you got the gist
You wasted my time,
And I did a rapid climb!!
Nov 2019 · 505
Enough
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
Razor Blades,
They take away the pain,
But they hurt the ones I love,
So that’s enough,
To keep me from slicing up.
Nov 2019 · 252
See
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
See
Why can’t you see,
The pain I’m in,
I’m a complete wreck,
Just think about it.
Nov 2019 · 188
Seems
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
It seems like no one is out there,
It seems like no one will care,
It seems like no one loves me,
It seems like I agree.
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
You treated my sister like ****,
Said you loved her,
But you didn’t,
You didn’t treat her the right way,
Then yesterday you came where I work,
Just to say,
“Hey punk, How’s that disgust of a sister doing?”

I turned around and walked away,
Even though I wanted to drop you,
I stayed professional,
For a bit…

I walked into the beer freezer,
Restocked the beer shelves,
Punched the walls,
And walked out,
Turned off the lights,
And locked up the store at 10:00pm.

I went home,
With blood dripping down my fist,
Mother didn’t ask what happened,
Father didn’t either,
They both noticed,
But didn’t care.
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
Baby don't cut by Bmike
She's only 17, her whole life's ahead of her.
She hates school because the people there discredit her.
Her boyfriend tries to show her that's not how it seems.
But everyday she just gets lowered with her self-esteem.
He lets her know that every night will have a brighter day
She even tried to overdose and take her life away.
She's feeling hopeless there just sitting down beside her bed
Then he takes his hand and places it beside her head.
He tries to hold her but with every touch she still resists
And then he sees the scars that bury deep within her wrists
She's feeling numb, he tries to beg and plead and ask her, "Why?"
She says this way she has control of the pain she feels inside.
He's asking her, "How long it's going since you've felt this?
Way because you got me here, just feeling so **** helpless."
She says, "It's been a while. I guess I needed better luck."
And then he screams at her and tells her, "Baby, never cut!"
Nobody seems to get you, you feel you're on your own
But listen, pretty lady, you don't have to be alone.
So, baby, don't cut, baby, don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut.
I know your heart is hurting, you think the road has end
You may just feel that blade you're holding is your only friend.
But baby don't cut, baby don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut.
The next day at school she's feeling better than the day before.
Even cracked a couple smiles as she walked the corridor.
But all that seemed to end: she dropped her books when she walked into class.
And every student in the room just seemed to point and laugh.
She couldn't take it anymore, she sent her boy a text.
She said, "I love you with my body, heart and soul to death."
He thought nothing, typed "I love you", then he sent it.
By "death" he didn't know that she had literally just meant it.
She ducked the next class, ran home into the bathroom.
Thought to herself she wouldn't break her promise that soon.
One cut... two cuts... three cuts... four
The blood just started dripping from the tub to the floor.
Her boyfriend had a feeling in his stomach that he hated.
He followed it right down to her house he never waited.
The front door was open, he heard the water running.
He stormed into the bathroom and his heart just started gunning.
Nobody seems to get you, you feel you're on your own
But listen pretty lady you don't have to be alone.
So baby don't cut, baby don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut.
I know your heart is hurting, you think the road has end
You may just feel that blade you're holding is your only friend.
But baby don't cut, baby don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut.
He puts her arm around his shoulder, he's just tryna lean her back up.
Yelling out her name as he lays her beside the bathtub.
Feels his whole world just took a hit from a big avalanche.
Screaming out so heavily, "Somebody call an ambulance!"
Feeling mad angry like somebody's led her onto this.
Her eyeballs are rolling, drifting out of consciousness.
Thinking to himself why the hell did she just stop at will.
The tears just keep on rolling as they head to the hospital.
Paramedics rush her in, the doctor calls emergency.
She's lost a lot of blood the place looks like a ****** scene
An hour later, the doc walks over with a sour face
And says, "Excuse me for the words that I'm about to say.
I'm sorry for your loss, " the boy just starts collapsing.
His own world, his own girl just took a crashing.
Saying to himself that it's his fault and that he let it up.
"Baby, I thought you made a promise you would never cut."
Nobody seems to get you, you feel you're on your own
But listen pretty lady you don't have to be alone.
So baby don't cut, baby don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut.
I know your heart is hurting, you think the road has end
You may just feel that blade you're holding is your only friend.
But baby don't cut, baby don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut
Nov 2019 · 409
They Do
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
They said never lie,
But they do,

