Work and pay taxes get lucky and might make millionaire caches if you step on enough of the masses
A public school fairytale in other words a classic

A degree only guarantees an inquiry
Into the job market not the key to a home as history taught it
We need an audit on who making the real profit, cause the the deposit is getting microscopic
While Garfield’s constantly getting dividends, I’m barely making ends, so when does the dream begin?

Got clips telling me to keep “grindin”
The more you hustle, the more you’ll be buyin
Skip the ad, back to the methodology on how to win at poverty when your effort considered second round, should have gone lottery


Itemize your body for somebody’s hobby, you can’t frown in a five-star lobby
Orchestrate the take from another families plate but when I bankroll too great
the feds wanna play Drake like the family matters to them outside election dates

Turn my life into a stalker dream, and access me via a stream cause I need more green
Even with the increase, the pain doesn’t cease now I’m looking for a new release
Fill the void in my account with mental health taking the mound, at full count
I can’t miss or end up on a “Where are they now?” playlist

Women rights are a issue
But when I read its never on the cover
About our lil queens being stolen
Or the young black moms that
Get no relief so they triple that 9-5
Because when has the world looked
Through their eyes
Viewed as symbol for pleasure
A thimble for being clever
Then receive a cleaver if you try to be a quarterback instead of a receiver

Are you walking Annie
Let me pop a xanny
Before this smooth criminal
Get booked by Danny
Scary sight when they come
Tell Freddy put down the ***
And Jason bring the gang
It’s getting paranormal
So my activity is quiet
Over everything
I not one to hold back
Like Azealia banks
So be prepared to be offended
When I go up in it
Because this sentence
Carries more weight
So wait til the end
I’m a mini gun in call duty
Sprinkle in a lil Duke nuke
Parappa couldn’t even match how I shoot
Bars everywhere like you on a strip
Cause what y’all be spitting
Isn’t sick it’s contagious
How else do you explain
How they exclaim
That they greatest in the game
The reason..the world hasn’t heard my name
So invest in a genius
Not for lyrics
But to eat
Since after I speak
Everybody gone weep
But I’m not into emo rap
So let’s boom bap
And bring back good times
While you huxtables decline
Cause wordsmiths always win
Like I gave a will a pen

Started with gold-plated meals and religious heels
Felt like heaven was real
Then why I am in the mirror using conceal

Maldives By day
Belize when you say
In Madison Square
where you keep me boxed if I stray  
For freedom, I have to start with “May,”

Mother stretched her hand to not get met
Countless reports stopped
after the first check
Your life can’t be in danger if you commute on private jets
Burberry shades when he’s most scary
So my trauma doesn’t connect

As soon as I finally collect from my war wounds, it’s turned into show tunes
Like, “ Where are all these hiding bathrooms, when you are out taking pics in Cancun?”
No matter how viral, there will be an audience that says,” I never a ran mile until my lifestyle went down the Nile.”

I hold your brain
Even though they call you lame
Despite the pain
You use me to stay ahead of the game
But things have changed
I’m getter lighter everyday
Instead of books and paper
I feel metal inside
What could he be doing with maps?
And why all the caps?
You have changed so now
Instead of study hall at 11
We’re at the gun range til 7
I miss our locker so
Now all I know
Is it takes 9 guns till I blow
It doesn’t feel right
Where are you going with this?
I don’t see a enemy insight
But I couldn’t tell if I read what you write
Who is this “they” that will pay?
Answer me please
Or let’s just freeze
We left for school late
Headed for you violent date
Packed with semis and automatics
I hope this doesn’t end up tragic
You walk in the cafe with no intention to eat
I feel you put me down and slowly unzip
I pray that this is only it
Then I hear the shots and the screams too
Why couldn’t you have just said
I needed help Drew

Your ***** finally in the discussion of being an accent to beauty but who gets the cents from all that call to action
It’s not a sister who car is dashing
I’m not bashing but just like Sebastian
Constant comic relief without any green leaf, so why isn’t Franklin the one saying “Good grief”?

The same way they didn’t see robbery when they thought to elect Vivian over Celie, constantly a side note though  our words stay in the quote forever the black knight stuck at the mot, yet I can’t blame a invisible hand, cause it’s my own brothers keeper who would sell my own hand for a couple of bands, it’s framed as integration more like selected representation, still light versus dark creates a fraction that leads to more distraction influenced by our own reactions, quick to cop Italian, German, London and French designers even though they were the main colonizers but were so “woke” it’s all ok if rappers are the buyers so who’s the real lier?

Black business is labeled with asterisks cause we shop like we’re at risk, price tags look different when written by a black wrist, so ingrained that we continue to persist with a system that makes me feel we stuck in the mist, it should be king novel cowritten by Willie Lynch, real or not his words are the tapestry that still affect our reality, but to you another young black casualty,  

Black Lives Matter was removed from main stream chatter like a infection in Americas bladder, me too seems burked not the whole collection just the women in colored section, from trafficking, continued police murders that are baffling, cultural appropriation that reigns supreme so put on your little black dress with your favorite song, From cover to conclusion racial inclusion is just a westworld delusion

I was rewarded with you
A beautiful flower
Pedals that never meddled
Just grew and viewed
Despite my attitude being rude
You were there when I became president
Watch me sworn in
Only to leave you while I win
You shrink a little but didn’t die
If I said I knew your loyalty
That be a lie
because when I was mr Knight
You stood by my side
When I was trying to get rides
To late night water slides
Your glowed dimmed
But I just press sim
Time seemed to bolt past me
Despite what you saying
I never thought it turn crappie
My friends disappeared
Like a thanos snap
No gauntlet could fix that mishap
My flower begging for my love
I so happily declined
Because the world around me
Kept me quiet like a mime
So her pedals began to fall
Since outside my life was her wall
I had all the likes
Which turned into tikes
Then a social feed
That ended with me under a ****
I had no where to go
Except low
as I sunk
Into my life’s final form
Which was a beautiful tragedy
But I guess call it gravity
Because you stayed down with me
Even though I rarely gave you water
Or sunlight
Hell I even let your soil turn white
No matter what
You knew I was right for you
So when the wind blew away
My dream
Your reality of us being together
Made life once again serene

