Waking up
Stomach in knots
Endless thoughts
Mind never stops
I'm sick of these four walls

Finally breathing.
Consistency.
Am I dreaming?
Broke down my walls
Didnt take much at all.

What was the point
Of awakening my love
Just to leave me
In an empty
Hollow
Room

I was too much for you.
had emotions that turned you off.
So, he turned back the clock
And went back to the life he knew.

What was the point of waking me up
Into your pool of love
Just to cut
And disconnect
Before it even took off.
It was an almost,

When i think of you,
My stomach drops.
It hurts me, that i actually believed.
But i was dropped, without a thought.
Thanks for dropping me off.
Im still going to reach the top.

now, waiting for the bus
Please. take me back
to inner peace.
Back to me.

You set me free, easily.
Thats enough for she.
To move forward
Without the thought of we.

Each day,
A little strength
i gain
Success,
i will obtain.
Feel the Pain,
Dont run away
Dont ecape.
I will rise,
Transform with time
For this life is mine
To design
I will make a heaven out of my mind
I will alchemize.
Mending, Tending
To The pieces of me that broke.

Polish the dust off.
Each breathe
A moment to restart

-kc

The deeper i seek,
I find it harder to connect
with anyone around me.
Is there anyone that resonates
with my frequency?
Anyone that truly sees
The girl underneath
the more i speak,
The more i feel i need their
acceptance, approval of she.

Then, Klarity arises from her sleep.
The one that doesn't care who leaves,
She is my peace.  For She knows
Her purpose is not defined by who wants me, It is to set others free.

She finds comfort in the uncomfortable
For no change comes easy,
It comes with pain, maybe a bit of shame
In return, we vibrate at a higher rate.
And get a step closer to integrate.
Start to tap into
The purpose of why we came to this time space.

I am always here, the true essence
If you need to contact
Just drop out of your mind,
Into your body
Bleed out pages of ink
And you will find the alignment you need.

You are free.
Take the chances - you won't regret it.
Trust that flicker
Within your being, its calling,
let it lead
your intuition
Is the key to the ignition
The puzzle piece you've been missin'
Universe sees when you trust
And take a leap.
You will shine.
And the others who are on your vibe,
Will recognize
They see more to what than meets the eye.

Programs run deep
Where did your thoughts orignate from?
Are you the one thinking?
Societys brainwash embedded deeply in the psyche.
This construct
Was Built to destruct,
To profit off low self esteem

With every bell ding
another deposit to the pharmacy
They dont want you thinking.
They dont want you to be free.
You might question authority,
They thrive off your self limiting beliefs
They want you in doubt,
full of anxiety and not taking the lead.
So they keep sinking in their teeth to polite society

You are not your identities,
You are everything in between
A word thats not even defined.
You cant be.
For You are otherworldly.
They can't touch your vibe.
Know it. Feel your essence
WIthin your whole being.
You are divine.
You are bigger than time

I will shine.
I will focus on me,
On what feels aligned,
And one day,
When i let someone inside,
I won’t be so torn if they leave.
For i know,
I will always have me, myself and I.
And they will know me better than any other guy.

Learn the lessons,
And get to manifesting.
Life isnt found in over thinking, wishing and daydreaming.

Its found in living.

Kc

Accepted
Rejected
I'm loved,
I'm neglected

You are not defined by the lens others see you through.
Do not abandon you
to get some acception. to be chosen,
by someone who does not see you.
Your value, your worth,
All you overcame,
tied together with a pretty face and lace.
Do not mistake.

My soul always breaks,
in the same way.
Questioning fate,
But I do not spread hate.
Each time rejected,
i it as confirmation,
my daily affirmation

Another dash
added toe the line
and each time
it hits a litte deeper inside.
Will i find love in this life?

Your truth, pushes them to go too deep.
We can' t help how others percieve,
make sure you don't shrink.
and you will be seen.
Ctril
Alt
Delete

All i see
Uncovering in front of me
Tearing at the seam
Colors colliding
All around
Feel the sound
Frequency released

Turn around
Its you,
Staring into
The mirror reflecting
Hi, hello.
Finally facing she.
klarity
the ones that sees beneath

shadows, coming to rise
Inner child, always resides
within the frame,
& she hides,she silently cries
she hates the way she thinks
I feel her pain, i want to comfort her
Must keep her safe.