They said don’t cry,
But they do,

They said don’t ask why,
But they do,

They said don't yell,
But they do,

They said don't use profanity,
But they do.
Guess Who
Nov 2019 · 324
Red Cross
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
Blood,
That’s all they want,
But it’s for a good reason.

They ask for blood,
So they can save others,
I’ve let them draw mine 12 times,
They said I saved lives.
Nov 2019 · 154
Alone
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
Alone,
I'm on my own.....
Nov 2019 · 230
Know...
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
People tell me to get over it,
When they see what I write,
They say it’s just a phase,
That I will get over it,
But they don’t know….
Nov 2019 · 66
Today
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
Just take a moment today,
And think about who fought and served for your country,
Honor them
My adoptive father served in the United States Navy for 22 years, he was a MCPO (Master Chief Petty Officer), he served in the Vietnam War.
Nov 2019 · 91
Past
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
I was a bad kid,
never realized it,
until I did,
only wanted to get a hit,
so I treated everyone like ****,
thought I could handle it,
started out with little bits,
but it evolved into chunks,
so I became a punk,
one day I woke up,
I was locked in a trunk,
looking back I should've been shook up,
instead I thought about hitting up,
my "friends" let me out,
told me I fell asleep,
and couldn't get me in the back seat,
apparently I got in a fight,
can't remember what happened,
wait maybe I might...
he hit me with his left,
I came back with my right,
I broke his nose,
suddenly there were his bros,
surrounding him to make sure he was ok,
but I didn't stay,
this was just one of many,
but I'm not gonna get into any,
people who didn't know me thought I was an angel,
but I was the devil,
I stole and lied to the ones I loved,
my parents called the cops,
and took me to the top,
told me I could go to jail,
not post bail.
gave me a warning,
and called them in the morning,
talked for a little bit,
I felt like ****,
this went on for four years,
now it brings me to tears,
every time I see the ones I hurt,
I wish I could take away their pain,
put it on a train,
tell them its ok,
But the past is the past,
I cant focus on that,
I set my eyes ahead,
thanking God I'm not dead.
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
Mom, Dad,
Why'd you choose drugs?
You chose that over us,
But in the end you got bust,

You know what?
I feel like trash,
Just writing this down,
But I have to get this out...

I love you,
I honestly do,
But sometimes you make me wanna puke,
Part of me wanna say "OD"
Nobody will even care,
To find your names in the obituare...

But it will make another tear,
You said you'd get better,
So we can all live a life together,
But here I am 17,
I had to teach myself everything.

Dad, you could've taught me how to use the D,
But I guess it came naturally,
Mom, through all the heart breaks,
You coulda taught me to be better,
Instead I went Bitter.

Somewhere along I took a wrong turn,
All I wanted was to smoke a burn,
Never thought I would turn,
And be part of your urn.

That was disgusting,
Who I was becoming,
I fought back,
To get on track,
But I can't change the past.