Snakes with two lines
Influence rhymes
To be made with drug signs
But who cares black man
Get them dimes
At the expense of our kind
Sellout sellout sellout
Got our fabric cloned for their form
Then call it a new uniform
Despite the source not cited
They never get indicted
Sellout sellout sellout
Hit that ticket catch a flick
Witness the robbery of our slapstick
Our style our jokes our swagger
It resonates when they imitate
Sellout sellout sellout
I don’t blame the man
Or the white hand
Or the illuminati band
Ultimately it’s our folks
That spends the cash
So we always crash

I lived once ago before death
Came and took my soul away
My hoodie is stained with blood and ash
I am so lost they worry as well
To how we got to this hell
I ask them stories to reclaim my brain
One girl says she was on a date
The man she met was nice and sweet
Until it was a quarter til eight
He grew very strange and became irate
He pulled her to the back o no
Quickly unzipped his pants to ******
She felt so much pain and shame
After he stopped he drew a gun
Cocked it
shot her
then smiled
and run
How horrible I thought to die like that
I asked a boy no older than 6
He said he is here but don’t know why
His story was like a newspaper blackeye
Playing with blocks while mom cook grits
The door opened up his brother walked in
To give a toy that he always liked
It was an army man just like his dad
But then that’s when his shirt turned plaid
His shirt stained with red lines all over
He grew real cold his mother in tears
It seemed his brothers gang life came home
Two stories with endings that ached my dome
As I walked past a tv I saw
My truth being told to me
“17 year-old walking back from school
With music in ears the hood on top
However his life would see a drop
A man called in with a compliant
And the cops came looking for a mess
But found a boy who they drew at
Behind his back their guns are raised
4 stop movings
0 warning shots
and then
Un phased
they unloaded their glocks
He fell another live lost.”
My heart
It drops
now I see
why the stain
We are all victims of violence or fear
The world just throws us away like beer
I miss my mom I miss my color
I miss my skin I miss my hair
I miss knowing that I knew love
Now I know my life was never
Going to fit in this world like a
Hand in a glove

I drive in fear
The roads are cemeteries
Because I know their near
My fate never varies
I don’t have to swerve
Or run a light
I’m on their shooting preserve
And I’m a dear at night
They say I’m dangerous
So they must fire to survive
But when they endanger us
The world takes five
I tremble as I start my car
Buckle my belt to go
I pray their far
Or else become a cnn cameo
Call my wife mom and kid
I pull out the parking lot
I rather get a bid
Then a buckshot
Three lights in
Two miles left
One costly sin
I turned with no signal which is like theft
The chilling cold blue came quick
I pray to god and text goodbye
Because with just a snap
I can die

Stare at me all day
Just poke and click away
You couldn’t make it without me no way
I hold your money and friends
I tell you all the trends
You would never leave me in the end
I could find you love or the plug
Even help to fix your rug
I stay in your hand like a drug
I make you look fleek
Take you to your peak
But if I die you go weak
I control your car, lights, and fridge
Get you over a bridge
You cry if I cracked a smidge
Your kids beg to have me
Will be salty like the sea
If you took away their glee
I’m always bought and sold
I will never get old
Because you can’t break my hold
I was made to call and that’s it
However thanks to some much witt
Now I’m humanity’s only fit

Kendra is a star student and athlete
She is fifteen,brown, tall and has long hair
Every guy wants to beat
But she would never share
One party one night one guy
She let him fix her drink
He knew how to lie
Slipped her a xan I think
Nows she is in the sunken place
Numb to his force
Tears roll down her face
As he begins *******
He gets up his evil deed done
She lays there hoping to forget
Weeks past she told no one
Her stomach the threat
Then she took the test
positive as she feared
Her mind unclear
About what to do from here
She is Christian so the answer is simple
Be a kid with a kid that’s not hard
But soon she will pop like a pimple
Can she live with being scarred
The thought never crossed her mind
Unless death was the case
Could she really decline
A offer from a holy place
What would mom say
What about my pastor
This is the only way
To make it go away faster
Is she selfish for wanting better
For righting his wrong
She cries in her dads sweater
Alone and confused how long
Til the heartbeat comes
And the shape grows
Then you see thumbs
No it has to be done she knows
She takes four buses on a cold Saturday
Walks in the door to horror
Smell of decay and saddens weigh
Girls crying as the attendant ignores her
Eyes full of hate and dismay
Realizing three signatures signs a life away
She walks to the back feet so heavy
Now on the table the moment see feared
Face to face her tears burst like a levy
A blueberry a appeared
Every fiber telling her to go
To take the risk and figure it out
Two doctors walk in and she sets her eyes low
the pain makes her shout
One hour passes before she leaves
Her mind empty like her soul
She greaves but still believes
See after everything she was still whole
In the end her choice saved and ended life
Not out of hate but through faith
She could live with strife
Because it was her wraith
Her body was hers again
And one day when she chooses
Her mate and has that special date
Where the view is
Full of joy
her love will circulate
To see her choice cultivate

I die every time
you cross my mind
I wish I hate you
because loving you is hell
I rather go blind then
Not see u well
We meet when I was eight
From there I knew love was real
You keep me warm
through all of life’s chill
We grew up
But our bond stayed young
Your my ear on a hard day
My blanket on a lonely night
Everything was perfect
until you lost your life
Other people just saw you
But I saw a wonderful thing
To just call you human
Would insult your brain
You feel me better than anyone
You know when to speak
You know when to roll over
And you know when stay
I never forget the day you left
We drove to the office
Where they made it clear
Die here or die at home
My heart and mind tore in two
Logic and love
two words I wish I never knew
I held back my tears like a ****
Fixed my face
hugged and kissed your head
so deeply as to make your dreams sweet
Before you leave
I was alone as I watched
the grim reaper take you away
The look in your eye haunts me til this day
I just hope that
forgiveness and understanding
Was in her brain the day I choose
Your life away

