Faced with darkness
You must be willing to see the light.
You are the only hope I have.
I need to find my light in these dark and lonely days.
When you are far away.

I can grow and will grow.
Because I can never give up on you.
Although my heart hurts too much.
That I cannot even breath .
I am burning from inside.

#All the time…C.M.

Trying to find yourself isn't always the easiest way.
Trying to be someone you're not can work out for a while.
Trying to impress others just not to be alone is an option, but not the best.
Trying to avoid your problems will not make them disappear.
Trying to force someone to love you will not change their feelings, but instead you might be pushed away.
Trying  to hurt yourself will not solve anything and definitly will not take away the pain.
Trying too much actually can make everthing worse.

Instead trying to relax and trying to find yourself should be the solution.

I wake up each day
Thinking of you
You drown my thoughts
Each day
I wake up from my day dream
Wishing to be with you
You catch my breathing air
Each day
I wake up
One day I won't
Not next to you .

I tell you the truth
-Why are you always lying?
I tell you what I feel
-Why don't you care?
I tell you a million times
-Why don't you listen?
I tell so many things
-Why am I talking to myself instead of talking to you?

It's not that I am not sure of myself
I feel nothing these days
I feel empty
Maybe
Not a melody for songs is singing
I am not sad
I feel empty
I am angry
Maybe
It's not easy
Maybe it should be.

Nobody thought I was able to do it.
Nobody thought about it.
Not even a second
Not even a minute
Not even an hour
Nobody trusted my words
Nobody thought I was worth it

Not even me.

Close your eyes
Take a deep breath
Air enters your chest
Feel the wind on your skin
Bloods vessels are pulsing in your head
Do not stop the process
Until
You feel free to just
Go.