Not a day goes by when I don't think of you,
And all this **** you put me through,
I Hate You!
Everything you do,
You always think about you,
*******!
I LOVE YOU!!
I'm through...
Nov 2019 · 215
Weak
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
Never before have I felt so weak,
You make me fall to my knees,
Could this be a disease?
Nov 2019 · 72
Untitled
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
You put me to the test,
Think I won't rest?
I'm gonna hit that reset,
You better not sweat.
Your unfit,
Just a Hypocrite.
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
Yo, Ashilee she brings the heat,
Sometimes she makes eat her sweets,
Even though she did retreat,
I don't wanna repeat,
I love her so dearly,
Sincerely,
I whisper in her ear,
We're going to be together for years,
I hope she can hear,
The pounding of my heart,
Cuz she's my lost part,
I don't want another broken heart,
You promised me you wont leave,
Because our love is already weaved,
We're dope,
But not doped out,
I ain't no boy,
Who treats girls like they're a toy,
I'm a man,
The man for you.
Nov 2019 · 186
Be There
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
When you need me the most,
At anytime of day,
Just check your front porch,
I’ll be sitting there,
Waiting for you to smother your burning torch,
Just crawl into my arms,
And you will see,
I will always be there,
Waiting...
Nov 2019 · 131
Promise
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
Promise you love me,
I Promise I love you,
Promise you care,
I Promise I care,
Promise you will always be there,
I Promise I will always be there,
THEN WHERE ARE YOU??!!
Nov 2019 · 242
No Experience
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
Light...
There is no light here,
At least not to my knowledge,
I've never been allowed to experience it,
The life I've lived for 17 years,
The people who adopted me 16 1/2 years ago,
It was never a part of my life and they never let it be,
I always went behind their back,
But I still have never experienced it.
Nov 2019 · 184
Dark
Orion Lesneski Nov 2019
I can't see anything,
It seems like I've gone blind,
But I know I haven't,
It is just Dark
Oct 2019 · 89
Just a thought
Orion Lesneski Oct 2019
Ok so I remembered Halloween was today last night. But when I woke up this morning, I forgot. I got to school dressed like Tom Sawyer (today was dress up as your favorite book character at my school) and everyone was like "HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!" I just forgot that it was Halloween again, until my girlfriend said "I love you" like she normally does, For some reason that reminded me that it was Halloween. It is weird, every time a day is important, I always forget, until my girlfriend says something random. Just thinking about this... My memory has gotten so bad over the years and I am only 17. What about when I am in my 50s?? Oh well as long as I have someone that will stay by my side I will be good.
Oct 2019 · 188
140 Followers
Orion Lesneski Oct 2019
I never thought I would get this far!!
All of you have made my year better than the years before!
Orion Lesneski Oct 2019
I ******* hate this school,
All our parents think it's so cool,
But they don't know the **** I've been through,
They think it's all home brew.

But most of it started when I was not cool,
Now I'm nobody's fool,
See what they say when I go away?

I came back a change man,
They still treat me like I'm trash,
They don't trust my word,
Because my past actions rule out my word.
They know I went to a military school to better myself and change my horrible ways,
But they still think I'm that punk,
That would throw them in my trunk,
Just to get a high,

You know what *******!!
I've changed my ******* ways,
So what gives you the right to treat me like I'm still that ******* "druggie"
As you would all say,
I don't care what you think,
y'all can go shove it.

I'm doing great in life,
My girlfriend loves me for who I am,
My friends think I'm a changed man,
It's just my parents and this ******* SCHOOL!!
Oct 2019 · 110
Not a Man!!??
Orion Lesneski Oct 2019
I hate it,
When someone looks at me,
and tells me that since i dont know alot of trucks,
that I'm not a man.
You know what *******!

Just because I don't know as much about trucks than you,
doesn't mean I'm not a man,
You just proved to me that you are not a man.

I worked my *** off to better myself as a human being,
I learned from my mistakes,
I been in this world longer than you,
and I have seen **** that you probably won't even see in your life.

So you might want to learn that from me,
Next time you say that to someone,
They might lose their temper like I almost did,
and they just might hurt you.

So you are very lucky today,
I'm not going to let this weigh me down today,
Or anyday.
Oct 2019 · 86
Not a Poem but It happend
Orion Lesneski Oct 2019
We went to Albion Idaho,
to the Haunted Mansion,
you were so clingy to me,
And I loved it.

A clown jumped out,
you screamed,
and you buried your head in the crook of my arm.

A guy came up and showed you a big glass box,
he said look at my spider,
I said **** that **** I'm out,
and when I moved you kept looking.

Then he moved and the glass box split in two,
it happened so fast,
a face shot out and you screamed.

You turned around thinking I was there,
But I wasn't,
You turned around looking wildly,
I shouted your name,
"Ashilee!!"
You saw me and ran to me.