Get up and put on your shackles
Then hop in the rat race raffle
Just make sure your gaining capital
Cause thats the only cheese
That we bend to at ease
And they know that geez  
Who’s is they?My apologies
I assumed obviously with the hypocrisy
That a 9-5 would get the economy
Cause we the horse hooked to the chariot
That parade around the one percent
Then take home nothing but lint
Yet still expected to pay rent
But that message don’t get sent
So suffer and eat fast food slime
That food ain’t real
Why do you think they call it a happy meal?
Cooked to perfection cause
If your mouth stay full
Then change can’t come about
Can I just get out?
From dinner to the playground
Our kids are manipulated by their sound
Who you thinks controls the radio?
Not no tidal
Cause the real idol
Never show themselves to a rival
So they get dummies to bellow out the trap
Then expose every flaw
They have so they feel fat
But the torture doesn’t end
Since they need the youthful win
They introduce a blend
Pharmacy ingenuity
A tablespoon of promiscuity
Then fill the rest up with celeb foolery
With the double cup
To make sure they drink it up
So who’s the real female pup?
Enough
That’s why I whopped Willie Lynch ***
Cause to do better I have to beat the past
If you feel same then open your brain
Read before opening any social site
Cause they money comes from Carnage
No not no open mic but actually
The same people that made America
Great again you see
So misinformation is our assassination
Next unify cause it’s just you and I
Who cares if you like dresses and still a man?
If you willing to stand then you can hold my hand
Cause I’m over all the hate
We can make the world a better place
Stop waiting for the government
To make its case
Men if we going to get somewhere
Then let’s not stare or chase underwear
Our queens need they crown
But we can’t have a kingdom
If your **** is used as a noun
So if you with me then grab the semi
And pop open the Remi
Cause 2019 y’all gone feel me

Get out or peel
Cause the sunken place is real
Even at a family meal
My passion for isolation
Isn’t wrong
try being Bambi
And the gun
Then tell your son
Why you always run
But let me rewind
Cause Nas needs a retake
My passion for isolation
Needs a dissertation
So you can get my full explanation
Simply put
my deer and I
Going to put you snakes in a ninja
Now ****** hit the blender
And tell that ginger with the shakes
That your cyclops can die
like a great scott
But back to the plot
The blood in my veins
Is full of spaghetti lanes
Cause at every junction
Is my destruction
My last name is stained
So I will break the glass
Then piece it back
With a x cause my family tree
Needs a axe cause
They act but only on a razzie level
So lets give the gremlins revel
Cause I know the devil
Fires and brimstone at home
Y’all see why I rather be alone?

I didn’t have fans like fran
Or friends like Ross
So why do I feel lost
Since in friendship I always get
Mossed
They have a Patton on my name
So they **** at it to drain
My money always generous with bands
They bless hands
but y’all don’t stand
Like your a Kaepernick man
Cause y’all see me as Stan
So let me help you understand
Dear my friends that always had my back
I hope you eat this kinda like snack
Cause once you see this you might here
A smack
Let’s hop in you hoopty dare or die?
I was being weird but so what
I’m careless guy
So let’s drive to train track park
Then see my reply
Cause I wouldn’t even had killed them
That’s for it Hennessy to decide

Last is Venus which ruled my penius
But ruined my genius
I had life by the throat
but its me too now
So I have to listen to her and not poke
Curves are fun and breast are too
But what happens when they crash into you
Not a Emmy more a semi
Cause I wrote the screenplay
that got you remi
That got you furs coats and houseboats
But you keep taking tokes
Welp I hope you choke
I take 4 branches from my tree
Then add 12 fallen leaves let’s see
That’s 16 but I need 2 nuts to roast
That’s 18 then add 2 more let’s toast
That’s 20 or lions a dream
Then burn it down cause
I had to Barry them to save my team
So my conviction
is pick up your eviction
I’m already past it like Drake after Quentin

I made a angel fall
The ground shock in awe
As I exposed it’s flaw
It loved me like no other
It saw me as no brother
Only fault was to know my name
I saw from the clouds it’s fame
Perfect wings and eyes that were holy
To bad my soul was a goalie
You could never get me to see the light
Even if I had your sight
I knew I was hurting you the whole time
But being around you was to divine
Your hair fell , your glow dimmed
Our time was being trimmed
Your back scared with the knives I placed
But you still let me have my taste
You gave me your only gift
So I could treat it like a shift
No feathers or halo to boot
Tears of blood and skin like a dried fruit
All I had to do was
Love you like you loved me
But instead I watched you fall
And stepped over your to go ball
Your arm stretched out for help
Praying I save you kindly
I walk past you so blindly
I wish I saw what u saw
When our eyes meet
To you I must be godly and worth it all
To me your just another angel on my wall

Some people would call you a ballon
That’s just more room for me to swoon
Your round and that’s bad
The world see pounds so sad
Because your flawless in your walk
But they stay with salt
Quick to shame you for your choice
Like we need their voice
Whether thick chubby curvy or fat
All that means to me
Is where I’m going to pick you up at?
They can keep there
Loose leaf paper chick
Her attitude make me sick
Who is nothing but hair and eyes
Always focused who shares and why?
I can’t lie
At times they get my attention
But if you jiggle then you get a extension
My ladies who are bad with good weight
Can always have a date
Because your body is my meal
And I always eat two plates

O how evil can I get
All I need is Love
Just so I can hit
I need arms to caress
And a head that nods
No tongues just lips
Don’t need no talking back
Just sit pretty like a Cadillac
Hips so wide and thighs so big
A ***** that makes me grab a cig
I don’t care if your into me
Your mines I made you right?
You didn’t learn til me
Hell you couldn’t breath if I leave
So stop actin like I’m not Steve
To your jobs, I took the bite
So you wouldn’t fall
But dare to call me controlling
Where’s your strings
I didn’t make you not see your friends
You just used your brain
Realized I’m always a saint
No breeze can ******* away
You say I’m abusive how
We both said sorry
And I only threw one punch
Anyway we’re better besides
I was drunk
Ok
So why you packing
Why you crying
Why you say I’m lying
I’m here for you
just do what I say
And we will be together forever
So I will grab that
Ak
Ok
So you won’t ever
Runaway
Bae....

