Go and find yourself in the sky
Where blue covers your eyes
And shadows never show
You follow your heart to a better place
And you just forgot to take your tears with you
You left them by coincidence in your past
Because once someone told you:
Never to be afraid and keep going on
Although it is hard
Sad people will be around you
And make you sad
Although you do not have to be sad
Surround yourself with warm air
And your heart will never freeze again

Sometimes I wish things might be different
Decisions would be easier
Struggling each step would stop
Sleep would be longer
Fights would be over
Tears would fade away

But Sometimes I realize
That not even in my dreams those things happen
So why should I cry
And waste my time complaining
About everything
I dont have
I dont like


Sometimes I should just let go.
And things would be easier.

Do not let anyone destroy your imagination

Also if you are alone

The world you create in your mind

Is the world which will never leave

Only if you wish to

I see you as the devil with others.

But with me you are an angel and I am save in your arms.

I could never see you in a different way.

You may be cruel.

But your cruelty  is for a reason.

So is your good heart still beating.

And very well protected.

C.M.

When the night shows up all ideas seem to be clearer.
When the sun rises then all ideas seem to fade.
And the direction of your view seems to disappear.

Eating does not mean I am hungry

All the time

Sometimes Eating means just

Sharing a minute with someone

A minute where just the two of you sit next to eachother

And enjoy the moment of being together

This imaganition lives in mind I guess.

And like I know that there is no perfection

So there is no perfect breakfast

So there is no breakfast at all.

You start eating without the other.

You fill stressed by the fact that you have to eat.

Why is there no perfection?

Why seems everything difficult and upsets you?

There might be an explanation.

But also if someone will shout it in your ear.

You wont hear it.

Because you chose to be unhappy

…all by yourself.

I realize each day how I became this way.
How I changed from a lost and good person to a true evil one.
I caught myself smiling while others suffer and I do not even feel bad about it.
You opened my eyes and showed me how I can be my true self.
I thank you each day for reminding me of that.
My dearest demon.
I belive that demons are just fallen angels and God burned their wings.
So they may fall on earth to save the lost ones.


C.M.