Yet, her patience grows thin
I can't keep playing pretend.
can only run from myself
For so long
Until there's no more distractions
to save me from my own self.
Sure,
Try to put the reflection on the shelf.
Did the old you fade away?
Or are you just lying to yourself
Rejecting & silencing the parts of you
that still need help.
---
Keep running
Keep wishing
Keep waiting
The clock
Still ticking
Keep dancing
Until your sweet ever afters
you must see your shadows,
And not run astray
Time to integrate.
A healthy array
Of truth and acceptance

Instead of judging
Seek to understand
Is what i always say,
How about i apply it to
The one who's typing this
The who cant sleep
The one who feels the emptiness
And the bliss
Yet feeling irate.
Shes a paradox wrapped in skin
She loves herself yet she hates
& she's trapped in her brain.

What causes her to act in ways.
That she will probably rregret
Tomorrows yetserday..

I pity you,
For how you must suffer,
completely blind
That you lost a good lover.

You and I
Can never align
My spirit is too bright
Yours to bleak
Breathing the same air as you
I sink

Blame, blame, blame
Mr. perfect don't you see?
You are nothing but a fool,
A loser,
And really a laugh at to think i gave you any time in the sheets.
Poke and jab at me
Your words so sharp.
You think manipulating others is art.

You once had a gift
But the gods took back your power
Your soul couldn't wait to devour
Your soul
So dark
Id give every last star
To never had stepped foot into
Your empty heart.

Your aura,
Grey and weak.
So you must cast your shadow
Roar the greatest roar
So no one sees
That little boy in the mirror
Hiding underneath,

What does he think?

What does he need?

What is he missing?

You are the biggest mind game,
And my biggest regret.
If i had one,
Id wished id have never met you,
And id still be who i used to be

Anyone that loves you,
Is on a scary path.
You dont know what love is
Your a user,
An abuser,
Masked as some spiritual computer
But truly the delusional intruder.

i’ve decided,
acted on it.
Now i feel my old selves revolting back.
Dont’ feed in
To the hungry voice within - i
It pretends to be ur friend

Just like you.
Was it all to get some jet fuel?

I saw your soul.
I saw your fears,
I see you in every way i can, dear.

Now the musical notes
Clash and clink
Never thought
Itd feel so bleak..

Here comes the rest of the week,
Im tired of carrying the weight
Of not letting this ship sink

So over this fight
Done staying up all night
Telling myself this is alright
But this is my life.
A purpose to obtain
Yet i spend my days hiding away
Smoking away my pain
And putting on a fake face

Each hit i take
Feels like a bit of relief
With a smack in the face.

How could i be so weak?
How could i let a chemical control me?
Is it just the rush i seek?

It helps me get through the week,
But when its time to lie to asleep,
I cant help but feel all the shame
Ive buried underneath.

Answers, i seek.
I don’t want to treat myself this mean.
Through the things i eat,
And how i cope to get through my misery
Discipline, i need.

How could i be so weak?
I let a chemical
Such as nicotine
Control me.

I fade away
Into the blank space
I close my eyes,
And tell myself,
Just one more day.

I am not a sheep.
Fear and doubt have expanded within my psyche
And taken over what I truly believe.

I know I have the key.
All i need to do is one thing,
And the rest will fall into place.
Trust and believe,
The universe is listening.

My guides are waiting for me
To reclaim
The parts of me that im scared to let free.
My power,
My talent,
And my frequency.
It needs releashed.
The circle is not complete
If I keep my gifts just for me.

I must master self control
To do what is good for the soul.
So i can be free,
And truly be me.
Im halfway there,
But im gripping so tight to this pole
Why do i think i cant let go?
It feels like if i do,
The ocean will swallow me whole.
But really, home is where ill go.
The home thats been waiting for me
To grab the key
And step in

I will be my friend.
Care for myself
Reach ultimate zen
Patience is running thin

My life is not a game.
I am sick and tired
Of this recipe
That only ends
To a road of obsolete.

Nobody knows, the smile i put on is just a show.
If i can do anything,
Is to make me proud of me.

I know what i need to do.
Decide and follow through.
Maybe you wont even be so blue.
Youll be glad that you took the chance
On taking care of yourself again.

Some people, dont get that chance.
You dont need to live life so fast.
Trust and believe,
There is more than you think..
Rooting for you.
On your team.

– be the one who says they can.
Be the one who outlasts and adapts
Be the one to make people believe,
But first,
I must believe in me

Aligned
I am not out of time
I will recover
From all thats happened to me,
From this body that feels like its deteriorating.


I will  commit
Embody self discipline
And show me,
That i AM on my own team.
No more working against me..

-klarity