6:30 am
time to hit fifty
before I hit the door
Wash away yesterday’s grind
Hoping today has more sunshine
Thrown on clothes darker than my mind
Hit the App that controls my income
Unemployment still ain’t come
So I move somebody’s lunch like a ransom
Even Ranch and Dim Sum
Cause bills ain’t immune
Morning, night and afternoon
Even when my life has gone National Lampoon
By 1:00 pm 45 miles til empty
Stretching the gas past E
I don’t need Jesus grabbing the wheel unless he putting ten on pump three
Turn the clock back before 3/16
Back before covid19
was the fiend
That has me addicted to this gig economy scene
6:00 pm refill
before the dinner rush
Helping Susie make the home like Im the one who cut off the crust  
Disgust with my lack of opportunity piled higher
So I’m burning more woods than California wildfires
Since I’m constantly on the wire
Applying To be more despite the Ravens
Moving in Closer directed by Wes Craven
Scary combination for a brother just trying to get out with his family
11:00 pm taxi as a luxury to another essential needed for my daughter
Whose father fights his introductory
Instinct to be extinct maybe it’s depression,
“What do You think?”
I ask the Waffle House waitress
Whose facelifts to expel “ the bill
$19.86,” with straightness
No hiatus dropdown 30
With the hurry hoping for a better season
For us both Like curry
Too many Wiseman on my team  
so my future is blurry
So the star I seek I see only week to week
How unfortunate but no time for grieve
It’s 4:00 am only two hours to relieve
Swiftly I snore, snooze the alarm button
The real horrorcore

I’m deadlier than aids
Make you cut someone with a blade
All the time used for trade
Men would **** their brother
One after another
Cuz I’m like no other
There taught without me your not a man
Cut down by an invisible hand
Without me they have no command
So they sweat, bleed and die
But why
All for a capitalist lie
My women are no better
Out here getting wetter
For a investment letter
Willing to be a product for me
But would run if you see
What she could do on a knee
First for a car then college and her son
Now she hooked on me like a gun
Shaking for her next bank run
The kids are truly the worst off
They cling to there’s folk like a moth
And learn that they couldn’t afford broth
So now they dream about green
Because the streets ain’t clean
Your pops up on the screen
Over a ****** scene
Mom drinks lean hoping it’s a dream
All the while there child sees
In their mind I’m the only solution
That equals restitution
Before they die of pollution
I’m sad that I cause this much pain
Make folks go insane
Even be inhumane
All for a capital gain

Bullets with my coffee/Aks on the table/I don’t see a problem with me being cable/spray your house to get the smell out/cause human life I don’t care about/AR-15 with a scope/I use it even its joke/entry wounds for those who assume/that my methods are extreme/when guns are as American as the dream/from early days/guns were used to get land, milk and honey/so why y’all look funny/when I shoot a bunny/cause at the end it all equals money

Strict gun laws?/naw we need to bare arms/before the only thing left is bear arms/NRA said it best/guns don’t **** people **** people **** people/I take one step forward/guns don’t **** people it relaxes all evil/cause mental health isn’t pulling the trigger/it just says go bigger/ so I need my assault riffles and extended mags/why not/it’s not like I put it in a bag/then carry out plan all because people don’t understand/then get on a stand/just to say I’m not your man/while y’all make a movement and shout/no body cares/because lobbyists have the most clout

A void in space
Silence in a dark room
My chest aches for it to be full soon
I wonder if I will ever feel
How it is to phone home
To know I’m not alone
My head tells me its a lie
It must be venom in my eye
Because I feel like I should die
I know I’m sick because half the time
I like it the feeling of loneliness
No one can hurt me
No more room for knives in my back
The blood has turned black
Disgusted by my lack to fight back
How do you know when I seem the same
I still crack a smile
Tell a joke or two
Unfortunately the punchline is me
Unknown to you
So I will keep taking hooks
Because at the end of the day
Nobody feels me
No matter who looks

Put on my guy fawkes
But I’m not trying to buck
With my uncles tie
Amplify the reason we occupy
Sit at the brain drain
Until 12 then they tell
My screen to go low
The scene has to glow
But wrestling has real tones
So my pitch stays in check
Since they moved my lunch early
Saying F four
Starving I went on E by six
Got back they ask “what you a G four?”
Stunned I said “what’s all the hate for?”
Maybe I should check my mate more
I start my day with plenty
Apply the fennty then bundles too
I’m a controversial artist
But that’s what Georgians do
Keep my fit in mind
Cause my fashion will define
How I get my grind
From using my mind?
To what’s behind?
Then watch power go away
Like ghost started spinning clay
Cause my voice in this place
Doesn’t get a choice
Like putin misplaced the suggestion box
But I’m a thot since I’m black
So they cut me a lot of slack
By putting me in the back
Where I stay at for a sack
When we finally meet
Bring nev and crew
Cause I always look at her like she’s new
My armor cracked from the war outside
No guns and lives just pens and lies
Used to increase our demise
At least I have you
And you have I
This a tru story
We couldn’t tell no lie

She use to be strong enough to cover me
When the devil peeked a view
In the summer
Now she a walker numb to her pain
Like a wife who plays dumb to drunk dialing and lols
Knowing none of those calls or text went to her cell
Shes on fire from his smoke
Blowing out ignorance her intake
deliverance from hades that
Plagues her from the Amazon to the Euphrates
But he rather talk Zion being a potential phenom
Instead of air quality becoming a dichotomy between lobbyists and kids playing without a health risk
He tears what holds your beauty together
Every article tossed aside
Headline reads destruction
But he rewords and calls it “needed construction”
When improvements are made its only in his favor while you keep him safe like a good neighbor
You are losing your cool, temperament
Rising but it isn’t surprising the sentiment
He provides resides undisclosed
Since your only valuable without clothes
So your mouth stays closed
No man is different from China, USA, and Iran
Your health can melt over there wealth or at least thats how they all portrayed
Since your the only one for him but he acts like he can draft another Trae
So you just let him be young and
dumb but the path ahead won’t leave either numb