You ran into me and we both went down,
I was holding you and we started laughing,
We got up and left.

The ride home was amazing,
laughing about what happened in every house,

Jezz I missed you Ashilee,
We took a long break from each other,
And the time frame made us love each other more.
I am so happy that you are with me right now,
I'm ready to make more memories.
Oct 2019 · 81
Never Again
Orion Lesneski Oct 2019
I said never again,
you hurt me so many times.

But we started talking,
and you stole my heart again...
This poem is about the same girl that I wrote my very first poem "Unforgivable Love" about.
Orion Lesneski Oct 2019
We were great together close to perfect.
But back then i didn't deserve you, I do now but you with him so my past is trying to reflect.
Trying to drag me down to my old ways.
Replaying memories of those old days.
All those thoughts just lead me back to you.
I'm still trying to grasp how fast everything we had went to fade.
Sure for now I'll take the "L."
Somewhere down the road I'll take the win even if it has to be my last will.
Whether I get you back or I don't.
I'm barely afloat.
This depression is wrappin' around me so this fake smile I'm wearin' fits as good a coat.
Now I'm at the point I'm done with tryin'.
I'm lovin' you but Im hatin' you so Im cryin'.
It's been over a year tryna get you back or replace you.
Some just like you but not the same outer case as you.
Inside you is what I'm talkin' bout.
I loved your outside too but searchin' for a girl like you causin' me to live in a drought.
I know with out a doubt.
That I'm done fightin' with my heart and my mind.
Angle on my left shoulder wit' the Demon on the right.
Tellin' me not to give up fightin' for you but also tellin' me to forget about you but 11 months ago I couldn't decide on which side.
But now I can.
Ima stand.
No not for you.
Worry bout me and who I wanna be.
You can't drive me insane anymore.
My brain you can't claim anymore.
Get the **** up outta my head.
So bad I wish I was dead.
Im ******' fed up.
These thoughts ******' wit' me reminding me how much you were of a set up.
Get out my head.
With all the ******* you said.
Just wanna go to bed.
*******.
You wasted my time.
The way I see it wit' how much I loved you was a ******' crime.
I got my eyes set on someone else.
I got my bets on someone else.
****.
I've known her longer than I've known you.
Be with her is what I wanna do.
So **** the "L" I was takin.
And all the **** you were sayin'.
The line you have crossed.
The **** was barely even a loss.
I got the win now.
I won't sin now.
I am no longer a joke
I don't know
Oct 2019 · 215
Gone
Orion Lesneski Oct 2019
We've been best friends for eight years,
Now you have me in tears.

Your leaving today,
But I want you to stay.

Remember when we used to play,
Video games all day?

I consider you my brother,
But your making me suffer.
Oct 2019 · 74
Untitled
Orion Lesneski Oct 2019
Darkness,
I see nothing,
Not even my feet,

So dark,
Yet so cold,
Wondering where I am,
I stand.

I immediately hit my head on something solid,
I raise my hands to see what it was,
Nothing.

What is this place…

Bigger question,
Where is this place…
Oct 2019 · 241
Mirror
Orion Lesneski Oct 2019
When you look in the mirror,
What do you see?

I invite all of you,
To look at your reflection,
And look deep into your own eyes...

Tell me,
What do you see?

Kindness?
Passion?
Anger?
Sadness?
Or Hate?

You see,
If you look at your reflection long enough,
and study yourself,
You will notice things about your features that you never noticed before.

That's all
Oct 2019 · 376
Bandage
Orion Lesneski Oct 2019
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Bandages,
They do not help,
The blood just soaks on through,
No matter how many I put on,
It will not stop.

( ̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅ ̲̅]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅ )
Blood soaked,
The wrist is covered in blood,
No way I can stop it.

( ̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅ ̲̅]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅ )
I look into my sisters eyes,
She is pleading me to help her,
As the blood drains from her wrists,
There is nothing I can do.
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( ̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅ ̲̅]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅ )
Sep 2019 · 215
Swarm
Orion Lesneski Sep 2019
I look in the mirror,
darkness swirls around my head,
It's like a swarm of flies,
I wish I could just die...
Sep 2019 · 100
Clean no more
Orion Lesneski Sep 2019
Ok so I'm a recovery addict have been for a year and three months, Well that was the case before last Saturday, I ****** up, was messing around with a "friend" of mine and we got high af and then we messed around with each other if you get the jist.
I just feel like **** knowing I let myself down and all my loved ones. But I'm not going to let that bother me. Im gon fight it and push myself to do better and beat my record. Any support from you guys would be amazing. Love all you guys
Sep 2019 · 87
HELP
Orion Lesneski Sep 2019
Sometimes I feel like no one cares... They never listen to me. People walk by me on the streets and give me a look of disgust. Just because I wear chains, bulky rings, leather jacket and a flat bill. IN THE SUMMER!!!!  The lease I can do is help take it to your car. That is who I am. I've been through things most people do not go through everyday. I'm a disgrace to my family, they do not understand why I am like this.

Sometimes I feel like no one appreciates me... The other day at work, I got called up to the registers to help an older lady with her grocery. The moment she saw me she said that she can handle it. My coworker just gave me a sad smile. I WORK MY *** OFF TO KEEP THOSE **** SHELVES FULL OF PRODUCTS RUNNING BACK AND FORTH EVERY ******* DAY!!!!!! At the end of the day I am so stressed and exhausted that once I step foot in my room, I fall to the ground and curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out. I am 17 years old and I am already getting joint pain everywhere. I just want to end it all right here right now. I have school, work and not to mention the hell I have to go back home to.


PLEASE SOMEBODY HELP ME
Sep 2019 · 165
Fault
Orion Lesneski Sep 2019
I am the reason why darkness flows through me,
It's like a black pool of nothing,
It's there but at the same time it's not,
I never knew what it meant,
But it came to me one dark night,
It's here because of what others have done to me,
And what I've done to others.
Sep 2019 · 129
Untitled
Orion Lesneski Sep 2019
Darkness,
There is nothing to see,
Pitch Black,
Only darkness surrounds me.

Coldness,
There is nothing to keep me warm,
Really cold,
Coldness surrounds me like a swarm.

No Cure,
There is nothing to help me,
It's a disease I can't get rid of,
And it's killing me.
Sep 2019 · 167
My World
Orion Lesneski Sep 2019
Darkness isn't a great place,
Light never shines, it never appears,
Light doesn't exist in my world,
Darkness has taken over my mind and I love it.
Sep 2019 · 114
Acid Blood
Orion Lesneski Sep 2019
Darkness,
It flows through my body like blood,
It burns my veins feeling like acid.

When I look in the mirror,
I see a shadow,
A shadow of what I've become.
May 2019 · 108
Hell?
Orion Lesneski May 2019
I look out the door,
Darkness.

I look out the window,
Darkness.

Wondering,
Am I in hell?

I walk into my room,
My phone says 2:34 am.
May 2019 · 266
Great day?
Orion Lesneski May 2019
Sitting,
I was,
Enjoying the sun,
You walked by,
And said hi,
I thought why?

Sitting,
I was,
Enjoying the rain,
In pain,
News paper in my lap,
I let loose a laugh,
And shed a tear,
in Section B,
Was your obituary.
May 2019 · 233
Too Hard
Orion Lesneski May 2019
This morning I was at the store,
I heard a guy say this to a cute girl.
"If you were a squirrel, would you help me bust a nut?"
Seriesly, that guy is trying too hard.
May 2019 · 321
Rain
Orion Lesneski May 2019
Yesterday it started raining,
It didn't stop,
Went to work,
It made me quirk.

Today it's misty,
And I love it.
Rain brings the best out of some people.
May 2019 · 291
Soul
Orion Lesneski May 2019
Darkness,
Can’t see anything,
Don’t want to.

Coldness,
Can’t feel anything,
Don’t want to.

Darkness,
Coldness,
Both are a part of my soul.
Having one of those days
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