You were to one who decided to go.

And yet you crawl back to me.

After I finally thought I was free,

you still think I don't know.


I'm not dumb, I remember what you've done.

I remember how toxic and manipulative you are.

I remember all those emotional scars.

Is this your idea of "fun"?


Manipulating. Making people love you.

Then breaking their hearts and being mean.

Gotta admit, you're pretty good. I fell for your evil scheme.

But know now what I can do.


I'm cutting ties with you my "friend".

And I hope that your nasty plan will end.

Waiting here by the door.

Just hoping for something more.

Friends? Family? Love? Something...

Something that I cannot bring.


Watching and waiting for it to show,

the things that I will never know.

Waiting for the door to open up.

Waiting in silence until I blow up.


I'm waiting for something that'll never come.

It hurts knowing. Hurts till' I'm numb.

Maybe it'll show up one fateful day.

Hopefully. I will always pray.


So I'll wait by this door until I'm,

old and gray and out out time.

What am I supposed to do?

When all I’ve ever was you?

What will I do then?

Will it happen again?

What does it mean to be happy?

Does it mean to smile and be free?

What does it mean. Really.

It is an emotion. Surely.


But I’m curious. What does it mean?

Can’t be something made by a machine.

Because in the end, it’s nothing new.

You can be happy or sad. Up to you.


It’s a choice. No matter what situation

Wether at home or across the nation.

It’s your choice to have get or to lose.

Being happy or sad. What do you choose?

Be positive, go seize the day!

Make all your demons go away.

Stand out, take a chance!

Come on, let's go dance!



Bring out the light in your eyes.

Let's get rid of all these lies.

Smile! Be happy today!

Turn your world vibrant, not grey!


Look, there are friends all around.

From high in the sky to down on the ground.

Turn things around, don't be sad.

You'll realize that living isn't so bad.


Don't think about going away.

Here with me is where you'll stay.

So don't say your life isn't okay.

We'll do this together, what do you say?

When the first love ends,

You feel lost.

You don't want to just be friends.

You fell in love but what did it cost?


Being rejected and pushed away.

Being emotionless. Lonely.

Every hour of every day,

thinking of your one and only.


It may have cost a lot,

But what lesson did you learn?

It's that you're stronger than you thought.

That you can push though. Even when it burns.


When the first love comes to a halt,

A new feeling comes around.

A feeling that it wasn't your fault.

A feeling that no one can put you down.


When the first love is over,

Sadness may feel like forever.

But once you regain your composure,

You're stronger than ever.

Under the countless stars,

I ponder and wait for a clue.

What was I meant to do?

W̶h̶y̶ ̶a̶m̶ ̶I̶ ̶h̶e̶r̶e̶?̶



What was I waiting for?

Will it be worth the wait?

Was it to decide my fate?

I̶ ̶f̶o̶r̶g̶e̶t̶.̶



All I remember was a feeling.

Like I had to wait and see.

Like I had to wait to be free.

W̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶i̶s̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶s̶a̶d̶n̶e̶s̶s̶?̶



Was it for help?

Was it for something more?

Seriously, what was it for?

W̶h̶y̶ ̶s̶h̶o̶u̶l̶d̶ ̶I̶ ̶s̶t̶a̶y̶?̶


I guess I'll wait till' the sun goes down.

W̶h̶y̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶h̶e̶l̶l̶ ̶s̶h̶o̶u̶l̶d̶ ̶I̶ ̶s̶t̶i̶c̶k̶ ̶a̶r̶o̶u̶n̶d̶?̶

I wonder, are you really glad?

Or are you lying? Are you sad?

Understanding people is hard to do.

Especially people like you.


You smile and seem happy all the time.

But when you're alone, you don't seem fine.

I worry a lot. You should know.

I would tell you but my words can't flow.


I worry that you're just lying.

Being my friend and smiling.

I'm worried I'm not good enough.

I'm worried about what we'll become.


And you know, I worry too much.

To what I see to what I touch.

If you need to talk, I'l be here.

So don't worry, I won't disappear.

You were the one who let me down.

You were the one who wasn't there.

You were the one who didn't care.

You were the one who let me drown.


I was the one who paid.

I was the one who tried.

I was the one who cried.

But I was the one who stayed.


All of those things you did to me.

And I didn't bother to flee.