Since that door slammed
I been a ram
Running through *****
Like Todd Gurley
Rocking Hurley
And traveling worldly
Yet I still remember your giggle
When Cardi would wiggle
Next to offset like a fiddle
Being played but the riddle
Where Corey Smith came from?
I thought you liked ****** dark as ***
Ok I get it upgrade and get a six S
I’m going to the supreme alphabet like SZA
Success
More like isosceles mess
But I still wish you best

I been in your dms
To see what you say
If I type “duck me?”
And you reply “Lick before you see

It would be so quick
If I just lost it
And popped it
Just count one two three
And I be free
But it would be messy
Ok let’s see
How bout if I take xans and oxy
Then I would leave peacefully
Only the supply is high
How bout a tree and a rope
Like the country white folk
I’m sure to pass then
But if the tree breaks I have start over again
Why isn’t life thinking this much
I would be happy if it gave me a crutch
Hey...
When did I start bleeding like a lake
My wrist open like a door for a date
Did I actually seal my fate
Probably not let me just wait

You separate us more than a line
You created more divide than time
Once I wear your I’m labeled
No matter what I do
They always look at you
I wear you as status
Too show my wealth
Even though you **** my health
If I don’t buy you then I’m not myself
Because everyone else like me has you
How dare I be something else
I’m stuck up if I turn my nose to you
Or called lame
All because my jump man
Doesn’t have a number or name
Some would call you a staple
Hell even a right of passage
But all I see blood and havoc
Yet they all walk past it
All for there feet
While many died before it came overseas
I hate you and I pray you go away
But it will never happen
Because we will **** anybody
For bread we can’t eat any day
- [ ]

Hallway filled with shoves
With teachers that only shrug
Like they can’t see me
being treated as a bug
Verbally I’m pelted with insecurities
Despite my maturity through the obscurity
My eyes closed are the only time I feel purity
Insert my dream state
While I control my fate
Pain starts to decimate
While my imagination starts to escape
The pink clouds appear
With blue colored grass near
Unless I kept my eyes closed
I don’t know if I can keep up this
Happy masquerade pose

Fat *** to twig
No matter if I wear a wig
I’m still a bullies guinea pig
Used for your amusement
While cuts on my thighs become rent
That I pay so I can feel repent
From the words you invent
My world goes dark
So reality goes in park
Flying around like I’m stark
My image isn’t a dart board
That makes me bored so I dart
Because not feeling is how it starts
Maybe my life needs to depart
So people can get my art

He was my knight in shining armor
To bad he a violent farmer
Pruning my leaves he such a charmer
Let the night go on
I made be a ding ****
Cause my bell stay rung
But with no sight in my life
I can finally grab that colorful new knife
Head upstairs and get close to him
As his beautiful wife then slowly
Slice open his throat like wildlife
Now my fantasy has taken hold
With my four year old walking in as if wearing a blindfold
I rise up from the head of the household
To my child so cold, I wish I controlled
How this story unfold

The crackle from the chicken fry
Makes me want to spy
Where my momma lies
Knowing that dinner isn’t to far behind
She a athlete with the stove
Multitasking while I drove her insane
She always exclaimed how my laughter
Could help more than her pastor
To bad she was married to a raptor
He come home stumbling and fumbling
Ready to pick a fight
Then slap us both
Because the Knicks didn’t win tonight
Her screams filled my ears
And his aggression haunted my dreams
I know I created my life
But he was instrumental to the scheme

By twelve I had too cook on my own
Mom worked three jobs
So I stayed home alone
Sides were my speciality
So rice and potatoes became a formality
Light with salt but heavy on herbs
Put it on medium high so they are superb
Cheap but filling cause I got to go
This light bill won’t get paid
Unless I’m on the street of Chicago
Flipping packs like I’m Kodak
So I never miss a beat
Make thousands a week
So I got to watch what I eat
Cause the cops stay outside
With a crowd of eyes
In a circle that supplies
Info that leads to my demise

Had to move down south
Since the snakes came out
Trapping with the best
That’s what makes me feel blessed
Sugar laced tea with a lemon accent
Every sip I take
Lowers my descent into torment
Too bad my grass wasn’t green
So when I walked out
It was a Boyz n the Hood scene
Loss Ricky yesterday
Then Tre left anyway
So ice I had no choice but to melt
Without help he had to save himself
So no surprise when cops arrived
Charges that could fill a Bible
That’s why I knew that jail was coming
Like mail just subtract the snail

Let the days begin to end
As the trail leads to a government win
Another bad guy locked away
While the real criminals continue to play
So my sentence gets raised
By decades but I’m not amazed
Hood kingpins get killed
While political eels continue to  
Slither and steal
But my appeal is denied
So my life flashes on by
With death ready to say goodbye
I remember very little
My mind the size of a skittle
The only thing that makes me rise
Is the last thought
Of how my mother’s chicken
Keeps me alive

He was my knight
That sweep me off my feet
He was sweet and tall
He would always spoil me at the mall
Well at lest after I fall
He buys me flowers
He walks me to school
He treats my body like his personal tool
He cooks dinner
He cleans the house
He said I wouldn’t be bleeding
If i was quiet like a mouse
He has a good job
His family loves me
Too bad after they leave he will
He will be Jekyll with no where to Hyde
My mom says it’s a part of marriage
My sisters looks in disparage
My father thinks he’s a prince in a carriage
I just hope he doesn’t cause me another miscarriage

Here we go again
Another notch on my belt
For a game I can never win
For you it’s the pleasure and sensation
For me freedom is my only destination
Plagued by depression and pain
Held together by insecurities in my brain
Only the feeling of flesh eases everything
No one understands my hunger
they think it’s just my Y chromosome
But here is where I don’t feel alone
No matter the cost or who I lost
I need your body so I know I’m boss
It’s a sickens that I can’t treat
The only prescription I have
Is more of me inside of
Whoever that I seek
At least for that week

