i saw you but it didn't matter
just another stranger
i made brief eye contact with
your eyes were different though
because they are yours
and they are eyes that i used to adore
they were the same
i guess some things never change

i saw you but it didn't matter
because i saw your eyes
but you didn't see mine

she kissed him goodbye and left
he told her i love you, i'll see you later
once she was out of sight
he turns to his friend with his phone
hot model girl blowing up the screen
he says, she's so incredible, i'd bang her any day

but what about your girl?

oh, her
she doesn't know
so she won't get hurt
it's all good
it's only a little fun
she's great, but she could be better
for now i can settle
but she's nothing that special

cut out my tongue
so that i can stop telling you i love you
cut open my throat
so that i can stop screaming
from this immense pain you've brought upon me
cut off my ears
so that i can stop hearing your lies
cut out both of my eyes
so that i can forget
that you did once exist

all i do lately is lay in bed and pass the time
until i can again call you mine

it's late
you're already asleep
i'll tiptoe down the streets
hoping you haven't forgotten about me

just for an hour even -
can i lay in your bed with you?
lately you're my only medicine
lately the doses have become too small and too few

it'll be like nothing bad ever happened
nothing bad ever happened

where'd you go?
i saved you a place
in case you decide to come home
i left the door unlocked
and saved your place in the bed
so where did you go?
it's becoming too cold
and i'm running out of excuses to stay awake
to hear the door **** turn
and you're here
where you belong

what right do i have to want to die, when people around me who are younger than me die all of the time? what right do i have to throw away the experiences i have had, and yet to have, when some seventeen year old will never have that chance?

what right do i have to want to die, when people are dying before their time?

i'm not afraid of you falling out of love with me and forgetting about me
i'm afraid of you finding someone who can make you happier than i ever did
and i will just become bad memories
not even a good memory
i'm afraid of you learning to hate me
through all of the bad stuff we went through
and she can make you forget
oh she made you completely forget