May’s skin radiant black gold/she is 22 young and has a vibrate soul/ headed to college but partied today/ she was built for IG in every way/but her legs glue shut/only a ring open them up/she put on bright dress to match her press/she regarded by many/loved by even more/but they want her to be *****/what for? /Please may don’t open that door

May walked in/dripping everywhere/so you know they got to stare/to try get her underwear/momma ain’t raise no fool/
To drool over no ******* tool/but she still a kid/so toys get her attention/that’s why you check when your cup go missing/listen to them scheme/how to make May into a *******/first they got her alone/second told her friends to get on/third locked the door and preceded to be grown

There hands start reaching/while she started preaching/“Stop, I said NO, Please, I just want to go, I’m not part of this show,I thought you were my bro?”/ they torn her bright red dress in half/to create path/to reach her bubble bath/no 90s rnb/ just ****** acting savagely/there act done/but the play continues to run

Now she stumbling and failing/ the party don’t stop cause she balling/ she walked away abused/with warped views/but the worst news/ she was pregnant/farther unknown/but treated like she wanted to bone/so there was no remorse when she college dropped/her family saw her as a thot/forced to work a lot/ but her baby grew/but never knew/then had kids that turned a new/chapter cause they had laughter/heck one became a pastor/the other a teacher with a master/degree so the apple didn’t fall to far from the tree/as you see her great grandkids killed it too/amazing how the devil can bless you/now she is old and wise/in her families eyes/she will always rise/cause May was a loaded prize

I love a two piece
Like the next guy
But why is that her only
Ally to access the most high
I can remember cups sizes
And types of lingerie
But the real secret
Is why I can’t turn on my radio
Without hearing *** everyday?
I mean gardening is cool
But **** use another tool
Shake this
Shake that
Get on your on knees
And bend that back
Now just imagine
That one day she gone be a mom flashback
With kids like you
However if she ain’t ******* ****
Then you kick her out
How true


***** on Nikki
******* on Remi
Why can’t some of them be skinny?
Cause long hair and no tummy
Is the best game gin rummy
Fill your **** with cement and more
Don’t forget silicon will open the door
Then a ig model life is in store
Too bad you won’t make it past
Without being called a *****
But they don’t see the cuts on your thighs
The finger in your throat
All because the world takes it as a joke
But for you there love and attention
Is all you wishing?cause men never listen
I’m not dissing I’m stating facts
Our queens are dieing
But not because of Macs
Or for stacks
Simple put no man loved her drawbacks
Or insecurities
So to her plastic surgery
Was the cure for these
Just know I love you all
For your cellulite
And Tiger strips
I cherish your original prototype

This my final destination
Twisted ending illustration
Because i feel so forsaken
I denied your sensation
Like a awkward kiss on a first date
But now my fate is late with
No chance to wait
When did I get on my knees? Please?
I know how to sneeze
But not how to say... cheese
I joke but clasp my hands
Hope he will understand
Why the only master plan
Is to feel his front man
I have always know your their
Like saying my prayers
But I didn’t get anywhere
So I decided my neck stay bare
My life has turned grim
So why should I bother him?
I got a brother or two
That can help me through
See you already know that
So what’s really true ?
Cause you have let me down
When my mother died
I cried and asked why
When I lost my job
I had to sob while you were in Punjab
When the bottle didn’t work
Nor a girl that twerk
Your voice was short
My head is low and my life is in hell
I ask
No
I demand
No
I submit to your request
If it will help me be blessed
Or at least less stress
Then please give me a test
I can’t see you but know your eyes
I can’t touch you but know your wise
I can’t hear you yet I know we have ties
So just shoot me past Haley
Cause I’m coming thru
Flying straight to
Wherever you lead me too

I wonder if my late night plays
Will ever be relayed
To a generation that is slayed
In my play every black home
Has two stories, a fence
and a dad that won’t roam
Their cars ain’t all chrome
No bars on the windows
No grandmas saying lord knows
When cops shows
There are more colors than grey
No dope boys on the corner cliche
Or dogs on chains barking to get away
The colors blue and red stand for a flag
The black youth aren’t in a body bag
And pants never sag
Black men aren’t scary and mean
The system isn’t their adversary or
The silver screen
They don’t fill cemeteries nor chase
The color green
Black women have a name
Not ***** or **** used as shame
No fakes buts for their fame
The son has more hope
Then shooting a ball and ****** bout dope
He aspires to use a stethoscope
The daughter is strong and free
She can either write a song or get a PhD
Her future is whatever she wants it to be
Their ain’t thugs on tv our color
Not every sitcom has one strong black single mother
Or get drunk and fight one another
Gun violence is a joke
the police don’t chock our folk
Our music don’t promote drug use
And Gucci don’t ******
Drivebys are now hi’s
Every family is woke and wise
It’s sad to know
That this world won’t ever exist
Because the world outside
Is to nightmarish

He looks so nice and well mannered
But nobody knows his standard
He hates so much color
I think he lives in black and white
Because if your brown
He will erase you out of spite
My next door terrorist
Has a pool and family
Real American dream
However his nightmares
would make you scream
He envisions a world where his people are on top
As if we were the ones taking a shot
To prideful to admit he’s wrong
He gladly **** you
If you sang your own song
My next door terrorist
Is loved by the neighborhood
They say he is sweet
Don’t let the blonde hair fool you
He’d cut me open like meat
His room riddled with posters of trump
And flags of hate
With one mission in mind
To eliminate
My next door terrorist
Is considered shy and shut in
Misunderstood some would say
Would they still call him that
If he used a gun to spray
And exterminate my race away?
My next door terriost
We all know to well
He was bullied or needed a hug
So why am I under his shoe like a bug
My next door terrorist  
Goes to church and sings in the choir
My life and many other like mine
Is all he desires
So to my next door terrorist
I’m sure you will go free
Because no matter what you do
I’m the only threat the world
Will ever see

It started small, like can I ask you a favor? Too,
You want me in your mouth,
lifesaver
You promised I wasn’t
a new flavor
Yet I was minor to you
never major

Meetups after school,
drinking at your pool,
classmates thinking that I’m cool
not realizing I’m some pervert addiction nickname, Juul

Using my Maturity to get by the insecurity  
Ensuring me that I’m different for my age
Purity in your voice starts to disengage
When my clothes start to fade

Ready to tell peers about our late-night hobbies
The details I describe make them jealous like they want to rob me
Recall every instance where I lost innocence feeling less like Rocky
More like Paulie here comes impotence

Three therapy sessions a week
Two affirmations to keep me at my peak
One time for me to remember you and start to blame my physique

I need one
One love
One person who understands me best
One who will pass the test
One that will never shy
One I can wake up to and say hi
I need one
One believer
One I know has faith
One that sees me finishing the race
One who goes all in
One where no matter what I win
I need one
One friend
One laugh that makes me cry
One smile to keep me high
One yin to my yang
One when I’m down makes me sang
I need one
One beauty
One skin that radiants the sun
One gaze which shoots like a gun
One body built for me
One with imperfections I love to see
I need one
One year I will meet u
One month we will kiss
One week later and I might miss
The one day where I have bliss

My sound has always offended ears
As if when I speak fire comes out
As if a black with grammar brings fears
Like when i said door instead of
Dough they shout
Afraid of my speech they put me down
Call me sounding white
just because I use a proper noun
Can’t even say my name without spite
My attire gets mocked as well
No Jordan’s no rip jeans no chains
They even hate my smell
I dress for myself not for eye strains
Music taste are greats from another era
Some rock blues jazz and rap
It burns them to hear like
they need aloe vera
As if all black ppl trap
I have a dad so I’m anomaly
They can’t get why mom has a degree
Like having a dad needs a homily or
Education for women isn’t a reality
My voice shocks my oppressor
He sees it as me trying to be like him
When did it become illegal
to be black with a professor
Or speak intelligently is only for them
Afraid that my tongue
means I can’t be controlled
Then I’m a threat to the world
So they make it appear as if pronunciation
Is only white gold
And the only reason I speak this way is because I’m swirled
To articulated for my skin
And to dark so it’s sin
I wish the way I speak didn’t matter in the end

I know it’s easy to let it go
Just look at everyone you know
They toss it around like play-do
Only to realize there are worst things than being a ***
We are all born with it at zero
A fresh car with no dents
I’m not trying to be a hero
Cuz I know how it torments
To feel left out or still a kid
No matter your stance
Or even if you parents forbid
You will seek out romance like it hid
Give it away fast and
watch you get hooked
On flesh no matter the host
Your body will stayed booked
While they’ll go ghost after the late night toast
If that’s not the case you can feel a roast
Without jokes but it burns the same
Have you regretting at most
That you weren’t a pro at the night game
Why not throw a baby in the mix
That’s what got me picked
Somedays I rather hang from a crucifix
Than bear the fact that I’m an addict
Strung out if I didn’t feel a nut or hear a scream
My life is a psa for the
world reckless *** can breed
The feeling might make you feel supreme
But Diana Ross would say
read before
you speed
into losing
respect all for
Catching or giving a seed

The thought hurts so bad
That the game has turned sad
To take away a voice
And replace it with silence
Who let that go
Who let me know
When freedoms are allowed
Only conditional
The insane overseer controls his puppets
And to know that I use to have strings
Tossed twisted pulled and pushed
My career was a slave dream
Filled with a combine built like a auction
A contract like the slaves just with more change involved
Whips are the fines, jails, and blacklist
That you eagerly get assigned
Dare you speak without a sheet
Or with your mind
I kneel for injustice
I kneeled to be free
I kneeled to show my struggle
But to you a unthankful **** is all you see
I raise my hand for help but you rather me melt then disturb your selfish wealth
You must see the whole frame I love starry night but van goh was insane
To only see the vision and fall halfway thru
Football is tied to Jim Crow in the expression view
Owners spread bigotry,and lie on the truth
Expand dollars to shrink everything we do
So since we can’t say no to cops killing,
Wrongful jail dates or the rigid two step back and one half step forward life
I won’t watch the nfl
I won’t partake in a game
I wouldn’t even tag they twitter name
So this is my hurtful goodbye
To something that was so high
I wish you could see it with my eye

I get hot a lot
Not like a thot
So when I see flames
I go insane
Like bs replacing cs effect me
But my red pill disagree
It keeps me level
Even though it’s the work of the devil
My arm broke
Because of a dumb joke
So the doctor says “let’s go blue”
I Popped it and it was true
My pain went away
But depression decided to stay
Now I have the blues everyday
Maybe I should go back on Monday
“Is your face real low?
Then give yellow a go.”
Says el chapo with a degree
Now I’m high like a jetson tree
At least I’m happy now
Also I don’t sleep somehow
The box was green
Read “take one and sleep serene”
My body felt untamed and strange
Like I did a soul exchange
I don’t care about anything
I couldn’t feel a bee sting
I wish I could stop
But that’s the plot
To keep my visits on going
Since the money overflowing
I just want the striking to cease
Or my sarcastic demise to bring peace
Otherwise my life is a jigsaw puzzle piece

The brightest lights tend to consume
Put in the spotlight so my character is assumed
Yet you won’t learn me til
I’m exhumed  
Cause my legacy is more important than a therapy room

Endorsed as I’m source for what stops your scroll
So my role is funded if I never break the code
Interact, react, or enact either way dollars rolling in
Not to the masses but to certified evil overseers who entrust it
to their next of kin

Thinking your pen game going to help others with their pain
But to maintain you have to insert the product name
Keep telling yourself that’s it only one more album, only one more line
Don’t worry your Grammy’s gone pile up over time
Refine your story, tell your side
but it’s hard to accept like a late Valentine

It started with good intentions even some honorable mentions about your conscience decisions
But what's an activist without comma sense?
Homeless begging for cents or at least that’s what  they present
So I only get to wear the suit if play Superman but never Clark Kent

My fix can’t be craved
My hunger is never waived
I’m so enslaved
By noon here comes my hookup
Time to shoot up
Thick, long hair, little waist
Makeup all on her face
She is as hollow as a dead tree
Only skill is to be on a knee
But the drug is leaving me
My hand shakes
Sweat lakes
Stomach aches
Until the clock strikes seven
Now I’m in heaven
Oxy, lean, xan , hurry Kevin
I need to feel no pain
Clear the clouds in my brain
Put life in my veins
It’s only temporary
Then I go get merry
Head to my library
Inside green papers only
That way I’m never lonely
Because Benjamin is my *****
My day comes to end
I’m full on my sin
Well until the sun comes again

She was teasing to the eye
Flirted with my mind
Kissed my soul
Shes everything I want
But she is destined to take my life
I know because what we are doing
Even a presist wouldn’t want to know
My sin burns me on the inside
To know it’s out of my hands now
She the owner and I’m the qb
I get on a knee only if she needs
My body her toy she plays with at will
I see her and know
pleasure is all she desires
no matter what time we meet
Her body soothes the monster but
Stirs the ****** in me
I can’t believe how free I would be
If her lustful curves didn’t speak
Parts of me wants all of you
But the world wouldn’t want that view
So I have to take my 38 percent
And smile right thru
You admitted that you share my fantasy
Where one can be two
Now I’m confused but what is new
I love you and that shouldn’t have been so
See I’m already in a love square and you make the right angle
I would die if i expressed how high I get when I kiss your thigh
So I keep my dreams only in mind because at least I get my Disney story just without all the rhyme

The darker I am
Then the harder to see
Me in anything besides a penitentiary
Because that’s the view people get
Even from the six
Mixes me into a criminal description
Where Dark skin
means a quick conviction
Also I’m none to bright
Since my skin ain’t light
But instead that got replaced with might
Which makes me aggressive
If you ask anyone
who more likely to fight
Of course the dark one
so run
Dare we shed a tear
police come near
As being dark skin
and crying brings fear
Because we can’t
check our emotions
My dear
Ladies of shade I feel your pain
Your viewed uglier than most
Because your skin
Doesn’t roast
But I bet they still joke
and call you toast
Despite having the
most unblemished skin around
They treat you like coffee grounds
They don’t even like your sound
Saying you yell all day
Even when your voice is sultry
Enough to slay
Yellow for the fellows ain’t so mellow
Immediately he soft
cause of complexion
But look at his reflection and the cops
Will make a exception
Your a pretty boy
That can annoy joy out of a toy
My fair ladies
this might be shady
But your as needy as a Brady
Latest shoes all the fenty
Ask anyone and
god blessed you plenty
They say you not humble
But I see your bumble
Your gracious until a rumble
Where does all this lip
come from
Look in the mirror
We bad mouth our bother
Even if we have same the mother
All because life makes us a runner
Stop increasing hate
And dictate our fate
By improving for all our sake

I hold my breath when I speak
Afraid it sneak
I want to let it out
It makes me want to shout
But I can’t say a word
Even though it’s my bird
Mind turned into a jigsaw
Putting pieces together my flaw
Because my friends want to forget
I feel so low I need a outlet
My heart springs out my chest
So ready to confess
My eyes go from pedestrian
To friend
To why they let me in
My body rigid and shaken
Since morales I’m breaking
Please don’t tell more
Please close the door
Please call my phone
So I can go home
They drop me off
Knowing I wouldn’t dare cough
I hope to get in bed and cry
Why did I go on a date with a guy?

When I get my first mill/my family going squeal/cause I’m going drop a bank bill/my mom gets her castle/and no longer has to baffle/about her teaching career in a raffle/dad finally get his Dodge Viper/but might get a ******/if puts the word broke in his cypher/my sister gets to be free/not in sense of being a slave/just enslaved to working harder/now let that be someone else bother

My kingdom wouldn’t exist without my queen court/so to my second mom/you getting paid will be my sport/to both your dads/i give one a car/the other a bazaar/to your brother/some beats so he can flow/siah is coming 2020 just to let you know/best for last my queen/what can say I give you the Milky Way/but the line long/so instead a diamond studded ****

To my two seeds/my son you gone be big/so how bout a Ford raptor/for those detractors/that said I was a *******/ even though there knocks give me laughter/to my baby girl/you have so much personality/that a ***** could catch a fatality/let starts with any shoes you want as a formality/for myself/I’m gifted by wealth/and seeing all my people in good health/thats why my dream this isn’t going to realize itself

Four walls don’t make a home
The color grey with agonizing sounds
I never popped nobody’s dome
Yet still treated like a hound
Lumps and browns surround my tray
For dessert a hook to the face
The only thing gourmet
Is if I get a new case ?
Monsters are real
They don’t have horns or fur
I have to repeal
Or my life will defer
Put me outside to work
Not given any rights
I see the framework
To me seeing lights
Beaten daily cuz I’m alive
Dieing internally to survive
I just want the word
In front of me to just say
Hi

By sight you see a black man
One of the most feared
And revered
I send images of a criminal
When I stand still
So the world strikes me at will
People see me and immediately think
Athlete for sure or maybe a ****
Hell even somebody plug
But open the black door
To see a Latino standing inside of me
See my name invoked confusion
Because my look with my surname
Doesn’t equal the conclusion
How I can be so black
And salsa all the same?
As if being Spanish
Was a light skin thing
When many Spanish have African
In their brain
I guess we never associated race
With chemistry
Because you can be one race
With a different color
No one has just one mother
So why can’t we be brothers
O because my title
has to match your ideal
So I should shrink grow a hat
And then revert my skin back
Before it turn black
To save time
I will change my name
To something more black
like Tyson or Mayweather
That way you feel better
I’m a mime and clown in one
Because people laugh at me
And look stunned
Whenever my mouth begins to run